KikiVal315

listen.... I TOTALLY know where you're coming from. when i was more overweight than now, i had found out my sister in law was pg, and at that point in my life i didnt know i has pcos ( i had to self diagnose, thats an even longer story) but anyway: when i found out i cried my head off. here she was this late 30-something year old lady with the mentality of a 16yr old, still living with mommy & daddy, never had real responsiblity, and now pregnant?!?!? i remember calling my mom and asking if i was being punished, i wanted nothing more than to become pg. anything anyone would say just didn;t make me feel better. to top it off, my hubby had said, " we have to help out my sister, and buy here what she needs." inside, i lost it! i thought WTF?!?!?!? this is not our responsibility!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sort of got over it within the coming weeks. and then, she had a miscarriage... god did i feel like the biggest asshole in the world. and i still do when i now see her carrying my little boy. my point is, you'll be a mom soon enough, okay? i waited, saved up my money and got surgery. for whatever reason, you cant get surgery done now, but once you get the ball rolling and once you've dropped the weight, you'll be able to get pg, you'll have the pcos in remission. i've been down that path, i even would get super jealous when i would come on this specific forum and read about other bandsters getting pg... it would drive me flippin' nuts. but what i did eventually come to realize is, soon it will be my time; and it will be yours too.

it's true, you have to do your part. :cool: way back when i started my journey, it took about 4-5 fills for me to get to my sweet spot and have great restriction. you're doing good so far congrats, keep it up, and there will be days when you feel like, why the heck did i get this done? its all for an awesome cause, right...our health. keeping in touch with other bandsters or just to be on here reading, helps in keeping up my motivation. im sure it'll do the same for you:wink2:

:rolleyes2:ugh... you hang in there. i had to get unfilled so im watching what im eating closely. as i type this im in the office eating a chicken ceasar salad and my thin as a rail hubby is in the next room chomping away at a pastrami sandwich & french fries!!!

i need to vent and have some support in a major way. there really is no one in my family that can relate to what i feel or am going through. i do get support from them so that kind of helps. i was banded back in may of '08, had decided on surgery to help with not only my weight but reproductive health issues; my husband and i wanted to start a family. 80lbs later, *poof!* i was pregnant, went from 3.6cc's to 1.5cc's, and DID I EAT!!! before i was unfilled, my doc said as long as i follow my band rules, i shouldnt gain that much weight. while he was saying this, all i can think of in my mind, "i can't wait to eat a big lunch!" needless to say i gained 75lbs during my pregnancy. my son was born just this last november, and had gotten my first fill in march, i was filled to 2.8cc's. i thought that was kind of aggressive, but thought what the hell, i need to hurry back to where i was, afterall, when i lost those 80lbs, i was about 20-30lbs away from goal. I WANTED TO BE BACK TO WHERE I WAS NOW!!! the first week was easy. lost a bit of weight the first month. but then i was stuck, on a plateau, and i don't know why but i started thinking as long as my weight doesnt go past 240lbs i'll eat what i want, when i want. big mistake... i noticed within the comming months i could eat more and i would PB, but after that, i kept on eating. i knew in the back of my mind there was something wrong. so, i just now tried to go back last thursday for my second fill. and no surprise, my pouch has stretched. talk about F A I L U R E. i was super depressed, i can't believe i let this happen, instead of moving forward, im going back, defilled down to 1.8cc's. I AM TERRIFIED of gaining weight, and even more of eating. i have to let 2months go by and to let my esophagus rest, and then see if i can get a tiny fill. like i said im scared of eating while not having the proper restriction i need. so for the time being im taking it one day at a time, and doing the Protein shake thing twice a day, drinking lots of Water, and eating a healthy small dinner. i hit me hard when i realized i depended way too much on my band the second time around. its just difficult going back to my healthy ways. i know it took baby steps to get to where i was, i think i was in denial this time around and fooled myself into thinking i can go back overnight. i feel better now, but without support from the banded community, or at least interacting whith this site, i can't succeed. i used to be on here all the time... that's another thing, squeezing in something i don't have: TIME! im just now figuring out how to put in my 30mins of walking...with an 8month old, geez everything is different. any thoughts, words of motivation would be grat right about now:blushing: thanks for reading.

well...i hadn't been on here for a while. its nice to see you all again and doing wonderfully! i have to get back on my path. i did reach one major lifetime goal, i was able to get pregnant and have my special little guy. i revised my goal to 185 from 150<- i think that used to be it?? when i was weighing 208, i was at a size 16 i was okay with that but i knew that loosing 20-30more lbs was going to be "it" for me. im so jealous of you all!!!! LOL! keep it up!!!! :smile:

when i originally lost my 70ish plus pounds (still had about 20 more to go) i would sometimes wear my spanks, it would depend on if i was wearing something skin tight. of course my goal was/is to be able to wear that without "assistance." i know I WILL need cosmetic surgery for when i hit goal, but i'll have to wait until i'm done having kids...

thanks!! :smile: if i wouldn't have lost weight, i don't think we could have gotten pregnant!

well,right now i can eat almost anything, not that i should! but i remember when i had GREAT restriction i could eat maybe half of a kid's size burger,chew chew chew, and almost all the time i'd be so full i would throw away the fries. even if i did have room, a couple would do. i wouldn't eat like this all the time, only once in a great while. i can't wait to get restriction like this again...

well best of luck to you and your hubby!!!! i was banded 5/2008 and found out i was pg 3/2009. i had lost about 40lbs when i got my period and they were like clockwork until i got pg. you're on the right track!

i added myself on...need to get back on track after the baby!! i love these threads, keep me motivated:biggrin:

wanting to start a family was my (our) main reason why i had lapband surgery. my husband now only confessess he thought it wasnt going to help me with my PCOS and getting my reproductive and overall health back to normal. i started out close to 280lbs when we decided to try to get pregnant...nothing; and more nothing. i went online and did a little research. thought maybe i should start some sort of fertility meds. but then i stepped back and actually thought about it; it just wasnt for me and not to mention not fair for the baby with all my extra weight and possible complications that come with being pregnant and morbidly obese. so the next couple of months that went by, i started looking into weight loss surgery, in nov 2007 i made my decision to get surgery done for may 2008. surgery came and went;lets skip to the time i was at 240lbs,i think, i started getting my periods THANK GOD! (when you dont get your cycle you miss it. i think we take this for granted...we really do,until its gone.) i lost a total of 70ish lbs, this was back in late feb 2009. when i thought i may be pregnant. i didnt think so, i thought maybe i skipped a month because my cycles were getting back to normal. but then march came and nothing. i was feeling crampy all this time but again, thought nothing of it. i told myself if i dont get my period by my birthday weekend, take a PG test. well my bday was on 3/15, but early morning of 3/14 i woke up, and grabbed a test on the way to the restroom. and guess what???!!! BFP!!! pregnancy was a blast & easy, except for the last 2 months i was uncomfortable. but i didnt get any complications because of my weight. i did balloon to 275lbs (EEK!) but again, nothing was out of the ordinary. i was however diagnosed with a blood disorder the day i was admitted into the hospital, but thats a different story. now im a proud mommy to my 19 day old son. i cant believe this all happend to us. a year and a half ago i NEVER EVER TRULY thought i would be here, now blessed with this wonderful new addition to our family. i want to say for all of you trying with PCOS, it is possible to loose this weight and get pregnant. be patient and you will get there soon enough. best of luck :confused:

as soon as i found out i was pg, i had some taken out. i have a 4cc band. back in march i was at 3.6cc and they took everything out to 1.5cc, so that's what i have in now. i gained about 60ish pounds (too chicken to weigh now!) and yes, gaining this much weight was my fault. you should really think about taking some fluid out. don't hurt your baby or yourself and worry about gaining some weight back. just think about it...don't keep your band too full/tight.

i was self pay as well, went to mexico to get it done. i believe if you get surgery here in the states or somewhere else, no matter what the fees are, its totally worth EVERY SINGLE PENNY!!!! it changed my health for the best. i don't regret anything except for like most, not doing this sooner.

hi ladies- i was hoping to wait 'til my first trimester came & went, but i just had to yell it out to the band community :cursing: im joining this thread and after following it for a while (just to read/get more info on the subject) i can't believe im posting here; as of today im 7weeks pregnant. i really was waiting for my 1yr bandiversary to try, but my little surprise came a couple of months early and im NOT complaining!!!

hi greorgia- the market i shop at, ralph's, has their brand of low carb yogurt. i've only seen 3 different flavors: vanilla, strawberry, and raspberry. i usually stock up for the whole week. i think they only have 3net carbs.

ohhhh yes!!! I LOVE ALDO's!!! my foot's wide no matter what my weight but if there's a strap along the front part, and with i high heel, i can pull it off at any weight. but i have this one pair, that i only wore about twice, ballooned to 275, and couldn't get my foot back in :hurray: i had saved them in the back of my closet "so when i loose weight..." well i tried them on a month ago, and HURRAY they fit like a charm! i can't wait to go back in the store and shop for more cute pairs! :hurray::tt2:

hi gretchen, just wanted to pop in and see how you're doing. are you getting ready for the big day?

thanks so much for the link, i just ordered the sample pack. we'll see which one tastes better!

mac- is that the name of your low fat/carb protein drink? i've been trying to find something that's quick & easy for the A.M. that'll go down smooth. i can't eat right away anyway, since im super tight. i usually can't eat breakfast until 11-ish and that messes up my groove :tt2:

i've heard of so many answers to this one. but it all depends on YOUR skin. personally, i've been a yoyo all my life, and now that i'm finally keeping this weight off, 65lbs into my journey, i can bet, i will need PS done. it sucks since i'm self-pay; but im saving my pennies as of now.

hi ladies!! well i have to say, for now i've been stuck at a 16/18, it all depends on the cut of jeans. in tops, im a M/L again,depends on the top. i still shop at old navy, and torrid when i have the extra cash. torrid is too expensive,so i save that place for a special occasion. but when i go into old navy, i feel like i have more of a selection...i don't have to stick with the big girl boring patterns(we've all been there;you know what i mean!:tt2:). its SO nice to have variety! but i can't wait to shop at my goal stores: guess, betsey johnson, bebe, and cache. really tho, i just can't wait to pop into any store and not worry if the clothes is going to fit or not...that day can't come soon enough :thumbup:

oh man-o-man...this is exactly what we're going thru. dh is proud of my weight loss, but is feeling intimidated by other men checking me out. when it comes to him, i can read him like a book. see, when i was fatter, he never really put the effort into our marriage. i tried to tell myself, it wasn't his fault; his parents have a crappy relationship, so he thinks all marriages should just be held together by a piece of paper. i know there is SO MUCH more to marriage than that. i know i got comfortable, i know i should have tried more to help him see that. but like everything else, i got lazy and said screw it. our marriage became a routine. the fatter i got, the more embarassed i was to go outside, go to a restaurant etc, be seen with him since he is skinny and i was a whale. now, i want to go out, i want to enjoy what's out there, but with him. i want to enjoy everything the world have to offer, but with the man i love. he's having a hard time adjusting to my new mindset. ive been stuck in a shell since we met, and now im coming out of that shell, and i know he's having a hard time dealing with that. ive been trying to put him at ease...hes my 31 y/o baby but sometimes i cant be that patient!!!!!

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my nsv for today,its more of a confidence thing...yesterday we went to disneyland. even when i was bigger, i would always try to brainwash myself into thinking that i didn't care what others thought about me. deep inside i did. i would be embarassed to go out to public places like those, thinking that other people were thinking "what is that skinny guy doing with that cow?" well, i have to say, i had the most fun ever yesterday with my husband, and didn't EVER think people were judging me! i love the pictures we took, ill put them up soon, and from looking at them, i can't believe how far i've come. its one of the best feelings in the world...

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