shugal

I am 47....or as I like to tell people: 23.5 .....***just happens to be for the 2nd time*** LOL LOL What?? LOL
I didn't get the surgery at 47 I've had it for a few yrs....it is NEVER to late to get healthy ...IMO and hasn't anyone told you? 47 ...er ....23.5 is the new 30 heehee

I gained 4 lbs....I am thinking it's my own fault...I mean the lapband didn't do anything different. Now I have to figure out what I did wrong and Why and admit to myself so I can get past it.
I am grieving over the unexpected loss of my dad 4 months ago. NO that is NO excuse to eat wrong/more
but it doesn't mean I listened..
My PCOS also hampers weight loss, it makes it much slower/harder than normal. Again NOT an excuse.
I admit, I have done something...too many calories? I ate too much? Do we calorie count? I know I ate too much at Easter dinner because I felt So FULL for hours and hours and I felt gross...I am trying to keep that memory alive so I don't repeat it!
I wasn't active at all because I had shoulder pain then back pain which made me sedentary...I am thinking now I should of ate less because of that.
I wasn't keeping a food journal...uh huh...looks like I'm an idiot. ..I should have!! I DO NOW!
All I can think is I ate too much, I know I wasn't following the PFC plan 100%...
I needed to admit to myself what I have done wrong, then to this forum so I am accountable...
After all the lap band hasn't changed..if too much is put in...oh it comes RIGHT BACK UP and or I get that Not fabulous burping gurgling....ugh.
*slaps self* Ok...I must get past this.. it's not easy...but I know I have to live with life's upsets and get past this...know my mistakes and move forward...
So...am I supposed to calorie count? or do I just stick to the PFC way of eating? <<getting used to that is hard<<
I still find it hard to not drink while eating, I get so thirsty, but food & liquid do NOT mix with the band...ooooo noooo it does not...
That is my confession for today...

I can't wait until I am amazed I'm not fat! LOL omg that must feel amazing!!

I gained 4 lbs....I am thinking it's my own fault...I mean the lapband didn't do anything different. Now I have to figure out what I did wrong and Why and admit to myself so I can get past it.
I am grieving over the unexpected loss of my dad 4 months ago. NO that is NO excuse to eat wrong/more
but it doesn't mean I listened..
My PCOS also hampers weight loss, it makes it much slower/harder than normal. Again NOT an excuse.
I admit, I have done something...too many calories? I ate too much? Do we calorie count? I know I ate too much at Easter dinner because I felt So FULL for hours and hours and I felt gross...I am trying to keep that memory alive so I don't repeat it!
I wasn't active at all because I had shoulder pain then back pain which made me sedentary...I am thinking now I should of ate less because of that.
I wasn't keeping a food journal...uh huh...looks like I'm an idiot. ..I should have!! I DO NOW!
All I can think is I ate too much, I know I wasn't following the PFC plan 100%...
I needed to admit to myself what I have done wrong, then to this forum so I am accountable...
After all the lap band hasn't changed..if too much is put in...oh it comes RIGHT BACK UP and or I get that Not fabulous burping gurgling....ugh.
*slaps self* Ok...I must get past this.. it's not easy...but I know I have to live with life's upsets and get past this...know my mistakes and move forward...
So...am I supposed to calorie count? or do I just stick to the PFC way of eating? <<getting used to that is hard<<
I still find it hard to not drink while eating, I get so thirsty, but food & liquid do NOT mix with the band...ooooo noooo it does not...
That is my confession for today...

Thank you for the input peeps :-)
GoWalking: I am now using the My Fitness Pal App! Thank you!!! it even tracks my steps via my iPhone!!! YAH!!! Just what I needed!!
B-52.....LOL sorry I couldn't help but giggle at the "phases of moon" ect ....LOL
I think I will just stay away from the scale ...Ok ....just try to weigh myself lke 1x month or 2x month vs going insane weighing myself all the time
Thanks Bandista, I am going to go by what's fitting me and how my mobility is, I have increased my activity, it now includes yard work! So I'm burning calories + inches....I think I will stick to weighing 1 or 2 x month instead of oh...every few days ...
I shall keep everyone posted ! Onward to Healthy!!!

So...am I supposed to calorie count? or do I just stick to the PFC way of eating? <<getting used to that is hard<<
If it helps you to calorie count, do it. My fitnesspal is a great app. I used it for a very long time. I really helped me to stay compliant at around 1,150 calories a day. I don't need it anymore because I can eyeball my portions at this point but it was a great help to me in the early days.
If you don't feel you need it, don't use it. You'll know what works best for you. Good luck.

I gained 4 lbs....I am thinking it's my own fault...I mean the lapband didn't do anything different. Now I have to figure out what I did wrong and Why and admit to myself so I can get past it.
I am grieving over the unexpected loss of my dad 4 months ago. NO that is NO excuse to eat wrong/more
but it doesn't mean I listened..
My PCOS also hampers weight loss, it makes it much slower/harder than normal. Again NOT an excuse.
I admit, I have done something...too many calories? I ate too much? Do we calorie count? I know I ate too much at Easter dinner because I felt So FULL for hours and hours and I felt gross...I am trying to keep that memory alive so I don't repeat it!
I wasn't active at all because I had shoulder pain then back pain which made me sedentary...I am thinking now I should of ate less because of that.
I wasn't keeping a food journal...uh huh...looks like I'm an idiot. ..I should have!! I DO NOW!
All I can think is I ate too much, I know I wasn't following the PFC plan 100%...
I needed to admit to myself what I have done wrong, then to this forum so I am accountable...
After all the lap band hasn't changed..if too much is put in...oh it comes RIGHT BACK UP and or I get that Not fabulous burping gurgling....ugh.
*slaps self* Ok...I must get past this.. it's not easy...but I know I have to live with life's upsets and get past this...know my mistakes and move forward...
So...am I supposed to calorie count? or do I just stick to the PFC way of eating? <<getting used to that is hard<<
I still find it hard to not drink while eating, I get so thirsty, but food & liquid do NOT mix with the band...ooooo noooo it does not...
That is my confession for today...

I can't wait until I am amazed I'm not fat! LOL omg that must feel amazing!!

I can't wait until I am amazed I'm not fat! LOL omg that must feel amazing!!

I can't wait until I am amazed I'm not fat! LOL omg that must feel amazing!!

I can't wait until I am amazed I'm not fat! LOL omg that must feel amazing!!

I can't wait until I am amazed I'm not fat! LOL omg that must feel amazing!!

My doctor recommended me for bariatric surgery. She said I am a "prime candidate". The surgeon is supposed to be calling me soon to schedule my first appointment. Before all this, I actually have been attending a class on Mindful Eating (which is required for bariatric patients) but I was just taking it in an effort to become more in-tune with myself and my food issues. I honestly had never even considered weight loss surgery. I always saw it as something I would never do, as a last resort for people who couldn't lose the weight, who had hundredS of pounds to loose, or who have major medical issues. But here I am at 246lbs and only 5'0. My BMI is 48, I should probably loose 125-ish lbs. I have been heavy pretty much my entire adult life. I do not have any major medical issues, but my father passed away due to type 2 diabetes complications in his late 40's and my mother has high blood pressure and high cholesterol. I have tried everything to lose weight, and I have been semi-successful in the past (never got to goal though), only to be derailed by pregnancy. Then after baby, I get back on track and loose some weight, then gain some, loose some, BAM pregnant again, and the cycle continues I'm sure you all know the story. I am having a hard time coming to terms with the idea of weight loss surgery. It is very overwhelming and kind of humbling. I am still in the getting info stage, but the way I have been thinking about it and talking about it to my hubby and my Mom, I feel like I have already decided. But I'm scared to admit it to myself. Seeing as though I have no major medical issues, I feel like this is a little motivated by vanity. And I really struggle with that. Maybe that is my fat brain trying to convince me not to do it? I *AM* morbidly obese, 246lbs is WAY too much for my little 5'0 frame to carry, I am sore and tired all the time. I do get winded on short walks. And I do need to do something if I don't want to end up like my Dad. But does it really need to be WLS? I do feel desperate, like I have exhausted every other option. I am ashamed of having WLS...is that normal? I feel like my family does not support it...and they are all frowning upon me for looking into it. I know their opinions "do not matter", but it's hard to ignore EVERYONE around me. Even my hubby "just doesn't really like the idea", but he will support me in whatever I decide to do. (But long story, I feel like he kind of sub-consciously likes me fat and insecure as he is very heavy as well) I just don't know how I feel about the whole thing. I want to be excited about it, but it's hard.

Oh heck, I'm pretty sure I would of um slapped silly anyone who told me I needed WLS....LOL but hey that's just me..LOL
I don't know why young people are getting so heavy? It seems to me that improper foods, lack of exercise play a big part in it. Back in my day, there were No computers, no cell phones, we played outside, walked everywhere. I think today's society is too automated, too much junk food available and no one to teach the difference. Though today's food is GMO or just straight chemicals..
Fast food and junk food is pushed on our kids today, it's in schools in cafeteria's! At one place I worked, I had to campaign for low fat, low calorie foods in the cafeteria! There wasn't even any fruit!!
Oh and nooooo I so would Not go up and tell anyone they needed WLS...I'm still obese, I'd die if someone said that to me...though you won't catch me with bad foods Anywhere! It's NOT worth it!

Oh heck, I'm pretty sure I would of um slapped silly anyone who told me I needed WLS....LOL but hey that's just me..LOL
I don't know why young people are getting so heavy? It seems to me that improper foods, lack of exercise play a big part in it. Back in my day, there were No computers, no cell phones, we played outside, walked everywhere. I think today's society is too automated, too much junk food available and no one to teach the difference. Though today's food is GMO or just straight chemicals..
Fast food and junk food is pushed on our kids today, it's in schools in cafeteria's! At one place I worked, I had to campaign for low fat, low calorie foods in the cafeteria! There wasn't even any fruit!!
Oh and nooooo I so would Not go up and tell anyone they needed WLS...I'm still obese, I'd die if someone said that to me...though you won't catch me with bad foods Anywhere! It's NOT worth it!

Oh heck, I'm pretty sure I would of um slapped silly anyone who told me I needed WLS....LOL but hey that's just me..LOL
I don't know why young people are getting so heavy? It seems to me that improper foods, lack of exercise play a big part in it. Back in my day, there were No computers, no cell phones, we played outside, walked everywhere. I think today's society is too automated, too much junk food available and no one to teach the difference. Though today's food is GMO or just straight chemicals..
Fast food and junk food is pushed on our kids today, it's in schools in cafeteria's! At one place I worked, I had to campaign for low fat, low calorie foods in the cafeteria! There wasn't even any fruit!!
Oh and nooooo I so would Not go up and tell anyone they needed WLS...I'm still obese, I'd die if someone said that to me...though you won't catch me with bad foods Anywhere! It's NOT worth it!

gotta put hubs on a diet

But MORE of their stuff exists with every 10 pounds lost.

If anyone had suggested WLS to me other than my doctor, I would have punched them in the face....and then cried like a baby. We all knew we were fat and I'm sure these young girls know it as well.
You cannot say anything no matter how much you want to. If someone comes to you for information...well that's different. But unsolicited advice is NOT appreciated.
My concern for myself is that I find that I am feeling negative towards my heavy brethern. I see a large person and instead of feeling sympathetic, I instead feel superior like I did something special. I did nothing special by getting WLS..I was basically forced to do it in order to avoid living in a wheelchair. That's not being special..that's being stupid for allowing myself to get to that stage. I constantly have to remind myself to get off my high horse and remember that under this new, smaller person is still a fat woman while also working with my therapist to separate myself from who I was and start to embrace who I am becoming.
I should start a thread about that...

LOL@ LipstickLady...gee thanks LOL kidding..pls do tell me if I do something dumb LOL

I will. I promise.
That said, I hope if and when I do, someone calls me on it, too.

I hope I never post something stupid...
I have to agree with the Truths you posted under your names ProjectMe & Lipstick lady...they are very correct!
I never understood how the lapband worked before ( I won''t get into that it's in the past) lets just say I UNDERSTAND now.
It's all of the things you posted under you names and then some.
It was eye opening for me to understand it finally! that is is a tool to help me NOT a miracle cure. That I have to make a 110% lifestyle change for LIFE. I have to accept that I can never eat what I did before or even have as much liquids.
I understand all those things and I am willing to make the change for life.
If I should post something stupid ...do slap me one and let me know
I am only at the start of my journey so I'll liable to say something dumb..
Just go ahead and let me know if I do!! :-)

I hope I never post something stupid...
I have to agree with the Truths you posted under your names ProjectMe & Lipstick lady...they are very correct!
I never understood how the lapband worked before ( I won''t get into that it's in the past) lets just say I UNDERSTAND now.
It's all of the things you posted under you names and then some.
It was eye opening for me to understand it finally! that is is a tool to help me NOT a miracle cure. That I have to make a 110% lifestyle change for LIFE. I have to accept that I can never eat what I did before or even have as much liquids.
I understand all those things and I am willing to make the change for life.
If I should post something stupid ...do slap me one and let me know
I am only at the start of my journey so I'll liable to say something dumb..
Just go ahead and let me know if I do!! :-)

Oh..I understand!! LOL...nice to know I'm not alone LOL...I'm still big but honestly that 25 lbs was the difference between being able to bend over and tie up my sneakers vs putting my foot up on something to do it!
Congrats at you having reached that point!! Good for you!!!

I hope I never post something stupid...
I have to agree with the Truths you posted under your names ProjectMe & Lipstick lady...they are very correct!
I never understood how the lapband worked before ( I won''t get into that it's in the past) lets just say I UNDERSTAND now.
It's all of the things you posted under you names and then some.
It was eye opening for me to understand it finally! that is is a tool to help me NOT a miracle cure. That I have to make a 110% lifestyle change for LIFE. I have to accept that I can never eat what I did before or even have as much liquids.
I understand all those things and I am willing to make the change for life.
If I should post something stupid ...do slap me one and let me know
I am only at the start of my journey so I'll liable to say something dumb..
Just go ahead and let me know if I do!! :-)