jdpick

In a few hours it will all be done... Yesterday was pre op... And towards the end....I lost it, tears welling up... Not sure why--or maybe I am? Maybe it's time I wanted my life back, or even a life. To finally take care of myself..to finally love myself to make a change, it's my time.. And I am not coming down... !

.....then the surgery on Tuesday....both excited and scared, been up since 2am this morning... I am guess I am more scared than what I am saying..lol but, i have trying to keep a relaxing space... And my mind from wandering---that "mind talk"......is proving to be a difficult beast to deal with today!

New to this, my date is on the 28th of October. Made the decision a long time ago, to move forward with it...am kinda fast tracking it cause it is something that I have to do, for me, and not anyone else.

New to this, my date is on the 28th of October. Made the decision a long time ago, to move forward with it...am kinda fast tracking it cause it is something that I have to do, for me, and not anyone else.