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i won't be disappointed. I'd just rather be prepared than not have anything at all. I'm a pretty good ebayer ????

I live in Highlands Ranch! how neat! Maybe we can meet up sometime when you are in town!

Thanks for the great advice everyone! I did end up buying a couple of XXL shirts. I had a butt ton of gap cash to spend so I wanted to make the most of my free money so to speak. nothing special just 2 waffle knot henleys and a sweater. I did stop short of buying anything expensive like this one sweater I reeeeaaallllyyyyy wanted because I have no idea if I'll ever wear it(too small this year might be too big next year) but I hate baggies and my current clothes are already baggy so I'm almost out of these and in my old clothes from 4 yrs ago. I have complete winter wardrobes from 28 down to 24 and a few decent 22's, I just want to know if it was possible to get to the XXL in that time frame at all because I wanted to buy a few things while they were basically free with my cash or if that is really not realistic at all. When I get to XL I'll not be worried because my daughter's wardrobe will be my new "shop" LOL I've been dressing her in my dream clothes for the past 2 years so once I hit there I'm golden! lol I don't buy pants before I need them though because I am a yoga pants mom so until they fall down and can't be stitched in an emergency, there's no need! plus I have a whole bunch of maxi skirts and a decent amount of knowledge on how to take in a waist so I'll cut them down til I can't.

I don't know if you've tried it or not, but I find I feel fuller on my protein shakes, even the premade kind, if I dump it in a bullet blender and blend with some ice. It's like the ice is that extra something I need to fill me up and since it's just water it won't ruin your pre op diet.

So I'm a planner. I can't help it, it's what I do. I HAVE to plan stuff or I feel physically ill. Anyway, I'm about to finish my 90 day program and I'm wanting to plan at least some clothes for the winter, because it seems all the good stuff is gone early on and by Jan/Feb. the bathing suits and shorts start hitting shelves. So if I'm currently wearing a size women's plus size 28 or 30 if it's jeans or lacks stretch. Is it reasonable to think I could be wearing a 20/22 by May or a n XXL as opposed to the 4x I'm currently in? I live in Colorado so we literally can have cold up through May so I'm hoping to snag a few things cheap now if I'll be able to use them instead of risking them not be available when I need them. I also plan to hit a lot of the after Christmas clearance sales but I don't know where is a reasonable point to be. I know everyone loses weight differently and for me in the past, I usually lose weight fast out of the starting gate and then stop gradually and put it back on in reverse. I don't want to get overly optimistic and then set myself for disappointment, but I don't want to be naked and shivering either. ???? what do you think? Is it realistic or am I being too ambitious if I buy 20/24 and XXL clothes if I have surgery the end of OCT?

I think clothing sizes have changed dramatically over the years. When I was in college, I was 200lbs and wore a size 24 at 5'10(I've lost an inch in height since then from blown discs) so I kept 2 dresses and a pair of shorts from those clothes hoping someday to fit them again. My daughter wears a size 12 and is 5'8 and just under 200lbs and she fits those old shorts and dresses I held on to-just pulled them out of storage in anticipation of getting to wear them...but she wears a size 12!! So apparently, sizing has changed since I wore them in the late 90's. Really is a kick in the face to think I felt as huge as a blimp when I was that size and looking at my daughter, I know I wasn't *that* big. Probably needed to exercise some, but now I'd just love to reach that size again! Maybe what you are remembering as your weight at a certain size was before they changed the size chart?

Don't listen to her. She doesn't know you or your struggle. She doesn't understand how hard you've found for those pounds. When I started my NUT appts, I lost 22lbs and since then, I've been fighting like mad just not to gain anything! I've got 1 more spot left and pray to GOD that I haven't gained anything and I am still following my diet and exercising. It's just doing what always happens. I lose 20lbs or so then I have to fight to keep it off and then slowly it comes back on while I am fighting and screaming to keep it off. Most people don't get that. They just convince themselves that surgery is the easy way out. It's not the easy way out and honestly, you don't need people like that in your life. Those are not friends. Those are defeatists. Toxic people who just want to make sure you don't succeed, because if you do succeed, when you do succeed, they will have to take a look both at how they treat you and others, but also at themselves and what they need to work on themselves. Might not be weight, but more how they hurt others and that makes them uncomfortable, but not enough to change themselves. It's easier to drag you down than to lift themselves up.

I'm a rare person who can't stand Quest bars! They make me gag! The taste is just absolutely disgusting! I really like the Pure Protein bars especially the chocolate chip one. I have one for breakfast almost every morning now.

Thank you so much! I feel really great! I went to Kohl's yesterday and bought the softest, warm robe for winter...in a small! You can do this! I'm rooting for each and every one here! ???????????????? gosh, at 5'9 I don'tThink I'll ever make it to a small, but I'd be ok with an L or XL even! sometimes I can't imagine what it would even feel like! I've been over the 200lb mark since 5th grade at least!

@@Sherry G you are an inspiration to me! I started out at 410 at my consult and am still in pre op. People like you let me know it actually can be done! You look amazing!

I have 7 kiddos and I have included them in the whole process along the way. The oldest is 13 and my youngest is 14months so obviously he doesn't understand much, but I talk to him anyway. especially how he's going to miss pulling up my shirt and hugging my fat belly! I've told all my kids that mommy wants to get healthy so we can do fun stuff like the zoo again(haven't been able to walk the zoo since after kid 4 was born). I tell them that it's going to be a little scary and mom will be in the hospital like when I had the other babies, but instead of bringing home another baby, I'll be in a lot of pain and it'll hurt. I might even cry, but It's ok. Mommy is getting her tummy fixed and it's going to take awhile to heal and sometimes it's going to hurt. I talk to them about why I am eating slow, and eating the meat first instead of the veggies like I've always told them they have to do, why I am not drinking anything with my meal, why I get made when they rub cookies on me while I'm exercising, why we go on "death marches" as my oldest daughter refers to our walks LOL...just everything! My older kids have watched the surgery on episodes of Fat Doctor etc and my oldest actually went and watched a non-edited or sanitized version on YouTube with me. She can actually draw a diagram of what will happen even, so for her, that's how she understands. She feels like she knows this operation in and out now. For the younger ones, the 3yr old and the 5yr old, they just understand that mommy wants to get healthy and my tummy has to be "fixed" and that when I'm done, I won't be able to eat food for a long time just liquids or smush like baby food and even afterwards I can't eat the stuff they eat like their cookies because it'll make me sick. They also get a big kick out of me saying that my exercise ball is my belly and it'll shrink like this and then pull the stopper out of the ball and watch it deflate. At first it goes kinda fast, then it slows down, then when it's all deflated it has to be cut off and there's the whole pantomime thing and it's funny and they laugh.

I was told that I needed to wean my baby prior to surgery, because it's too much strain on the body to nurse and lose that amount of weight at the same time. Also, your body is fighting for vitamins to keep itself going and can't afford to give them up in milk. So I weaned my 13 month old in Aug. in anticipation of surgery coming up in Oct/Nov.

Scales are lying sacks of shyte. I'm just going to say it. I've been working my @ss off(still pre op) exercising daily and my clothes are falling off especially my pants. Stepped on the scale and that piece of crap tells me I gained weight...again! Don't listen to scales, they lie! Jeans with no stretch NEVER lie! Listen to them!(sorry, I think I just put my own rant in here!)

The fact the Psych called your husband without asking you first is a break of HIPPA and you definitely should file a complaint. Also, anyone who is pushing one procedure over another because of convenience to them is certainly not concerned about you, your well being, or your weightloss. You need to leave there and have your records transferred to the new clinic. It is possible that all you've done to this point can be saved and used-although the psych evaluation, I'm sure I wouldn't trust anything in that and have it redone with a new one.

I understand your thinking, and after my huge non surgical weightloss last time I did the same thing, but my therapist actually said that keeping them around is at least on some level saying to yourself that you plan to fail. You've failed before and you are planning to fail again. By getting rid of them, you are telling yourself and the world that you really have made the change for life. So, I'm definitely getting rid of mine. There's no way I'm going to go back to this. I just can't.

I'd probably either list them on Craigslist or go to Goodwill. I always wish I could find my size in goodwill, so after my friends get their picks of my clothes as I shrink out of them, the rest will go to one of those places. Free of course. I know it sounds weird, but giving my clothes away for free is like therapy to me.

My NUT has me practicing this whole thing and honestly it's harder than people realize. Especially for me because I have kids to feed and kids who need stuff and I'm hopping up and down and all around and I never get to just sit and consciously eat. It's hurry up and shove it down before the next thing comes along I have to go do. It's frustrating, but I've started making rules to help like if they didn't ask for it before we sat down, they have to wait type things and only refills will be gotten is after daddy finishes. I've started singing silly songs between bites to help time me. If you don't want to sing them out loud, do it I your head and when you finish the song it's time for the next bite. Like one of the songs I use is "hickory dickory dock, I don't want to wait for the clock! The food is getting cold the bread becoming a rock, hickory dickory dock!"then I repeat it 3 times. By then I'm ready for the next bite. Or I'll walk my fork around the entire circumference of the plate like I'm being a clock. It's childish, I'll admit, but it works for keeping me timed without a timer. I just set the egg timer for the 30 min mark and I've really gotten the hang of it! The only part I am having trouble with is that I over spicy my food and then I'm crying for a drink of water to kill the heat while I wait!

Congratulations! I'm 2wks and 4 days away from being submitted, not that I'm counting or anything! Gosh! We've almost made it to THE DAY! So excited!

I have a couple of herniated discs as well. Just start with your physical therapy exercises on the ball and do what you can and work from there. As your body gets used to the exercises, it does get easier as long as you are mindful NOT to do too much too fast. Your back will let you know if you do! I started out just sitting on the ball and rocking back and forth, doing the pelvic tilts, leg rotations and the modified leg lifts and doing laps around the island in my kitchen while pushing my desk chair for when it got too hard and I needed to rest. Then I got to where I could walk down to the corner and then each day I went a little further til I got around the block. Over the past few months I've progressed and added more things. I time my home routine to 2 xfiles episodes on Netflix now so that's probably about 40 mins of exercise where on day 1 it was probably closer to 3 mins. I have some resistance bands and they have a door anchor I use to vary exercises. The lightest band is like the resistance of a rubber band really and they progress up and can be stacked to about 150lbs of resistance I think(nowhere near there myself). I started off on that smallest band and have moved up as my body tolerated. I'm up to 25lbs of resistance and feeling kinda proud of that! what you have to understand is that exercise is relative. If you are used to doing nothing, then merely doing something is exercise enough to produce a good weightloss. If you are used to doing more, you just have to go a bit beyond what you were doing and maybe add 5 more and that will be enough. I think we all have a habit of thinking we have to become gym rats by the time this thing is over and honestly, I don't think that will be me. I'm more of a compete against myself kind of person so I'm capable of doing that in the comfort of my home or on top of a mountain as opposed to a brick building where you look at others and feel you don't add up or aren't working equally as hard or harder than the dude on the treadmill who runs 3hrs a day on incline. Our bodies are our built in weight resistance until we lose the weight.

Mine was done at the bariatric center of excellence and I didn't have much choice in the matter. He definitely isn't someone I wanted to chat with or would seek help from on purpose. Just didn't mesh well, but it's just a routine thing and not that bad just to make sure you aren't a psychopath who is addicted to drugs or whatever so if you are worried, maybe just ask for a referral to see someone or if your office has an in-house psych, see them even if you never plan to see them ever again.

I wanted to, but the reality is, I have no clue where I might be next year size wise, so I bought clothes I want to hopefully wear next year for my daughter instead. She's 5'8 and wears a size 10/12 so my thought is, if I get to her size, I'll reclaim them all, and if I don't, then she's still a well dressed kiddo! Haha I did buy a dress and leggings a few sizes down from Old Navy with my oldNavy cash in anticipation of needing something to wear in the months post op. Felt weird buying clothes I know don't fit, but I'm sure it'll pay off when I wake up needing clothes one day and my current clothes and my "used to fits" don't fit enough to leave the house.

My NUT visits aren't covered at all under my plan. If I wanted to go to my PCP and get a referral to a covered one, I could have, but they would not be a bariatric surgery qualified NUT and would not know anything about preparing a person for bariatric surgery. They'd probably be more like the tyrant I had for my gestational diabetes "counseling"(more like saying your fat and stupid and that's why you are here so let's play plastic food and talk about how you are fat because you deserve it by being a fat pig who eats too much than actual help) so I chose to pay for my NUT out of pocket. The grief saved alone was worth the $150 per visit hour rate. It doesn't count toward my deductible either sadly. I've only accrued $45 towards my personal deductible, but my kids have been to doctors and specialists even a trip to the ER so I'm hoping we are near the family max deductible. Which is $2500. I wondered if we had to pay our part up front before the surgery too or if it would be a wave of bills for the next month afterwards.

What really gets me as I sit here thinking is why the hell was I not proud of the fact I walked an entire freaking orchard without getting tired or needing to sit down while pushing a stroller through ruts and crags and tall grass and carrying my huge basket of apples(don't trust kids to carry something so heavy and hubby had the other basket)?!? Why is my 1 fixation the fact that I went to crapville on my diet? Why is that my ender? Why am I so cruel to myself. Would I attack a friend like me who did the same or would I tell them how proud I am of how hard they worked? *sigh*. I guess I need to think about that awhile. Why do I mentally verbally abuse myself to the point I don't know how to go on after what a I perceive is this huge failure and how can I prevent from doing that in the future.

i thought the same thing in regards to my husband and kids. Originally I wanted to plan it after Christmas so I could have down time without effecting my husband's work schedule(he's off from mid Dec-Jan 2nd) and the kids would be on Christmas break and I wouldn't have to work school lessons around my ability to teach while recovering, but to my surprise, they have been really good about the whole process thus far. My husband actually came to me and told me he'd rather I go when I was finished with my 90 days and not try to wait it out til Dec. he's happy to take that time off. I also have been walking my kids through my steps and telling them what life will be like for me so they kind of understand and aren't scared. As for the actual appt, I know they can vary greatly, but mine was pretty much what I expected. Started off with a visit with the in house NUT and we talked about my eating habits and she wrote that all down and she figured up about how many calories I was eating in a given day for the insurance. After that, I was weighed and the doctor came in. He looked at my 2pages of diet history and we talked about the various procedures and he asked me what I thought I wanted. He doesn't push a procedure on patients, but will tell his opinion on your choice type thing. I told him I was thinking rny because I know I have a lot to lose and I'm a sugar fiend and I heard that is the best option for people like me. He agreed. If you don't know what would be best, then you get a run down of all the procedures and a recommendation based on what he thinks, but I kind of already knew what I needed before I even hit the seminar. They took a brief medical history of me and my parents/siblings/grandparents/blood aunts/ uncles and cousins and used that to piece together what looks like strong evidence of a gene that is most commonly found in people of my lineage and who settled in the parts of the U.S. Where my people all came from which also supports that theory. Talked about what the surgery would and would not do. Chose a starting goal for when we will consider the surgery having been successful. We talked about recovery time. We talked about the scars I already have from gall bladder surgery being a good roadmap and he'll try to use those scars and maybe just add one or two more. He let me ask questions. I ask weird stuff when I'm nervous so I tried not to ask anything. I already made myself known at the seminar with my oddball questions and he remembered me on sight so, yeah, good impression there! LOL but overall, it was nothing new or unexpected except at the end he said I'd be doing a 90 day program instead of the 6 months I had planned in my head so that made me kind of swoon a bit. I'm glad now that it was only 90 days. I'm so ready to get this over with. Then at the end they gave me forms to get my medical records from my doctor and that was that. It's not painful, at least for me it wasn't.

Thanks everyone for your wonderful comments. I realize I would never let my kids treat themselves as badly as I do myself and did over this one bad choice. The #%^@!! Scale is still up but I'm going to try hard to stay off it a few days and keep chugging my water and trying to stick to my plan. I think what upset me the most is that I KNOW that Chinese food is a trigger food for me and it's like I deliberately went in there knowing it was a bad idea. I just don't know why I do that to myself.