AppleSmith1226

I too have been fat mojority of my life kids didn't start to call me fat til maybe 2nd grade but it was clear I was a big girl I was very tall than all the other kids. I never went to dances, school gatherings or none of that because I didn't have anything to wear. I rememeber when I was in 5th I was voted 3rd runner up for school queen but I think it was cause one of my classmates that was the clss clown he had a tad bit of a crush on me and he had all his little friends vote for me too. But I think I won cause of academics. I was the smart fat girl ... I wasn't pretty so I compensated with knowledge. I didn't go to parties so I just sat in my room and read books and did homework. And than I began to gets some curves to my weight and everything changed. The first guy that approached me I nearly peed my pants. But men were full of it back in high school ... I start to feel pretty just cause guys liked me so I thought the self esteem issues were over WRONG!!! After I was raped that hitting a whopping all time high. I was so depression and felt worthless and useless and every bad negative thought that I couldv'e thought about myself but I had to snap out of it or I probably wouldv'e commited suicide but things got better and wounds healed my husband fell in love with "the fat" me!! And I love him for that and now I still have the self esteem issues along with the PCOS!! I hate it. But I have to fix it and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get the weight off. I am tired of being fat and starting a diet and then stopping cause no results than starting and stopping UGHHHHH!!! It's a nightmare I can't risk gaining anymore. and I am not going to!!

IF U don't mind me asking ... are you guys trying for a baby Laura ??? With that new "toy" you just might get one :scared: LOL!!

OK Laura we're all riding on you!!! If you give it an A ... we're all getting one as a gift to out new freaky "banded" sex lives!!

MY DR asked me a series of questions and he doesn't think that I have it ... so I called and tried to schedule a sleep study and they said that my doctor would have to send a prescription for it. But the only symptoms that I have is the drowsiness during the day but none of the other stuff really. But the dietician that I seen for post-op appt said that women with PCOS get sleepy alot during the day.

LOL you go LAURA!!! Lemme know how it works girl!! Cause I'll be getting one next LOL after I'm banded pf course. And I like that the that you put your legs in the the guy can spread all the way apart... who knows what that's called ?? the girl sits/lays in it with her in the slots and the are movable slots while the man stands and he can move her legs out really far!!! Can't wait till I am REALLLLY flexible!!!

Awww Gayle you band date is my birthday LOL!!! Wish that was my day!!! Well good luck your band will be a Capricorn so you will have a geniune sweetheart on your hands!!

LOL!! Yeah we all have this "exercise ball" idea thanks to Julia!!!

Come on people where are all the other FREAKS OUT THERE LOL MORE FEEDBACK!!

Thanks Kiss I really appreciate the love!! I have gotten better. But I just know what I have to do now to change my life and it's a remarkable feeling when you finally see a light the end of the tunnel!!! But it sleepiness a PCOS symptom?? During the day ??

I currently have Aetna but I switched from them for the new year cause they wanted me to wait 6 months and I wasn't tryin' to hear that sh!t!! If I risk not getting this surgery than I will be another 50 pounds heavy. With this PCOS i gained a whopping 20 pounds in 2 months!!! sickening!!

oh ok ... where did you move from ... did you move there all alone. LOL that will probably be me ... just to work and back LOL. I am hoping for a January date ... I picked the easiest insurance to get approved by my BMI is 50! And I was recently diagnosed with PCOS. She is submittind my paper work January 2nd!! So hopefully sooner than later.

I am actually moving to TX ... U R tall like me I am 5'9 and my goal is 180. But I would love to be 200... I will be in Fort Hood TX ... I am currently in NJ ... my husband is military so... They where we have been stationed don't know how far that is from you. But I am waiting to have my surgery done here at the beginning of the year so that my insurance will cover it. I also got a flexible spending acct just in case I have a co-pay or anything like you did. But I will DEFINETELY be looking for a SERIOUS, MOTIVATED, NO BS OR GAMES workout buddy!!

Do u think you are going to get a body bugg?? I am getting one as soon as I am banded!!

Oh well i am happy to hear that you are doing well... the tape doesn't come off in the shower. Do the scars hurt in the shower or bath ... CONGRATS on your 10 pounds!!! Whats your goal weight ??

I'm happy you got your date LA congrats to you!! I hate you had to self-pay though Damnnnnnnnnnnn!!

Lmao @ Juli.... The Exercise Ball ... U Go Girl.... Many More Orgasm To U!!! Lol!!!

I Bet That Was An Awesome Feeling Laura (lol No Pun Intended) Being Able To Last So Long!! I Can't Wait Til I Can Do That... Men Do Seem To Like Us Being On Top Alot!!

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU T!!! LOL well I have always been a freak fat or no fat LOL ... But I feel like it's a (Bridget Jones SEX GODDESS) character inside me that wants to really let loose!! But I can't cause I am so fat!! I feel so subconcious during sex its maddening. But I really feeling that T because fat people just kinda don't talk about sex ... you see the thread here was "intimacy" and everyone there talked about how they weren't getting any!! I wanna talk to the people that are still having sex and lots of it and whose happy with their spouses and still gets horny LOL!! SO I am all for that!! I just want to see what my husband sees in me. Like I said before he loves me but I know he would like to pull the FREAK OUT OF ME!! LOL and I want him CAUSE HE DEFINETELY HAS THE RIGHT SIZE MANHOOD(LOL ALL WOMEN THINK THAT ABOUT THEIR MEN BUT HE REALLY DOES) AND HE SO FIT AND SEXY ... OHHH I JUST WANNA EAT HIM ALIVE... OK I HAVE TO GO RING MY UNDIES OUT NOW LOL ... THINK I SOAKED THEM JUST THINKING ABOUT HIM LOL JUST KIDDING ... BUT HE WILL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS AND I AM STILL FAT HOPEFULLY THE NEXT TIME I SEE HIM I WILL BE BANDED AND LOST A FEW POUNDS!!

Were you self-pay?? If not which insurance do you have ??

Oh yeah girl CONGRATS ON YOUR BAND 2DAY HOPE ALL GOES WELL!!!!

LOL GIRL YOU ARE SOOOO FUNNY!!! MY DH LETS ME RIDE LOL ... I THINK CAUSE HE MAINLY LIKES IT BUT I HATE SEEING HIM GET ALL INTO AND THAN I HAVE TO STOP BECAUSE I AM TOO WINDED TO CONTINUE ... HE HAS THAT DISAPPOINTED LOOK ON HIS FACE... AND I FEEL HORRIBLE BECAUSE I WILL RIDE HIM FOR LIKE 2 MINS AND I FEEL LIKE I HAVE RAN A MARATHON!! That makes me sooo mad and irritated. I want him to be able to pick me up and throw around LOL and the stuff that thin women can do and the fun that they have with sex!! I want that! I wanna do the porno movie stuff LOL!!!

Are you ready to go back ?? How are you feeling ?? Does your port site hurt at all ?? How do the scars look... LOL sorry to bum rush you tried to send you a private message but it said that you wouldn't except it

Yeah look at all you little pervs!! I knew that would catch you attention LOL!! Just kidding! But I was wondering ladies and gents... Is the sex better after band and some pounds have fell off. I know that I can't wait to have sex once I am thinner LOL!!! I tired of being the "pillow princess" and getting winded when I really wanna ride the hell out of my husband... But I wanna be so freaky with him but the weight restricts me from alot of things and I hate that so much!! I just can't wait to be maybe 40-50 pounds lighter. But I would like feedback from banded and people waiting to be banded.... Like what changed after banding and what you are looking forward to I am so excited and hoping for a January surgery date!! :bounce:I wish it would happen sooner than later!! I am so embarrassed to say it but we are all family here!! But I am so ready to see my vagina when I look down LOL!! Spouses please speak out as well if you have a banded partner how have the "changed" in the bedroom?!?!?

HEY TOMECIA!! How are you doing girlie!!! May I ask why they made you pay a 100 dollars... was this some sort of co-pay... Also are you back to work yet or still home??

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