Thank you to the OP for posting this and I appreciate all the responses too. I am scheduled for bypass on March 12 in Tijuana. I am going through thoughts telling me its not worth it. You can do it on your own. But after reading all the responses here I think I am making the right choice by using this surgery as a tool for long term success.
I find myself on these forums every time I start getting doubts and after logging on I calm down when feeling anxious. Thank you all for your comments. You never know what you typing is getting people through some difficult self doubts.