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I AGREE!!! Xanax is a controlled substance that should NOT be taken four times a day, every day! You need a medicine that will control, like Paxil or Lexapro. PLEASE get a new doctor - I would not trust a doctor who allows his patients to take a highly addictive drug so often! This isn't your fault; your doctor (and frankly, your pharmacist), should know better.

{{{hugs to BBK}}} deep breaths now! thinking of you!

yayyyy Nicole you did it!! so happy for you! i was thinking about you on your surg date. i'm glad your hospital experience went so well. dilaudid is so the good stuff. i'm looking forward to the drugs (!) it sounds like you're all set up at home. that's great! keep us posted on the next few days. your incisions look really tiny! congrats on getting through the yucky part in 1 piece :tt1:

hey everyone, hope all are well. i've got 20 days till the big day and i have some questions... 1) i ordered two Vitamin supplements: (1) Centrum chewable, and (2) twinlab Calcium citrate chewables. Is that it/is that all I need? 2) does anyone have sam the dietician's email address? 3) is there anything else i should order? i bought the sampler pack at chrias so i'm going to be trying the unjury and Isopure this week, see what i like so i know what to order. i'm gearing up! i finish school on wed. thurs i meet w/dr. irgau, then maryellen, then sam, then off to st francis for my PAT. i ordered a double-high inflatable mattress for mom, who is coming to be with me (she lives on the jersey shore, where i'm from) for a whole week when i have my surgery. i feel like i'm nesting and getting ready to have a baby! i'm going through a lot emotionally right now. i am mentally preparing myself as though someone i love very much is dying. i'm gearing up to mourn my dysfunctional relationship with food. i know this sounds over-analytical, but i really feel the need to go through this all the way. to make things more complicated, my only sibling, my older sister, is not supportive of this (lucky for her her "biggest" weight problem has been a size 14 - and that was for a month and she looked incredible at that size. she's been a zero, too. b!#ch). she thinks i am taking the easy way out. extra-unfortunately, i moved here to go to school, but i chose this school b/c of her living in the area. we're not even remotely close. i guess i was sort of hoping for her support in this so i could have family local for the journey. and that's not happening. plus, i haven't told any of my friends yet. i feel like it's a really big deal, telling them, because of the way my sister reacted. i'm going to tell my two best friends from law school this week, after finals are over. i picked them to be my friends - and i didn't pick my sister. my friends will be supportive. i just know it. that's why they're my friends. my skinny, beautiful friends :thumbup: sorry for the rant/outpour of emotion here. i guess i needed it! -megan

"I just stayed with the same lunch time), and that whatever I told her was confidential, and so forth. A week later I found out that she mentioned it to the HR Manager, which I thought was fine, seeing that he is the HR Manager. Now, a week after my surgery, I find out that that isn't the only other person she told. A friend of mine, is an assistant to one of the producers, and he asked her how I was doing, and she acted dumb and said, well what do you mean? and then he said, well you know what I mean, her surgery. Everyone knows she had it done. I am soooo upset and hurt by this." Of course you should be upset and hurt by this! They have NO RIGHT breaking their confidentiality. People in management scare me sometimes - they know a lot of personal information - and they are often the chattiest people. GRR!! (can you tell this happened to me?!) Who's the absolute highest boss/manager where you work? If I were you, I would make it a point to sit down with him/her and explain how you feel that employees' personnel files are being breached - that's what this is! I'm sorry this happened to you. Good luck - keep us posted on what happens.

I agree - switch if you can. I sure would if I could. An hour is not that far away. Good luck!

I'm with ya, Nicole. I have some serious anxiety (ahh, drugs!). My main question at the first seminar was "The drugs.. tell me about the DRUGS! When do we get the happy calm DRUGS?!" People laughed but I was serious! I am not going under the knife without some serious happy shots! Anyway, I know tomorrow is your date and I am thinking of you. Sending CALM thoughts your way. You've prepared all that you need; there's nothing left to do. You've done more than you need and so you'll be great. Best wishes!

Realize bandster here! May 30, baby!

holla! bmi is 59 at the moment. my doc didn't say anything about 60+ bmi - just that if anyone gains 20lbs between first appt and surgery they cancel it.

I'm in the same boat! I start my Optifast next Friday. I'm worried that I'm going to be such a bear, and/or that I'll be starving and cheat. The one thing that keeps me going forward full-speed? Knowing that the optifast diet will make me drop some weight, fast! Think of how good it's going to feel to lose several pounds in two weeks!! Keep us posted on your optifast!

last wednesday was my one-month-to-go day! woot woot! thursday was my first final. yeah we're not gonna talk about that. i have a take-home final and a huge paper (that i haven't started yet) left - both are due on 5/14. i am cleaning out my cupboards, fridge, and freezer - not only to save $ on groceries (over $4 for a gallon of milk?!), but to get rid of the foods that i won't be able to eat for a really long time (or ever!). i pre-ordered a wii online and also pre-ordered the wii fit. i think that's going to help me get moving again. any wii players out there? it's really fun. i have to lose weight before i can play with my wii fit tho (there's a wt limit). but i will get there! hope everyone is doing well. keep me posted on your progress!

I don't know about post-banding food issues, as I am not yet banded, but... I'm sick of eating. I cannot wait for my liquid diet. I have been eating non-stop for 25 years and I'm tired of it. I hope that lasts!

i'm here - sorta - coming up for air! on a VERY quick study break. the internet and LBT are time-suckers for me. in the middle of finals hell week. will be back at my regularly scheduled posting soon (officially done on 5/14). hopefully not insane when i return. goodness, i need prayers. this law school thing is testing my nerves.

Sue, CONGRATULATIONS! What a wonderful milestone! Did you ever imagine that you could change your life so drastically in just twelve months? It's an amazing, fantastic accomplishment, and you should be very proud!! :tt2:

allison - kudos for going through with the sleep study!! the pulmonologist i had to go to for clearance thinks i have apnea, and suggested two nights of sleep study. i said "no thank ya!" if i have apnea, i'm not going to use a cpap. just not gonna happen. i also can't imagine sleeping in a bed with people watching me or monitoring me.. how on earth are you supposed to be rested/how is that going to produce normal results? i dunno, the whole idea totally creeped me out, so i give you credit for going through with it!!!!!

:cursing::cursing:RANT.:cursing: The process so far has been, well.. annoying. I've gotten a policy exclusion from my "oh so excellent" health care coverage provided by my employer. I've appealed. Denied. I've appealed to HR in my firm. Denied. They won't add the WLS rider. Now on to the doctor. I wrote him a letter, asking for a discounted price of the surgery that would be equal to the write-off from my insurance company. Basically I asked to pay what my insurance company would pay (which after a phone call to the insurance co is 1/6 of what he's charging!). I know how much he gets. I know that if he gets 1/6 of what he charges from an insurance company, he can't bill me for the rest, so basically he has to settle for the 1/6. Today I get a denial from the doctor. I didn't have anything better to do with that $17,500 anyway. Another part of my anger right now is that what REALLY bothers me is how I see people on here every damn day complaining about a couple of hundred (or hell, even a couple thousand) dollar co-pay. With BMIs in the high 30's, low 40's, mind you. Mine's over 50! Not to be a complete bitch, but I need this surgery more than someone who weighs 225. Sorry, but I haven't weighed that since high school. I would have a harder time w/o this surgery than you! I even met a woman in my doctor's office who looked skinny to me. Literally. Miniskirt and everything. She was "broke" but was on state healthcare (on welfare), and was complaining that she had to pay the $500 program fee out of pocket. Waah, wahh. Get off welfare, lady! Your designer shoes cost half the fee! That wacked sense of entitlement bothers me. ARGHH I AM SO MAD. Oh, and I just know that some people are going to tell me that this surgery is worth $1 million, and I should spend the $$ (and I will) and not complain (that, I refuse to do). I'm just in a right state. Thanks for letting me vent.

I have Coventry too!

why on earth does everyone jump down my throat for having an honest opinion the rants and raves area?! I see now why so many people leave this board. Too many attacks!

sorry this is belated, but HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :confused:

With everyone quoting the same response, it looks as though I've hit a nerve. I'm not directing my comments at anyone in particular. I should have been clearer. My anger about those with much lower BMIs stems from the postings I've seen and the people I've met who are only recently obese; that is, those who have not struggled all their lives. Regardless of your reactions to my comments, I'm sticking by them. I guess I *do* have entitlement issues, Ang. Thanks for pointing that out!

Because you're a LB candidate, the odds of you getting approved for an individual plan are very slim. You have a high BMI and are probably un-insurable under an individual plan. Good luck!

my first thought upon login today: "ooh, new format." second, concurrent thought: "OOH! Boo Boo Kitty!!!" You look so fab up there! Represent!! haha :rolleyes2:

hey everyone! i'm a jersey shore girl at heart (born and raised).. transplanted to wilmington, delaware. it's just as fabulous as you would imagine. :thumbup: good topic! i'm curious to see where everyone's from.