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Age: 25 HW: 275 CW: 265 GW: 165 Surgery date: 3/30/16 I am reflecting on a moment that really hurt me. When I was 20, I went on a crazy 8-month long diet. I barely ate 1200 calories a day and I worked out vigorously at the gym. I didn't care what kind of calories I ate (didn't care about protein) and many days I dipped well below 1200 just to see results. I went from 230 to 150 in 7 months. Every conversation I had was about calories and working out. People were worried about me. My face looked sunken in. I was starving. I started eating a more normal amount and continued working out. My weight crept up to 160. Before I knew it, I was back up to 180. As soon as I stopped starving myself, all of my weight came back. Well... I had gone to my PCP at some point during my weight loss. They had a recorded weight of around 160 for me. I went in a few months later for a Pap smear- side note... My PCP is a wonderful man who has been seeing me since I was a child, however, other people in the office are not great- I decided I wanted the nurse practitioner to do my pap because I wanted a female. This was my FIRST PAP EVER! So... I was half naked on a table, terrified of what was about to happen, when this blonde, skinny, young nurse practitioner walks in. She was looking at my chart and she threw it down on the counter. She said... "Are you aware of how much weight you've gained?" I said "ummm I am here for a Pap smear, I don't want to talk about my weight with you." -Weight is ALWAYS a sore subject, but it is especially sore after you know you've gained when you shouldn't have and you're not emotionally mature enough to handle this BS!!!- Ok, so she insisted on talking about my weight over and over again. She told me I'm going to die early and that I'll never be happy as an overweight person. I started crying and continued to cry all throughout the pap. I didn't want her to touch me. I didn't want her to look at me. It was just a really awful experience. It has been 5 years since that incident. I have kept my weight gain to about 30lbs since. Despite her rude ass comments and chilling demeanor, I have been happy. I can thank her for that challenge. I have cute clothes to wear and a plethora of friends and a loving, healthy boyfriend who is happy for me and supportive. I am in a good place, and I am FAT. Because I'm in a good place, and have been for quite awhile now, I am so very excited about my upcoming sleeve gastrectomy. I want the tool. I can't wait to be healthier and more active. I'm happy I'm doing it now so I can finish enjoying my life. I would like to write that nurse practitioner a letter, but I'd have a hard time being nice! Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

Thanks RJ, I understand you now take care and thank you! Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

JamieLogical, I am 5'6! thanks for the well wishes Yes, it would make sense if she were my doctor and she hadn't seen me and blah blah but that wasn't the case, as you said. She was pretty awful and she didn't know when to stop. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

Inner Surfer Girl, I am attending a support group already twice a month and meeting with a therapist once a month. I ended up really liking the guy who gave me my initial clearance so I just kept on seeing him! It has all been really helpful for me and less weird than I thought it would be. Thank you for the well wishes! Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

RJ'S, Perhaps you missed the part when I said this incident happened 5 years ago. I am not under any sort of impression that WLS is a cure or a miracle. I know what I need to do, and I will do it. I was sharing something that happened to me in the past that others can relate to. I am at the point where I am happy regardless of what others think... That is exactly why I shared this story. Thanks for your well wishes! Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

So happy you got approved the preparation/insurance requirements and the waiting game has been good for me. I've learned how much patience I really have!!! Lol Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

I saw all the posts about Genepro- I've heard this might be kind of a "scam" with fancy wording that may only deliver about 10g of Protein instead of 30. If everyone's healthy and feeling good then I guess it's alright, I'd just be careful. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

Hey Melissa! I'm thankful I only have to do a one week pre-op diet. One week will be hard enough lol. I'm going to try hard to stick to Protein shakes and broth. It'll show good discipline if I can do that. I know I'll have to eat similarly immediately after surgery too so I may as well practice! Lol. I am nervous but excited because I know I'll feel amazing once the healing is over. I'm ready to take control of my life. Has the place you're going through been helpful? Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App