Tiffany2015

I live in California....I would have liked it but unfortunately distance is the issue. Thanks for asking.

So where to start...I've feel like I have been on a roller coaster ride for the last 6 months or so. I had Gastric Bypass Jan 2015. So far I have lost 210 lbs as of about a month and a half ago. Truthfully been afraid of weighing myself lately. So I'm 36 years old, don't have any children, not for lack of trying. So I figured my chances of getting pregnant after losing weight were very positive. So went to the Dr. for check up and woman exams and all that. Well I've had abnormal results, pre cancerous in the uterus, before but Doctors always said lose weight and then we can talk about a treatment plan. So here I am 6 months ago, Test came back abnormal, they did another biopsy and the worst news I could have received. Endometrial Cancer Stage 1. So options, hormone treatment or hysterectomy. The tears came, depression reared its ugly head and my hopes of having a biological baby were crushed. So i finally accepted my fate and decided hysterectomy was what I needed to do. Well I go to my follow up appt and Dr basically tells me that I should try a hormone treatment so I can hang on to the possibility of being able to have a baby. So against my better judgement I did. 5 months later after hormone therapy, I go for follow up biopsy. And mind you during this time I tried to not think about babies and possibilities, But since I strive to be optimistic deep down , buried I had begun to hope and visualize what it would be like. Turns out the hormone treatment did nothing, Cancer is still there, no change. So yeah basically my only option is to have a hysterectomy. Again I felt like another piece of me has died. Not to sound so dramatic but ever since I was a little girl, I have always pictured myself with kids. Dr. says I have options, I can freeze my eggs, and still have a biological baby. But truth be told and me trying to be realistic with myself, That is just not an option for me. Aside from that I do not want to give myself false hope. There is no way I will be able to afford any the cost associated with freezing my eggs, surrogacy and all it entails. If I had money and was able to afford it then yes I would definitely do it. So about 3 weeks ago I had a pity party which lasted a couple of weeks, depression hit me, I stopped going to gym, couldn't sleep, basically went to work , came home and locked myself in my room. Didn't feel like seeing or talking to anybody. This week I'm emotionally in between still but I guess I have finally accepted my fate and accepted that it just wasn't meant for me to be a mother in that sense. I have a great relationship with my nieces and nephews and I absolutely in love with my furbaby Gyzmo. Yes he is a spoiled.lil doggy. I started getting back to my work out routine and trying to get back on track physically. Mentally preparing myself while waiting for my surgery date sometime next month. So now I need to concentrate on continuing to lose weight, maintain my sanity in the process of everything that is coming my way. Oh did I mention, I will be having a full, total hysterectomy, so yup you may have guessed already. That means I will be a 36 year old going through early menopause. I have done some research on symptoms and reactions. When I was 200 lbs heavier I was always hot and sweating because it would be physically exhausting for me to mover around. 200 lbs lighter I didn't have to worry about that. Now I may be back to those hot flashes and mood swings? Really? O not to mention that they say woman who have this surgery tend to gain weight after. So the odds are yet again stacked against me. Nothing new there. But I am desperately trying to be optimistic and prepare for what awaits me. I do not want to go back to the 517 lb girl that I was 16 months ago. I have tried to talk to some friends and family about what I am going through but they really don't get it. Having the WLS itself was one thing, I was getting my self confidence back but now dealing with infertility and another surgery and potential weight gain and mood changes. I fely like I needed to reach out and I guess I just want to feel like I'm not alone in this struggle. Has anyone experienced the same type of situation I am currently facing? Any insight or advice you can share with me? I'd appreciate it. I'm trying to hang on to my sanity. :-) Thanks for reading my ranting here. lol

One day at a time! Since I had my GBP surgery back in Jan 2015, that has been my mantra. I now have started to use it for my current situation. That's all I can do. Take it one day at a time. I have no control what may happen tomorrow. Thank you for reminding me that.

I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. It feels like being slapped in the face of your reality. Then add t that the very real possibility of re-gaining the weight you worked so hard to lose. It's a lot to handle, alot of emotions to deal with. I think if after the surgery I find myself in a negative state of mind I will definitely seek professional help. I think that may be my breaking point. In 2004 I was attacked my my younger brother while he was on a drug induced episode and he cut my throat. Dr. said I survived because I was fat, if I was thinner the knife would have done worse damage and I would not be here, go figure that one. lol. It took me a couple of years to deal with that and be able to re-join the living from my hermit status. I never sought out professional help which I should of but just was in a weird state of mind. I feel myself on the verge of having a breakdown. I'm fighting it and always have said I've been through so much stuff and it as just made me a stronger person. But sometimes I just want to be held, hugged and comforted but in all honesty I do not think I would feel comfortable in having that happen. I have always been the one to do that for people. People that know me say that I'm a giver and that comes natural to me. That's also why they say I would be a good mother. I will definitely consider professional help If I find myself not being able to cope with everything going on in my life. Thank you for sharing your story with me. It's very much appreciated.

I have heard that woman do not necessarily have all the same symptoms. My mom for instance is always cold. I was just concentrating on all the negative bad parts. One good thing I guess I won't have to deal with having a period anymore that is a relief of sorts in my situation. I have to keep myself motivated an positive. I appreciate your sharing your experience.

Thank you for your input. It does help in the sense that I know I am not alone. I am trying to focus on the positive but I do have a tendency to bet upset when I'm put into a situation where I do not have any control. I feel helpless then get depressed. I was anti depressants for years and just last year stopped taking them. I felt at piece with myself because I was seeing the changes my body was going through and in doing so also helped me change my mindset.. But now I'm not too sure about how I will be after all this. I am grateful for everything that I have. I'm trying to make peace with that which I can't have. Re-gaining weight after hysterectomy is a big concern for me. But I'm going to continue to push through it and do what I can to get to a healthy weight and stay there. I've been through alot of obstacles so far in my 36 years here, I guess I can learn from this too and keep moving forward.

Well i made it. My surgery was on Jan 28th. Beginning weight before all this was 512 lbs. Day of surgery my weight was 486lbs. Surgery took about an hr and a half. Waking up after surgery was painful. I felt this pressure under my breastbone, very uncomfortable. That night i felt nauseous and started spitting up blood. I was like that until early next morning. I finally felt like i let it all out and that uncomfortable pressure was gone for the most part. The nurse contacted my Dr but he said it was normal. I hsdn't heard any body mention that in any of the topics. I was kinda freakin out. The next day i felt better. Still in a bit of pain and couldn't drink very much but kept trying. Had to stay an extra day in the hospital. But thank goodness i was released to go home today. Feeling much better. My first walk on day of surgery went really well. Day after it went better but you gotta remember to take it easy and not over do it. Choose a comfortable pace. You do not want to hurt yourself. Your body is healing. Originally i was told about 5 incisions would be made but it ended up being 8 for me. Been sipping water and protein shake since i got home. Went for a couple short walks after being home as well. Excited for this recovery period to pass and continue my weightloss journey. I have an awesome support group. My friends and family are awesome. I will be checking in soon again. Tslk to you all soon.

So what do u all think about juicing? Good or bad? Pros and cons?

I'm a little past 4 months post op and I noticed about a couple weeks ago while I was brushing my hair that kIumps of my hair on the brush coming out. I had a post op appointment with my surgeon and he suggested I take hair and nail vitamins. I also have a couple of people that I know who have had WLS tell me this is normal and it will subside. I myself have curly hair but do notice the thinning towards the crown of my head. I plain sucks but I figure, it's all in the process...it will grow back. It's normal.

Hmmm i had 8 incisions but i think it was because i was so big to start with. About 500 lbs. Thank goodness they are healing pretty good.

I heard about isopure protein drink and figured i'd try them since i too am having problems getting all my protein in. I'm 1 month post op and it's the most difficult thus far. It was the grossest thing ever. Smelled like rotten eggs and made me gag. No good.

It's funny that i sometimes fantasize and think about foods i never really liked eating when i could have before surgery. I guess because I can't eat it i still think about them. Crazy!

Hmm sounds good...so at what stage or week can i try this. I'm just about 1 month post op.