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ellie123

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  1. Thank you so much @MarinaGirl! Your words are so encouraging to me! Indeed tomorrow I will be going to see a Bariatric Psychologist and pour my heat out. I will be looking for resources and support groups, because I am really not as interested about how much I will weigh 1 year out vrs 5. And you are right, I start the official 1 week pre op on Wed, but have already stopped all the obvious nonsense. Food funerals are futile...I can’t hold on to the taste, and just cuz I have it, does big mean I will not crave it again. But it does mean I’m setting myself up with more to loose. I’ve ordered some Food Addiction books “Emotional First Aid” for Bariatric patients etc. This is gonna be a battle, that is physical, but mostly mental. I am trying to get my Whole Head into it with focus and determination to succeed. Just praying I wake up from Surgery anc am given a chance to get this right!
  2. AW, thank you @Frustr8 ! Very excited for you! As a first time surgery, you will do awesome! This procedure is the Gold standard they say. I will be happy to stay in touch and share my experiences with you as we will be only 2 weeks apart. Thank you for the vote of confidence and for reading my long post 😊💕
  3. Thank you so much @ChaosUnlimited my post was so much more painful but I tried to edit out the drama, and leave the facts while secretly screaming for help. This revision is all I can think about. It has GOT to work!! Wishing you blessings on your journey too! 💕🙏🏼
  4. ellie123

    Never Ever Ever

    Dreading pre-opp for Aug 22nd as well. But I have a different plan, 1 week Of 4 optifast meal replacements a day and small protein veggie dinner. Liquids day pre op. Then 3 weeks clear liquids post op... yickes!!!!
  5. @MissPoodle I was just wondering how you did with your weight loss? I have regained Is your primary revision reason too loose regained weight or just fix Stricture?
  6. About to do a Sleeve to RNY on Aug 22nd as well. This is for weight regain due to a bad Sleeve surgery 3 years ago. Tests revealed that the Sleeve was made too big and mishapen like an hour glass, which did not set me up for success at all. So I'm being revised to RNY which will also take care of the GERD and they will fix the stricture I have and Haital hernia. Nervous and very cautious about getting excited...I really would like to know the true differences between the two procedures. Will this never ending hunger ever go away? Is it true you loose weight so much slower etc. Would love to hear more about how you all are doing...
  7. Gosh, that actually sounds like a pretty reasonable progression to solids @AtlantaRed Hoping it's just head hunger you have an not actually physical hunger so early in the process.
  8. Susie, about to do Sleeve to RNY on Aug 22nd. Please update us on your progress. Hugs and best of luck as you recover
  9. Thank you so much for the updated @AtlantaRed and congratulations on your first 6 of what will hopefully be many many more pounds! So excited the surgery is behind both you and @beautifulmess I can't wait to join you both on the other side. I know using the restroom post op helps a lot so glad your functions are returning to their new normal. Wow that is certainly more food than my doc is saying I can have. Only clear liquids for 3 weeks....hmmmm Do you feel like your hunger levels are lower? It's impressive and perplexing you are able to tolerate so much so soon. But impressive in a good was as like I mentioned post sleeve I got dehydrated from not being able to drink. Please do keep us posted. Love and hugs
  10. wow! @beautifulmess so sorry you are having such a rough time! You poor dear! Indeed after the Sleeve, I could barely sip on ANYTHING and wounded up going back into the hospital for dehydration. Oh boy...how is this even possible to have so much so soon. I've been told I need to be on clear liquids for 3 weeks...woa? 3 weeks...oh dear....Do you experience any hunger? Please do keep us updated. Prayers your way that your belly settles down and you regain your strength and good mood and start to see results!
  11. Wondering how you ladies are doing with your revision? Scheduled for a Revision Sleeve to RNY on Aug 22nd. Super nervous. I regained the weight I lost form my sleeve. Endoscopy revealed that my sleeve was cut too big and in the wrong shape (hour glass), so I have a Stricture, Haital Hernia, GERD etc. I'm glad I have answers now. That plus regain makes me a prime candidate for revision to RNY. I have so many questions. I've had the Band, Sleeve and now going in again...gosh, even though I know my surgery was not done right, it's so hard not to feel like a failure and worry that the RNY will not work for me. Not much out there on such revisions. And some doctors were saying at most you will loose 10 - 25lbs revising from Sleeve to Bypass. WOA? Anyhow, could really really REALLY use a buddy in the same boat right about now...
  12. ellie123

    Vsg to rny

    I would love to know as well... can’t seem to find a revision forum here...
  13. Has anyone else had Surgery there or with Dr. Fox? Any information, advise, thoughts, reviews on any of these will be very much appreciated!
  14. Has anyone else had Surgery there or with Dr. Fox? He's doing Lapband revision to Sleeve and Gallbladder removal for me. Any information, advise, thoughts, reviews on the facility, doctor, procedures will be very much appreciated! Just trying to prepare myself on what to expect. Green Lights!
  15. Folks, I cringe to read the title of my own post. I think it's every Baratric patients nightmare. The mix of embarrassment, guilt and resentment that I feel is horrid. Especially because my lapband failed and the Sleeve was supposed to work. Now I'm not saying it did not work, I'm saying that I have seriously fallen from grace and need your help and compassion to get back up again I was doing great, working out North of an hour a day and loosing weight steady eddy! At my 4 month appointment my doc could not be prouder, he told me to keep doing what I'm doing and he'll see me in another six months...by month 6 I'd lost a total of 69lbs, and at 204lbs's I was just 1 lb shy of the big 70, and 4 lb's shy of the amazing Onederland that I have not seen in 16 years...life was good. And with my new found confidence, I finally made a move and took my dream job, that is a mix of stay at home and travel, and that was the tipping point... Although the best career move ever, my new regimen of working from home (moving less), but even worse the travel, with the pitfalls of constant restaurant eating, company functions and buffets, I let my guard down! One carb led to another, and the travel accompanied by sedentary tiredness, socializing and pressures of breaking in and fitting into my new job left me with less focus on my bariatric journey and not much will power to dedicate. In a short month (between month 6 and 7) I blinked and even though I maintained workouts (albiet no so intense), on sheer food alone, I gained back 10lbs!!!!!!!! Woa? How could this have happened? Surely it's Water or monthly hormonal gain, but who was I kidding...the weight stuck! In complete panic, I cut out the obvious crap that I know I was doing wrong in the carb department, and cut out the diet sodas that crept back in etc, and have lost 3 of the 10lbs in the last few weeks...but it's slow and painful and I'm so down trodden about it. How could I actually GAIN at a time when I should be in loosing honeymoon? I mean I expected this perhaps a couple years out, but the sheer ferociousness with which the lb's jumped back on is beyond scary! So here's my problem...I've cut out the crap and I'm back to my old workout routine, BUT I'm constantly craving carbs and although I'm eating the right things...I know I'm eating too much of them and in the wrong quantities.., I get full on more than what should fill me...then 30mins latter I'm hungry again, so I pop another Protein bar, or bowl of cherries, or low at mozzarella cheese stick with a wassa cracker, or cup of lowfat yoghurt and fruit., or some nuts..you get the picture, and on some mornings I can do all of the above slowly via grazing. But I just get SOOO hungry. What happened to all the Grelin being gone?? I also eat late at night as it is when the kids go to bed, I hop on my laptop to catchup on work and I like to have a nice hot cup of tea and something to munch on. Pals, Iike I said, I know I have only myself to blame and I feel horrid about it ...I've avoided even coming on Bariatric pal (did not want to move my ticker 6lb's UP, which I just made myself do!!!), I want to hide like an Ostrich and pretend this is not happening, I should be loosing, not regaining and trying to loose what I regained!!! ..but...I need you, and if I'm not accountable and if I don't plug into a source of help, well...I don't even want to think where I'm headed for. So any thoughts, encouragement, similar situations, advise...ANYTHING, would be so much appreciated in this time of disappointment in myself. PS: I called my docs office after re-gaining the first 5lbs...I don't live very close to them. The nurse told me to track all I eat for 3 days and said I'll be fine "you know what to do! You got this!". But then I suddenly had to travel for work events involving TONS of the hardest to resist food, and the 5lb's became 10lbs (3 of which I have spent the last 2 weeks loosing). It's like my stomach can eat so much more now and it's constantly wanting more...I'm quite embarrassed to call my doc's office and tell them I'm further in the hole.
  16. Update: All, wanted to check in and let you know your kind words of advice and honest scolding has been super helpful! With the exception of seeing a counselor I was able to implement it all. Substituting more real protein for bars, ramping up the workout, bring why I did this back into focus, resetting my sleeve with shakes, cutting out the obvious BS (3 days of tortured carb abstenace to gain back control), watching and limiting the Fruit, small meals, working out in hotel gyms (I never stopped doing that), focusing on protein protein protein, sipping on water all day etc. And I am So happy to report that The results of these efforts have yielded a 7.7lb loss so far from the 10 gained, so I'm 2.3lbs away from lowest point I hit a month ago. A part of me wants to be mad... I should be loosing or at worst maintaining here! Not te-loosing previously lost pounds, but an even bigger part of me is just plain grateful... Grateful for being back on track, grateful to have been given Air in my lungs to have another day on Gods Green Earth, and grateful for you my dear journey mates, most of whom I will never meet, but who so faithfully and caringinly keep watch over each other and me. Thank you so much! I will continue to keep you posted!! My next challenge is daughters birthday party this weekend... There will be custom gourmet cupcakes in so many flavors. What does one do on kids birthday?? How to get through this temptation and potential leftovers (there will be lots of pizza!!), does one not celebrate this event with their children?? and one more thing...more work travel next week, so far all weight loss has been while at home so quite nervous about restarting the travel...
  17. Found the "like" option on the BP app, now there's a little victory!!
  18. ellie123

    Move, move, damn stall!

    Beautiful post!!
  19. Thank you so much for the tips. fellow Owl! On silly IPhone app apparently does not have a "like" option, but I LOVE your response!!! And will go "like" it in the am. Will followup with that book too. And seriously, I feel so honored you reached out at this crazy hour. Blessings, love and weight loss to you @@jintycb!!!!!
  20. Wondering if anyone else has experienced changes in their countenance since surgery. Following my Sleeve surgery I think I'm doing great. It is very exhilarating and I am so grateful for this tool and all that it is doing for me, BUT, without the comfort of the foods I used to love there for me as I deal with life;s stresses..I have found myself, more tired and I definitely have a shorter fuse. I'm way more irritable than usual, and I am especially disappointed with myself when I am not as patient as I could be with my little ones I'm learning new coping mechanisms, such as exercising (which is the best mood lifter ever), but it's not an instant cure that I can just take. It makes perfect sense when I think about all that my body is going through and the adjustment not just in what I eat, but that entire relationship with food that has now been minimized from BFF for all occasions to daily sustenance. I religiously work out for at least 45mins daily and religiously take all my Vitamins. I think I'm doing okay with Protein but getting enough Water remains a challenge. Anyhow...just reaching out to see if anyone else has experienced mood changes and how you coup with them!
  21. Ladies, I've only had my sleeve a little over 3 months, but I can't help but notice how much more painful and uncomfortable my period is and that the hormones seem to go that much more out of wack causing a very notable increase in the severity and duration of PMS symptoms. My doctors office says fat stores hormones and that loosing weight releases said hormones into the blood causing this. I was wondering if anyone else was experiencing similar and if you had any other insights into this less desirable side effect of the Gastric Sleeve... : \
  22. Today marks 3 months since I was re-born into this brave new world! And since that day, I cannot even begin to enumerate the exponential feelings of wellness and hopefulness that have begun to saturate my life. My goodness, I knew I needed help, but I had no idea how much of an addict to food I really was, and how every aspect of my life was somehow either tied around food, or mitigated by food, most of the time in negative nonsensical self-harming ways! Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined, or even supposed in my defeated mind, that I could come so far in so little time! But here I stand, 3 months later, half way there, 54lb’s lighter, working out north of 1 hour every day (no excuses and I love it, and actually look forward to it!), no longer prediabetic, experiencing wellness, dancing around with my kiddos with giddy abandonment, full of energy, wanting to take pictures again, with a renewed sense of self-worth, with a focused mind, doing a double take at that lady in the mirror, being more in control and feeling so positive about most of my food choices. Friends, there is a brand new energy that I oscillate with these days, and there is an inner joy about me that I forgot I was even capable of experiencing. I have spent today with a heart full of gratitude to God, I think that is most of what I feel today. Grateful that I have been rescued from what was not only a miserable, but a horribly unhealthy, sunken life. That I came through surgery and could see the faces of my kiddos again! For the amazing friendships I have made along the way on Bariatric Pals, without whom this journey would have been an infinitely lonelier one. You know who you are…thank you!!! All this…and I’m only half way there!!! I’m more motivated and pumped than ever before. So I wanted to share this with you, thank you all for your love, encourage you in your journey (especially if you were like me, so torn about the decision to do or not to do!) and invite you to let me know where you are in your journey, your thoughts and laments around 3 months, or before or after! Just a collective pause to savor the goodness J Sending you Sunshine! Ellie
  23. I started before surgery with walking and walked right through surgery! Before surgery I worked up to 10k steps... Then down to about 2-3 k day off surgery and then in under a week back to 6-7k and then 10 and now I'm doing 18-20k steps a day with a little jogging. I cycle and do weights in my excercise room (best investment ever!). I also have a treadmill, weight set station and TV in there to keep me motivated. Who needs a guest room when u can workout daily and use a blowup mattress when needed. Does this answer your question? I'll be happy to share more detail if you like. Feel free to private message me ). Big hugs to you dear

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