Hello folks, at my heaviest I scaled at 312pds and my lowest 147. Well in Jan of 07 I was blessed to have RNY in NY and spent a lot of time afterwards enjoying the new body yet I knew deep down inside I was not sure of what was going on. A sought help and by that time I realized it, it was 5 years later and I was gaining weight. A lot of weight. Last month I found myself scaling at 242lbs and it felt devastating to the point I cropped myself from my brothers birthday pictures Not to look at myself again. So, with the notion of once again and for all taking back control of my own lazyness and mental drag to get back my health I'm in here and not leaving. I've felt alone for many days at a time trying to figure out whats wrong, and its me, not society. And yesterday I took the first step of many, cleaned out my pantry, fridge and took out pen and paper to detail (like I used to after surgery) what I ate and amounts. I shall no longer let the lazyness take hold of me. I shall have my measuring cups around until I get the first 10pds off. I accomplished 25 minutes in cardio and that will be the regime 6 days a week, 25 minutes. Hell the gym is too close to me for me NOT to go. I cant go back to wearing knee braces and orthopedic shoes, I'm only 35 and I feel like I have loat control. So I am in here to read and share and be part of a community that I failed 7yrs ago to do. I hope to gain support and not feel alone in the daily struggle. Thank you for reading.