crazygoose

Hmm maybe you should ask your doctor about this. You're not supposed to really be bending over after surgery or lift anything over 15 pounds so I'd be careful and if you're still on pain meds I just wouldn't do it. Maybe you can go there and explain to your instructor you just had surgery and you are limited on what you can do but you know the first few times sit and observe or do some light work.

All I can say is you made this choice for a reason and you've got to remember that. You know why you made the choice to get weight loss surgery whether it be because you know that if you tried to do it on your own again you wouldn't have stuck with it very long or the weight would eventually come back and this surgery is an enforcement into better eating habits. I feel bad that you can't eat with your family but just know that you will be able to again, just differently. I have regrets too now and then every time a burger commercial comes on or every time I open someone else's fridge and see all their food inside but I have to fight it and remember why I got the surgery. Good luck and just maybe take a minute and try to reset yourself mentally remind yourself why you had the surgery in the first place.

This thread is very thought provoking to me and made me realize something. I'm pretty crazy/fearless a big part of it is because of my weight, my weight gives me physical strength, my weight makes me feel invincible like who ever kidnaps a 350 pound woman? I go to the movies by myself late at night and could go on walks to the store alone at 2am etc. I'm not afraid of people because something crazy happened a long time ago when someone broke into my ex-boyfriend's apartment late at night and tried to rob us. My ex-boyfriend is 6'3, 300+ lbs. and he was afraid and backed into the corner but I wasn't having it, I tackled the guy and held him down and my ex had to yell at me to let him go because I wanted to beat the living crap out of the guy. Ever since then I feel like I can't rely on a man to protect me I have to protect myself and probably the guy too. I'm afraid of bugs though so I probably need a guy for that.

I don't know why but for some weird reason I think the sneezing is cute. I can now smell fast food a few blocks away in my car and I used to have a very weak sense of smell. I'm drawn to the smell of regular food (well food I cannot eat) but I become overwhelmed like it's just too much for me and my eyes dilate or something I feel something weird happening with them and I have to walk away from it fast.

Yeah don't listen to people who tell you to stop losing weight. I can see if you were in mid onederland or something but 300 lbs. Yeah it's bizarre that they'd say that. Plain and simple they are full of it and just want to keep you from succeeding either that or they're being phony. I'm relatively new to the weight loss surgery game but I think life has a messed up way of trying to bring you down when you're winning and people can be down right evil. Just ignore them or make them feel stupid if it annoys you that much but you keep going toward your goal and don't let anyone's bs hold you back. Do not listen to them I don't think they have good intentions. I think they're just trying to throw wrenches in your plan.

This is supposed to be an exciting time of my life, I just got my own place Friday and I'm still in the process of moving in and then my gastric sleeve gastrectomy is set for tomorrow and so I'm under a lot of stress as it is. I was confident about the surgery yesterday and was still confident today until my grandpa called me this morning and told me that his friend had died from having weight loss surgery and that I should listen to him and not get it or at least postpone it. Now his friend already had the surgery a while back and lost a lot of weight but he died two days ago. My grandpa claims it's from the weight loss surgery but I'm not sure he knows that for sure. I mean the guy could've had preexisting medical problems, he was in his early 50's as far as I'm concerned he could've died from anything. Am I scared? No. Do I know there's a possibility that I could die? Yes. Am I afraid of dying? No. I talked to a nurse who had a gastric bypass and she reassured me that my surgeon has yet to lose a patient. So I still want the surgery but now it's like I have no joy about it anymore, just opposition from my family and stress. My grandpa also said that if I get sick or need to go to the hospital or anything not to call him for help. I just don't get it. Then my mom keeps playing games with me. I asked her weeks ago if she would take me to get the surgery and she said she would and to just remind her and keep reminding her so that I don't just spring it up on her at the very last minute and to constantly remind her all the way up until the surgery. Well I've been doing that and then she gets mad and says that I keep asking her the same questions too much. She has started playing games saying she's not going to take me after all. I know she isn't just saying that, she has flaked out on me before. So now it looks like I'm taking the bus tomorrow. I don't know how I will get home but I'll worry about it when it's time to leave the hospital. I'm just so sad that complete strangers like everyone here at bariatricpal, the guy at the grocery store, even the guy at GNC have been so supportive and helpful but I just can't get that from my family.

Thanks everyone! I'm at my grandparent's house and feeling great physically. My grandpa is slowly coming around he still believes I will get sick but it just gives me incentive to take good care of myself and prove him wrong. I haven't had to take pain meds since two nights ago and the biggest fear I had was that I'd feel pain after surgery and it's just not the case. I definitely feel my sleeve though when I eat and drink. I'm used to eating/drinking fast and the sleeve definitely let's me know when I'm doing it too fast. As for my mom I'm going to cut her out of my life for a bit. I just can't deal with her she has no remorse and then turns around and blames me so I am done I'm going to move forward as if she is dead until she gets her life together.

As for a ride home I had gotten in contact with a distant relative I can't rely on my mom especially after what she just did to me. She went through my mail at my grandparents house where Im staying until after my surgery whe n I'm able to finish moving into my apartment and stole my new debit card and somehow activated it and spent some of my money. I was able to catch it before she spent too much money and had the card locked. I can't believe she would do this while I'm in the hospital. Sent from my SGH-T399N using the BariatricPal App

Once again thank you everyone for your kind words and support. @Twinkle Toes I actually feel really good I had to ask the nurses several times if I even got the surgery and they said yes. Sent from my SGH-T399N using the BariatricPal App

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So I had my surgery and it was a success! My mom did take me to my surgery (got me there a half hour late then blamed me for not rushing her enough even though I did and got yelled for it) I called my grandpa after my surgery and he was being nice to me.I'm alright, feeling good actually although my blood pressure is a little high and heart rate is kinda low but I don't feel it and have been walking around with no problem. I have so much energy as well. Once again thank you all for your support and encouragement as well as kind words with it I regained my confidence and hope. For that I love you all!!! Sent from my SGH-T399N using the BariatricPal App

To be honest I feel numb about my surgery right about now, there's not much excitement anymore, pretty much like okay lets do this and get it over with. On the other hand part of me is like meh I'm not ready because I don't know how to prepare pureed foods and if I -have- to prepare them. I'm stressed out. Too many things going on at once and while the pre-op liquid diet gave me an awesome 24 pound weight loss I can't be excited or focus solely on this surgery because I just moved into my own place and still need so much stuff so I'm spread thin and I need a bunch of new furniture but I don't think I'll be able to lift things for a while. I'm overwhelmed and it sucks. I've become absent minded and started making poor choices in terms of financial priorities. I can't think straight and common sense has not been my best friend lately. Not sure if it's because of stress or that I haven't had a good meal in a while now. I have somehow survived this pre-op liquid diet, I don't know how but I did. I hung in there and been following the directions precisely although today I went overboard on apple juice and had 5 glasses of it but only one bowl of broth and that's all I've had all day so maybe that's not so bad. Maybe it is because I'm a diabetic I don't know. Yeah...So one more day and it won't be spent resting. It'll be spent running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I have to get my hair done so I won't look like a wild lion tomorrow, my therapist wants to see me one more time before my surgery so I have to see her because it might be the last time since she's being transferred somewhere else. I have to go by my apartment and pick up my overnight bag for my hospital stay and then I have to go grocery shopping for when I come out of the hospital, then last but not least visit my grandma in the hospital and then call everyone in my family just in case it's the last time I'll ever speak to them but I'm not worried in the least about that. I don't think I will die. This body has been through a lot but it's strong. Everything wrong with it is just weight related but that's about to change. I'm hoping two months from now I will be in a position where I can actually appreciate the surgery and the sleeve, appreciate my new apartment and the things I have and I know that I should appreciate them now but I can't. I just feel too anxious and overwhelmed.

Thank you all for your kind words and support. It really means a lot to me. Tomorrow the plan is to wake up at 4:30am and call my mom at 5am and see if she will follow through. If not I will catch the 5:30 bus and I should be at the hospital before 7 and check in is at 7:30am. I should've been asleep by now but I have been very busy tonight getting ready for tomorrow. Anyways I'm going to bed now. Goodnight everyone and see you on the losers bench!

I wish you a safe and successful surgery and a painless and speedy recovery.

Well I finally started moving in. Turns out the lady was pretty old (96 years old) and she died because of old age. I was told she was a nice sweet lady. My place is quiet and has a nice vibe to it so I'm not bugged out about it anymore.

I know what you're going through. Day 4 was the hardest in my opinion. By day 4 I developed an appetite for metal spoons and started thinking about eating my own fingers ( they remind me of sausage maybe?) because I was so hungry. Just hang in there and try not to cheat and I know its easier said than done but your battle starts now. You will even doubt having the surgery and mourn food but it's just passing thoughts that like to attack you while you're hungry or craving food. Don't let yourself become fooled by those thoughts. I kid you not I was weighing 345 pounds last week and now I check the scales on day 7 of my liquid diet and I weigh 327 lbs! So now I'm thinking all this suffering is paying off. The liquid diet will shrink your liver which needs to happen before your surgery and will be a good launch pad for the transition into your new lifestyle.

It's only day 4 and I'm trying my hardest to hang in there. I remember someone else posting about head hunger and I tried to give him encouragement saying what I would do if I was in his shoes but I realize its waaaay more complicated than that. I get it now, I understand man. I'm not used to being long term hungry whatsoever and my mind and my body cannot stand this feeling. I have tried to cheat it, I eat several packets of my oatmeal and broth at a time, I've been sleeping a lot more to ignore it and keep myself busy. I don't think it's mental, I feel my tummy actually yearning for food. I try to drink more fluids but I don't crave liquid at all (which is odd because I'm a soda addict and was chugging up to 8 cans or more a day ) I have to force myself to drink a single bottle of Water in a day. I know this is not good because when I have the surgery I'll need to try to get down 64oz of water daily. I've even started to crave the metal spoon I eat my oatmeal with and got an appetite for it, I've started thinking about eating my own fingers (which I won't but been chewing on them lol) but this is crazy! I've been second guessing whether or not I'm ready for this surgery, thinking about how "happy" and fulfilled food made me feel and all the pleasure I take in eating. I know I need to have this surgery, I have too many problems not to. My life will not get any better if I don't. I really want a better quality of life which is why I want to do this. I'm sure this is only the first battle I just hope I can hang.

Good luck and may you have a safe and successful surgery and painless and speedy recovery.

Thank you all for your words of encouragement and advice. I'm still hanging in there determined to follow this liquid diet and not let the temptations of food deter me from getting WLS. @@Dub Yep I can have Healthwise oatmeal until Wednesday then I have to stop it 7 days before my surgery. I will definitely give the flavored Water a try. Thanks! @@Lori222 Good luck with your surgery. Yeah the ups and downs are real and I'm glad I'm not the only one having doubts about the surgery. @@SkinnyDown Omg you sound so much like me. I always had to hide what I eat and was ashamed to eat in front of people. I remember going to Mc Donald's and ordering two double quarter pounders with cheese or going to Chick-Fil-A and ordering three sandwiches and just not to sound like a pig I would be like "Oh she wants one without pickles" but all that food was just for me. Food addiction is real and I've been also talking to my therapist about it. I've been trying to channel my addictive behavior into something more positive. Well I don't know if its positive but lately its been more along the lines of online window shopping and watching beauty tutorials on youtube. I really want to channel the addictive behavior into something even better like exercising and getting in shape. @@catwoman7 That's why I'm really looking forward to the surgery. Get rid of this hunger for all things unhealthy and control how much I eat. Really looking forward to that diminishing.