March 24 will be 3 weeks post-op and I am ready for a fill. Not scheduled until April 14. Once the swelling goes down and everything heals up from the surgery, the appetite comes back and maintaining portion sizes is a lot harder. Plus I am tempted again by non-healthy choices.
I was scheduled to start solid food tomorrow, but mush wasn't cutting it, so I started a little solid food over the weekend. So far everything is going down just fine. How is everyone else doing?
Hello and good morning my friends. Welcome to Banders #7. So, I guess I'll start it off by saying how grateful I am today and every day for the new lease on life that I have. I walked to the office today from the train station. That was something I couldn't do before the surgery. I always say how light I feel and I realized it's not a state of mind, but a physical reality. We are weighed down by the excess weight and all that goes with it. When we don't rumble and jumble as we walk, our steps are lighter. I was listening to my ipod and started to dance a little as I was walking. I'm sure I looked ridiculous, but who cares? When one is thin, even looking ridiculous seems OK.
I am grateful for my for my beautiful grandson who I was able to tuck into my lap last Saturday morning so we could play while Mommy and Daddy got to sleep in a bit. I'm grateful that I fit anywhere and everywhere. No more worrying if I will break a chair, or be able to navigate a booth at the restaurant, or walk down a narrow aisle without having to suck it all in just to get past someone/something.
I'm grateful for my health. I take alot of pills, but many of them are supplements and not prescription for chronic ailments. I'm grateful that I can walk again...that I can swim, bike, climb, and yes....enjoy sex. I am surprised at how flexible I can be now that I'm thin.
I'm grateful that I earn enough money that I can indulge my new found love of shopping. I really think I'm one of the best dressed ladies in the office these days...and I know I've upped the game for others. I am definitely seeing more dresses than I did a year ago.
I'm grateful to Alex for having this site available...and I'm grateful to all the folks on it who are part of my success. I know I would not have been as successful as I have been if not for all of you. I talk about things here that I don't talk to anyone else about. You all know the struggles of being fat, and immobile, and feeling like a failure regardless of what we've accomplished..and I know now how much we 'hidden' people have accomplished. It's helping me to not turn that self hatred towards others still struggling with obesity. It also reminds me that I will always struggle with obesity. Under this thin person still lurks the fat girl. She is the one who whispers in my ear all the time that I'm not worthy of the good things out there and I should just order a pizza and eat the whole thing. She and I clash daily and it's why I still go every Tuesday to the therapist who listens and helps me to navigate this new world I inhabit.
Well...I think I've posted enough for today. Feel free to comment on the above, or share your stories, or say hi, or just lurk. Enjoy your day today...enjoy the upcoming holiday, and looking forward to a wonderfully robust Banders #7 thread.
Liz
One week down and I've been doing pretty well. I was kind of in a funk yesterday afternoon. I wasn't hungry but I was craving food just for the taste and texture. I also was feeling very uncomfortable. A lot of pressure, heartburn type pain, just kind of an upset tummy, but not in a nauseous way.
I started feeling like "This is not what I signed up for" I don't want to lose weight because I feel like crap all the time and don't want to eat because of it". I had that same feeling with some appetite supressents and it sucked.
I didn't feel this way at first, so I thought it was moving to full liquids. I also tried to think of what might be causing more air/gas to build up.
I tried two things differently today. I didn't have my homemade Protein Shake made with powder this morning. I used an Atkins premade shake instead which is a little thinner.
It also dawned on me that I had started drinking out of a straw when I went back to work. So, I changed my drinking glass at work.
I feel much better today!!! I don't know if it was the straw or the thicker shake, but my stomach has been a lot more comfortable today.
