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I watched the show gone country with carnie on it and your right she's fortunatly not as big as she was before, but it does make me happy i'm made the choice of getting the band. because like her and another person I know personally there really is no option but diet and excercise once you gain it back from bypass, at least with the band you can get fills to help. I really felt bad for her because at one point on the show she was talking about going out on stage and how everyone was going to think she was fat, and to have gone through that all so publicly to gain it back is a real shame.

So I went to my pulmonologyst on thursday and she told me I seem like i'm in excellent health besides my weight, but she asked me if I snore and I said well if I'm sleeping on my back I breath heavier and maybe lightly snore, however I am single and can't confirm that 100%. So she's sending me for a sleep study do they give you sleep aids for these tests? I really don't think I'm going to be able to sleep with probes all over me in a strange place. Also I'm a little bummed out because now with having to have this test my next appt with that doc is not for another 5 weeks, and I really was going to have all my appt done by wed this week so now this is holding me up from getting a surgery date. I asked if there was any way I could get back to see her sooner but they said no. I know it's not that big of a deal but now that purs me at late april maybe even may and I have a 10 vacation planed in may. arg I really just widh I could get a date so I had some kind of clue. Well having said that back to the sleep study any stories anyone can share please:scared2: p.s. plus on my way to get the chest xray my car died I think its the starter but that made the day so much worse.

I know this is a silly question , but i was thinking about this the other day. Has anyone had anyone ask, or whisper behind there back that your on drugs? I haven't been banded yet, but I would think that with loosing so much weight so fast. Don't people ask you how in the hell your loosing so much weight so fast? Not that I'm really hiding it, my friends know, and i'm friendly with ONE person at work. I just think theres only a few possibilities that weight comes off so quickly. I know that its not like that for everyone, but I just wonder if anyone's had anyone say something to them either way. Really I think I'm asking cause I lost 80lbs once when i was 20 and people i saw from highschool would make comments like that. i'm from a small state someone is somewhere at some point. I just thinks it would kinda be funny.

So very soon I start getting all my preop doc appt's done and I have everyone of them scheduled within a a week of one another. I will be done my psych eval, which is my last before getting a date on 3/11. I think that i've been researching and so excited about getting the surgery that now that I know I have a week and 2days before it's set and just a matter of paperwork, I've been thinking about it non stop. I have so many emotions It literally causing me insomnia. I'm excited beyond belief, and scared of so many things, the surgery, the change in life, the possibility of failure. I feel like if i'm like this now, when i actually get a date I might end up having a heart attack from all the anxiety and the pressure i'm putting on myself. Not just to succeed in weight loss but my life changes too. I thought about it tonight and had a conversation with my best friend and I really think my biggest problem in general is I constantly feel like I'm dissapointing myself, and my parents. Not that they are ever disapointed in me but I don't want them to ever be, I want to be the daughter there proud of not that causes issues , because sometimes I still make stupid childish mistakes nothing big, but enough to usually cost me money I can't afford to pay, or whatever so my unhappiness about feeling like I'm not perfect, manifest itself in my weight. Is anyone else like this? did anyone feel so much anxiety even before they got ther surgery date?. don't misunderstand I want this surgery! maybe my anxiety is about the unknown of being thin for good. I do think alot about buying clothes and going to the beach and feeling good about myself walking around in public. i just wish my thought didn't keep me up at night.:rolleyes2:

well all I know is i'm going to do as much as i can to fix what I really want done after my weight loss and the appropriate amount of time. I have no children and no man, and I am not the type to get involved and get pregnant I just know better so no children anytime soon. So with that said as bitter as I am that I will never have a scar free body, I do realize I am lucky for many other reasons. one being that my insurance comp will pay for this surgery b/c without that I would be doomed. So tt boob lift and if nessicary i'll get the wings removed but I really hope I don't have to. And one day I will have the body I have always wanted, well the closest I can get to it anyway. btw I've heard when you get a tt before children they don't cut into the muscle they just take the skin off. thanks everyone I've been down recently, just all this waiting for appt and approvals I guess.

:laugh: Let me start off by saying I am not banded yet, hopefully the end of this month for sure by april. So being that I know this is the path that I'm going down, I feel like I should be preparing myself by going on a diet now. Or at the very least STOP making such horrible choices about what I'm eating. Since my mindset should be about how I'm changing my life. However in the month and a 7 days since my consult with my surgeon I have gained 4lbs and have not changed my eating at all (meaning no more than usual no less). My insurance doesn't require me to have any kind of pre-op diet. I'm upset with myself for several reasons about this, but mostly because I'm afraid it means I'm not as dedicated as I think I am. I want this surgery, I want to change my life. I don't want be able eat as much as I do. Most of the time justify it that I'm not going to be able to eat these things afterwards so I want to partake now while I can. But I read plenty of post from people that say they started months before changing there eating, and I feel like a failure or that I'm somehow not as motivated or maybe I don't want it as much as they do or did. but I know I do. Is it wrong that I haven't been proactive in changing my life before surgery? I'm so confused along and somewhat ashamed that I haven't been able to change yet. I am aware that the band is a tool and of everything I will have to do to be successful, but I guess I want to wait, for what I don't know maybe a surgery date or maybe till my two day pre-op liquid diet I don't know. Is there anyone that was like me before there surgery, not completely ready to give up the food before I really really have to? I'm certain I will be successful I'm not going to do all of this for nothing I do finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, I just am scared. my lack of willingness to change beforehand not only scares me, but makes me angry at myself, but not enough I guess to change...story of my life.

I smoke pot, I have an awesome job I pay my bills have intelligent friends that all smoke pot. My one friend is in med school with a 4.0 gpa. Another works as a cad designer. All very intelligent successful people in there early to mid 20's some in there 30's. Like almost all people with weight problems I have some issues I need to deal with, but I don't drink which causes ton's of medical issues including death, and I don't take xanex and valium which causes hundreds if not more deaths every year from overdoses and have you ever met a pharmacutical (sp) addict? there just if not worse then crack or heroin junkies. So for all the holyer than thou haters spewing your rederic about potato heads and judging people for smoking the same thing george washington grew. keep taking your shots of liquid death and popping your doc prescribed cures. I'll continue to smoke my plant grown directly from the earth and go to my fabulous job using my functioning brain. As was so poetically said by bradley nowell I smoke two joints in the morning. I smoke two joints at night. I smoke two joints in the afternoon, it makes me feel alright I smoke two joints in time of peace, and two in time of war I smoke two joints before I smoke two joints, And then I smoke two more Sorry I know most everyone here is not negative but for those of you that only want to judge and not accept everyone for who they are. Good luck living on that high horse.:w00t:

has anyone seen the eat cookies to loose weight commercials? wtf is that and who is that dumb? I bet they taste like shit so you don't want to eat them or anything else!

I agree with mazziemommy just get soup I don't think anyone's going to make a big deal that your not eating some huge meal. I've come to realize WE think people pay more attention to the food we eat then they really do. I only really notice when people are eating something that looks really good or bad. Really if someone makes a comment about your soup consumption they need to worry about themselves more.

So I hate what being fat has done to my body. I've been fat since I was 12 thats when the streach marks on my thighs started. of course I had no idea what they were at that time and after that it was all downhill. now they cover pretty much my whole body I have giant caverness ones that go from my boobs to my arm pits I won't even get to my stomach my ass my arms on the inner and outer. my thighs all the way to the back of my knees I'm seriously afraid i'm going to look like a deflated baloon! I'm just so angry at myself and at the fat i feel like it robbed me of ever really feeling confident becasue I'm basically scared for life from this. Not I won't be happy with my weightloss and the rest is really secondary, but it really does bum me out, to be so young with no children and to feel like I look like i've had 4 or something. Anyway just my venting.

I have actually been concerned about that very issue I know there are triggers and reason's behind my overeating and weight, but I can't see it when it's happening I just want a cheese steak. I just don't see the coralation or what causes me to feel that way but i'm sure its something. So I'm hoping to start counceling once I get my surgery so that i'm not only helping myself get physically healthier but mentally also.

I found this thread and even though it's been inactive for awhile I just wanted to add to it. I'm 4'11.5" says the doc, and along with just never being able to reach things and the endless ompa loompa comments my whole life clothes have been a constant and never ending stuggle for me. I'm fat so right there I have to search for my size then I have to hope they have it in petite which in no way means it will fit but it will fit better. I can't wear capri's because they just look like high waters. I did however figure out a way around it when i was thin and if I ever get back to a size 5/6 I know I wear a girls 14 so i've got the kiddie dept to look forward to or having everything hemmed which sucks if need an outfit anytime within a week of buying it. All jeans get torn and ripped on the bottom or suit pants come up under my boobs like anyone's crotch is a foot long, who are these people that need such long zippers? Anyway thankfully i am a hopeful and have kept all my clothes for years so I have every size from 5-24 covered mostly. As for the BMI thing I'm not 100% about that I mean that means I should be 95-125lbs and I havn't been that since 6th grade.

I had it done about 5yrs ago before I put my weight back on yet again. and I loved it afterwards. i've always been a full shaver and it's so hard to get it all and the razor bumps are brutal afterwards. As soon as i get back down to a weight i'm comfortable with I'm so starting to have it done on a regular basis. I get my eyebrows waxed every two weeks they are woofers, so waxing is something i'm pretty use to but whoo hoo let me tell you when I had it done there is no pain quite like it tech suggested taking motrin before i get it done again, to dull the pain just a little. Althought it really hurt there's nothing like it once it's done. So afterwards because your pores are open and your swollen and sore down there they told me to go buy desitin. So there i was laying in my bed spread eagle with desitin on my hoo ha lmao but it did help. I tell all my friends to suck it up and atleast try it once. You never know.

B-rog for sure that is one of my nsv goals so congrats to you!

So I wanted to put this out there because I am curious about differant types of eaters, and there individual progress. So I am an overeater along with loving greasy fatty foods, when I do eat them I eat and eat and eat even when i phisically feel like i might be sick just because I love the taste of the food and I want to finish it. keep in mind I am not banded yet. So with that said I do not eat all day long at most I'll eat my three meals a day and a snack or something maybe even another meal( just being honest) My point is that there are people like me and then there are the people that say there hungry all the time and so they eat all day picking at this grazing on that they eat ice cream and chocolate and they consume from waking to sleeping. For those who have been banded what type of eater were you? Always hungry or over eater? And which has better results with the band if they differ at all. What brought this question to mind is in my paperwork for my surgery one of the questions was what will you do with all the extra time you'll have now that it won't be spent eating? And my responce was I will actually be spending more time eating then ever before becasue I won't be able to inhale my food anymore. Just curious if anyone thinks there is any kind of a differance.

No more chub-rub I love skirts but not when it causes burns on my inner thighs. Not wearing sweat pants or some other variation of non buttoning elastic wasted pants with a t shirt becasue I can't offerd to keep up with my weight gain and my clothes anymore. Being able to see my hoo ha without a mirror because my stomach is in the way. Not having my bra underwire either pop out on every bra or poke into my arm fat and hurt me all day. To walk straight for a long time without my lower back tensing up and taking my breath away. To have predictable regular periods. To not feel so bitter when i go to the beach or the bar or anywhere and see thin girls, I'm a nice person but i'm so jelous of thin girls that can wear whatever they want I think awful thoughts about them. It's so hypocritical. To feel comfortable being me and not so self conciece of what others may or may not think of me becasue i'm the short fat girl. To fit into my old express size 12 jeans

Thank you very much jachut. I mean really I am a little ahead of myself here I mean I haven't even gotten my surgery yet, but I am hopeful and with hopefulness comes a million differant idea's in my head. I truly do want to wear a two piece not a tankini a two peice again in my life, and since i have know what my stomach looks like when I'm a size 5 after all the damage my weight gain and loss has done to me I know for me to feel truly comfortable in one or even to be truly comfortable naked a tummy tuck is my only option I just don't want to spend all that money just to ruin it once I do decide to have children. But then again I am going through all this now for health but also because I want to be and feel sexy and attractive. So I may as well do it all.

This is just a general question, I actually haven't had my band surgery yet but at 26 I have a huge stomach,and have for most of my life even. At one point when I lost a lot of weight my stomach still had a lot of extra skin. That being said I know that to ever get to a wear a 2 piece bathing suit I will have to have a tummy tuck, but I have not had children yet and wanted to know if any one has an opinion on if it's better to wait till after I have kids or do it now. I've heard that if you haven't finished having kids or not had any at all ps won't tighten the muscle underneath they'll just cut away the skin. Anyone that know anything more or has an opinion please I just wanted to know if i should start saving now. thanks

So i officially got every appointment made and everything including psych evaluation and pcp clearance will be done by 3/12. I can't even explain how happy I am the only thing I have after that is insurance clearance and my surgical evaluation at the hospital. I was wondering I mean I know everyone's experience is different but how long after the appt's are done till surgery date? My insurance from what everyone tell me at my center and the doc's office is not usually a problem about getting approval. So I guess it really comes down to hospital availability and since my hospital that I chose as an entire floor dedicated to bariatric surgery it's should be that long I would think. Anyway I'm rammbeling I asked the woman in charge of chrias (the hospitals bariatric surgery center) how long she thought and she said probubly next month but i guess I'm wondering did she mean march next month or april next month? anyway if anyone could please share there story i'm just so happy that this is finally coming true I just wish I knew an exact date NOW!

Hi everyone, I am pre band about 2weeks away from being done all my appts, however when i go for my one and one with my nutrisionist before my surgery he requires that i have all the vitimans and protein powders with me. So my question is does anyone have a suggestions of the favorite protein powders flavored and unflavored, also they gave us a sample bag of some of the products they sell in my doctors office like unjury and healthwise, should i stick with just purchasing these products from the surgions office since obviously that's what they suggest or is there cheaper better version's I could order online. I guess my real issue is i've never likes protein shakes there chalky and gross and i want the best tasting and least exspensive . If anyone could help with with suggestions that would be very appriciated.

So I wasn't even aware that these websites exsisted and I joined fitday today and it's awesome! I'm so excited I called my friend and told her about it, it's so helpful because i never know how many calories most of the stuff i eat is. Thanks everyone!

:tt2:When I originally decided to have the surgery I was telling all my friends cause I was so excited and all of them know how long I've struggled with my weight, but my best friend has not been completely supportive, but that really doesn't bother me because it's my life not her's and she'll get over it. Now with that said I did make the mistake of letting the woman I sit next to at work know and although I appriciate people's concern I really hate when someone say's your really not that big, not because I have some weird issue, but because this is my decision about making myself healthy and happier in my life and being able to take control, and I don't want someone passing jugement on how overweight I have to be in order to feel out of control or uncomfortable enough to make such a decision. I mean I understand it's a natural reaction for people to try and say something nice, but how about a good for you, or well I hope everything turns out great. I don't really care but it does erk me a little.

Well I guess I'll go next. I'm 26 I gained started gaining weight when I was 12 and was 150-190 through out high school at 4'11", after high school i dropped 80lbs that stayed off till about 22 then slowly the weight came back I stayed at 165 for almost a year and a half and then I within the last almost 2 years I've gained 50lbs. I'm trying to get all my appointments done to hopefully get my surgery in april. Well that's my story. Congratulations to everyone that has had success thus far and to all of you in my situation good luck.

that is why i come on here, I'm 26 and none of my friends have ever had a weight problem quite like mine, although some have weight issues none of them have stuggled there whole life or need to lose as much as I do. I also love the fact that i have learned more on this forum then anywhere else i really do feel very informed because of everyones freedom to ask questions and all the help that everyone gives. I do have to say I am very lucky the friends that I have told about this are very supportive and so is my family, they all just tell me that whatever decision I have to make to make me happy and healthy is fine with them and that's awesome. I'm just really hoping to get the surgery soon so I can start my journey.

I'm really happy i found this forum, I started my lapband journey last month, I'm really hoping to get everything done and my surgery by early april. I like most everyone here have had a weight problem my whole life, I've done ton's of research and decided that this is the best way for me to take control of my life and health. Everyone here is such an inspiration to me the before and after pics and especially knowing that other people my age have the same issues and are making the same choice, also reading the success stories makes me feel like I can really do this. Since the process takes so long with all the appointments ( although I am lucky my insurance does not require 6 month preop diet). Someday's I don't feel like calling the doc office or thinking about it but i log on here and it inspires me to get this done as fast as possible, So that I can be a success story too. Anyway I just wanted to say that you all inspire me and thank you for sharing your successes and disapointments it really does help with understanding just what I'm getting into.