Jennifer Ostermeier

I am 8 months post sleeve. I am 12 pounds from my goal weight which I set...not my doctor. I wanted to get out of the "unhealthy BMI" range. There is a chance I'll lose more than that, but for now, 12 pounds to go.

I have written a blog for many years, it started with looking for plus size clothing, learning about the Health at Any Size movement and now I write about binge eating disorder and alcoholism. (Yep, I got the double whammy)

Just wanted to put it out there, that the sleeve has helped me so much, but I still see my eating disorder evolving and trying to manipulate the crap out of me. The sleeve is my tool, I am full, I try not to eat any more. But sometimes I do overeat. And that's okay.

https://healthatmysize.com/2016/10/14/its-a-slippery-slope/

im sure someone has asked and answered this question before. I did a search and none of the answers were what I am looking for. I am feeling number obsessed right now. I would like to know if I am hitting the monthly % of excess body weight goals. Does anyone have something like that?

My surgery was 2/22/16. Day of surgery I was 251. Today weighed in at 196! Pretty flipping exciting. I log everything that goes in the pie hole. Helps with accountability. I try to plan everything I will eat the day before. Including Snacks. (Takes away emotional eating) I eat every 4 hours. This is my plan. I'm sticking to it!

Oh yeah, I'm still angry. I am trying to use different skills to deal with this shit. I'll keep you posted.

What makes you think like it's not going to happen? You are losing weight at your body's comfortable pace. Try not to focus on the pound so much. I know I do the same thing, but I also know that the disappointment when I haven't lost the weight can leave me to eating things that are off of my plan. I get obsessed with how much weight everybody else is losing so that I can compare myself to them. It is a useless waste of time. What do you learn about yourself? Keep up the great work, in six months you may just be under that 200 pound mark you want to be.

@@Jennifer Ostermeier hi there! i cannot tell from your profile when, and if, you have had surgery. i assume you have. how far post op are you?

i have found myself feeling very irritable occasionally. it usually only lasts several hours, and has only happened a few times. i feel for you. the best advice i can give is this: when you feel very irritated, remember your body is changing a lot! hormones are bouncing everywhere. take it as just part of the weight loss journey and dont go nuts on your family. just walk away, go outside, take a deep breath and get it together. your family does not deserve to be jumped on. i say that because i am preaching to myself as much as you. i have lost my temper when i should not have. it is not permanent. try focusing on the weight you will lose and how great you will look and feel this too shall pass my friend.

keep us posted!

It seems I can't do anything around the house without finding something that someone has done to irritate me. This morning it was my husband not putting the dog leash back where it needs to be, so I can take the dog for a walk. My son leaving glasses, open chip bags, and a general mess on his desk.

These are all things that I can typically coast without much problem. But now I am having episodes of extreme anger. Please tell me this is only temporary.

I'm the same!!

I recommend a therapist or group that specializes in eating disorders. I went through intensive outpatient therapy prior to the surgery for exactly this reason. This is a great one if they have a place near you. https://www.eatingrecoverycenter.com

Secondly, look for eating disorder anonymous would also be a great option! http://www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org/meetings.html

In terms of stalls, while only a month out, I do not weigh. Feeds into my disordered eating and addiction too well. I will become obsessed. Let my doctor take care of that piece for now.

I'm interested in learning what being for a sleever looks like months out from surgery. I am currently less than one month from surgery and would like to see what my eating might look like two months from surgery, three months from surgery, Etc. it would be nice to not only see the volume of food that will be necessary/required, but what types of restrictions there will be in each stage. I do realize that every surgeon has different recommendations, but does anyone know where I might be able to find a generic resource like this?

I can drink like normal. Solid foods are a different thing entirely!!!

I really understand how you're feeling. I keep reminding myself that food equals food. Food is not there to give us emotional satisfaction, or emotional support for that matter. Food is food. The relationship we have with it on an emotional level is one of the reasons we got to this stage in the first place. I can't advise you on having the surgery or not having the surgery. But I can encourage you to do is to seek emotional support either way. Disordered eating is no joke. There are many specialists out there that can help you. I am a much stronger person because of the work I've done with therapists. I wish you all the luck. You are not alone.

Oh gosh, I'm so glad to see someone else post this! I'm getting pretty sick of the things I'm eating. The Protein Shakes make me want to vomit. I'm pushing through, but geez!

The Isopure drinks are good. No problems. Hoping the chicken broth from Unjury will be good. Am I supposed to not drink 30 min before and after a Protein Drink?

Please share the fb page.

Hey there! I was admitted back to the hospital. The Friday after my surgery on the 2nd, I came down with a really bad cold that turned into feverish chills on Friday. They have continued until last now. My husband drove me to the ER yesterday. My white blood cell count is very high and I'm showing signs of and infection somewhere. they'll be doing a endoscopy or something along those lines tomorrow morning. They're thinking maybe there was a small leak that healed itself but that has left fluids in my abdomen. I should know more today. I'm not worried, but I'm freaking out for my kids and my mom! My parents leave for South Africa on Saturday. I will keep you in the loop.

Yay! I'm doing well. Home now. Surgery was on Monday. Came home Thursday. I need to stay on top of the pain meds AND try to kick this cold. Been doing liquids mostly, though I've got a freezer stocked with purees. NEXT WEEK!!!

Couples counseling today calmed things a bit. I'm ready. See you in the other side.

My surgery is scheduled for Monday morning. Up until the last few days I have been doing really well, but this evening my emotions and fears swelled up until they burst all over the place. I am finally settled down a bit, taking some deep breaths, and calming myself. I know I am exactly where I need to be. That doesn't mean I'm not scared.

Dr nagel at northwestern. My surgery is Monday!

I head in for surgery Monday morning at 8:30. Getting kinda nervous!!! [emoji15]

I am Feb 22nd

My surgery is scheduled for Feb 22, 2016. So excited!

We are having surgery the same day! Are you starting your liquid diet tomorrow too?

Yep, started my pre-op diet today actually. Good luck to you!

My surgery is scheduled for Feb 22, 2016. So excited!

I did watch the video. It seemed like a mixed bag for people didn't it? I think it has a lot to do with how you are coming at this. Do you think this is the thing that is going to fix everything? Have you resolved or at least look at the part of you that has disordered eating that is in the head...not in the physical hunger piece. Do you have a therapist who understands the struggles of obese people, people with disordered eating?