Joebravo

Thank you.....You are right.....I said I know it is wrong.....but I was just speaking my truth about the
way I feel.....I can fully understand where you stand....I thank you again for the advice.....
I refuse to be fat again and I will never eat that way again in my life....Like I said I really see
myself in them...I hate myself for ever being fat and now I love myself.....When I see
fat people I see me....That is what I dislike or hate...I used to hate myself....Now I love
the new me.....will die before I go back to living that way......

I know it is wrong but the more weght I lose and go thur the pain and
struggle to do it. The more I am starting to dislike fat people who
stuff themesleves with food. Seeing them at the malls eating up
all the fried foods and swallowing down the soft drinks makes me
mad....Yes in many ways it motivates me to stay on the right path
but as I become a smaller person I feel my opinion changing
about fat people.
Yea I know I used to be one of them but damn this is how I
am starting to feel...

Simple....Stick to the eating plan...Just because you can eat anything does not mean you should.
You should only cheat on rare occassions if you want to lose the weght and keep it off....
Eating anything will stop your weight loss and you will start to gain weight....Then you
are going to realy be upset...

I feel the same way. I was at a small family birthday party and my aunts friend is obese and at the corner of my eye I saw all the food she consumed and just thought wow that is so gross why are you eating so so much just stop it looks awful then I express this to my mom once we left and asked was I like that. And she said yes. I just think it's funny being in a better place and realizing how awful certain things are. Although 15% of my weight loss decision was based on looking hot the real reason was because my body hurt and my health was on the worse. Sometimes I want to tell people there are always options. But yeah its a motivation to better myself.

I was just having this conversation with Mom. I think you were very brave for sharing, knowing that some people would understandably react very strongly. I don't hate fat people, I still am one. However, what I do have a hard time with is watching people eat in such huge quantities. It literally makes me nauseous to watch.
Interestingly, this was one of the things I expected to miss the most. My problem has always been with quantities. I could not be tempted with one cookie, because I knew that wouldn't satisfy me, I only wanted ALL of the Cookies, the whole bag. Nothing less even tempted me.
Fast forward only two short months and I hate eating out now because the over consumption is gross to me. I don't want to do it and I don't want to watch others do it. I don't see this as being hypocritical because for me, it is a physical, guttural reaction. I don't judge these people and I am very aware of where I came from. However, I can see where this could grow into an avoidance of spending time with people who over consume simply to avoid my own physical discomfort.
It actually reminds me of the ways in which trauma memories are stored in the brain, with the strong physical and emotional responses easily triggered. Someone needs to do some research on this.

Thank you.....You are right.....I said I know it is wrong.....but I was just speaking my truth about the
way I feel.....I can fully understand where you stand....I thank you again for the advice.....
I refuse to be fat again and I will never eat that way again in my life....Like I said I really see
myself in them...I hate myself for ever being fat and now I love myself.....When I see
fat people I see me....That is what I dislike or hate...I used to hate myself....Now I love
the new me.....will die before I go back to living that way......

I know it is wrong but the more weght I lose and go thur the pain and
struggle to do it. The more I am starting to dislike fat people who
stuff themesleves with food. Seeing them at the malls eating up
all the fried foods and swallowing down the soft drinks makes me
mad....Yes in many ways it motivates me to stay on the right path
but as I become a smaller person I feel my opinion changing
about fat people.
Yea I know I used to be one of them but damn this is how I
am starting to feel...

Yea....It really is my own fear to return back to the way I was....I see myself in them...
I see my reflection in their faces when I see them.....It is nothing personal but I see
fat people as ghosts......Hauting me from the past......
I have got to get more serious and lose more weight...

For perspective, my almost 5 year old daughter has only been to the golden arches once in her life. It was not on purpose either. We were at a bouncy house place far from home and she had run out of Snacks I had packed for her and she had to pee and she was starving burning all those calories running and jumping and playing. Anyways, I avoided telling her the name of the place so she could never ask to go there again because she was enamored that they had toys and indoor playground for children (important here in Seattle with the rain). Anyways, she was complaining and having a tantrum because she had to wait in line for food. She had only been places where she is served food by wait staff. All I could think about is if you frequent places where you have to wait in line for food, it's like pigs to the slaughter!

Yea....It really is my own fear to return back to the way I was....I see myself in them...
I see my reflection in their faces when I see them.....It is nothing personal but I see
fat people as ghosts......Hauting me from the past......
I have got to get more serious and lose more weight...

Seems like you dislike their behaviors.

@@Joebravo,
OK, that's deep and I think the second statement is where the issue is. Weight loss is bound to bring up a myriad of emotions, fears, doubts. We are all afraid of going back. I lost 140 pounds without surgery previously and I found myself back here, having gained back all but 45 pounds. Even after having moments of *KNOWING* that I would never go back. The reality is that is a journey and it is one day, one meal, one bite at a time. There is no permanence in surgery, its only a tool for those who decide to use it everyday.
Maybe on the other side this may fuel you to be of service to others in a way that only you are capable.
Harness your emotions to complete your own transformation.

I know it is wrong but the more weght I lose and go thur the pain and
struggle to do it. The more I am starting to dislike fat people who
stuff themesleves with food. Seeing them at the malls eating up
all the fried foods and swallowing down the soft drinks makes me
mad....Yes in many ways it motivates me to stay on the right path
but as I become a smaller person I feel my opinion changing
about fat people.
Yea I know I used to be one of them but damn this is how I
am starting to feel...

Yea....It really is my own fear to return back to the way I was....I see myself in them...
I see my reflection in their faces when I see them.....It is nothing personal but I see
fat people as ghosts......Hauting me from the past......
I have got to get more serious and lose more weight...

I know it is wrong but the more weght I lose and go thur the pain and
struggle to do it. The more I am starting to dislike fat people who
stuff themesleves with food. Seeing them at the malls eating up
all the fried foods and swallowing down the soft drinks makes me
mad....Yes in many ways it motivates me to stay on the right path
but as I become a smaller person I feel my opinion changing
about fat people.
Yea I know I used to be one of them but damn this is how I
am starting to feel...

Dumping.....Whatever you ate...You ate too fast....or you ate the wrong foods.....
You got to go slow and take very small bites....might have to puree it.....

I think I might try the peanuts.....Even some Peanut Butter.....I love having the surgery but
I hate having to eat so slow......
It is a stuggle for me...

Doc just took me off the Meds...My Blood Pressure was way to low and they were surpized I
did not faint...The Water saved me.....Because I drink so much water I was able to prevent
the fainting......If you have the surgery....You got to have you PCP review your meds....

Doc just took me off the Meds...My Blood Pressure was way to low and they were surpized I
did not faint...The Water saved me.....Because I drink so much water I was able to prevent
the fainting......If you have the surgery....You got to have you PCP review your meds....

I think I might try the peanuts.....Even some Peanut Butter.....I love having the surgery but
I hate having to eat so slow......
It is a stuggle for me...

I am in my sixth week and a friend had a huge bag of Funyons at work....
While they were off doing work in another room...I grabbed about 3 of
them....Chewed them well......They went down with no issue....
Now I got to make sure I stay away from that unhealthy food.....
Seems I dump on just about everything but cheese and Yogurt........
but my body likes the unhealthy junk food.....Funyons is a Onion based
food but I know all the processing and added ingredients make it a
bad choice....but it was nice to have a few.....