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Thanks guys for all your compliments!! It really motivates me to keep going. Some days are a struggle then some dayz I breeze right through with no food thoughts! But I come to far to turn around! This is a lifestyle change as my surgeon tells me every visit it's not all gonna change overnite! But ONE LOVE *KISSES* APPLES!!!!!!!

No need for the metformin he said .... Well ladies had my Dr's appt yesterday and he said everything is great he said my levels were never EXT HIGH like alot of PCOS people so he said that why he was classifying me as "pre-pcos" that I still had time to get it under control before it became full blown. He says that he is sure that I am ovulating now but he is sending me for blood work to be certain so I will let u guys know definetely if I am ovulating! He was so proud of me weight loss and I am too. HE seen me in December when I was a freaking house ... try double wide trailer even LOL! But its moving!

Well ladies had my Dr's appt yesterday and he said everything is great he said my levels were never EXT HIG like alot of PCOS people so he said that why he was classifying me as "pre-pcos" that I still had time to get it under control before it became full blown. He says that he is sure that I am ovulating now but he is sending me for blood work to be certain so I will let u guys know definetely if I am ovulating! He was so proud of me weight loss and I am too. HE seen me in December when I was a freaking house ... try double wide trailer even LOL! But its moving!

Yeah girl don't feel bad ... weekends bust my a$$ too! I guessing it's cause not it's not as structured as the work week. And I am at home relaxing or going out with friend eating ice cream here and there. And man I just mess up big time! But also PMS time is pig city. I read it once here and man is it true ... during PMS ANYTHING goes through my band LOL! I could swallow a cow! I was craving like a crazy! I had ice cream 2 days in a row and PASTA!!!! Murder... but it's no way near as much as I used to eat ... It feels like before I used to literally blackout and pig out LOL thats how unconcious I was of the eating! But now I am so grateful that I am concious! I'm just gonna put my big girl panties on dust myself off and move on. I have come to far to just give up! We all have!

By the way I am down btw 43-48 pounds that damn scale fluxuates so much it's crazy ... I mainly take measures every 3 weeks cause thats my motivation ... I usually go by the scale when I get my fills done. But I am pleases with that considering I am only about 4 months out! But I am full speed ahead Georgia Girl you are my inspiration! We had similar starting weights!!! LOL Luv ya!!! I'm gonna post progress pics soon!

Hey ladies! Yet another fellow "cyster"! As some of you know I was banded February 6th 2008! All and all my period was normal for mainly my whole life than when I was about 17 it started to come and go as it pleased but it would only stay MIA for about a month. Then it would resume. But then .... dun dun dun LOL July 2007 I will never 4get cause I was sure I was pregnant at that time. Went to the gyn cause hadn't seen my period in the pass 3 months! So that's when she did blood work and all and the results came back. High testosrone levels. And then she started asking me about hair growth and dandruff. And I was like so thats where the damn hair is coming from. The mood swings the depression .... oh the horror LOL. But she sent me to reproductive endocrinologist and he ran all sorts of test ... he claims that I have "pre-pcos" that once I lose weight this will all go away ... but aren't those the basis of the disorder anyway ... but who knows he's the doc ... he says that after I lost about 30 pounds to come back and he will do more test and then we will see what happens. Well I have now lost the weight and then some so I go back to see him 2morrow to see whats up. I will keep you guys posted! But to answer the ? LOL I had a period late Nov early Dec and I hadn't seen it in like the past 4-5 months ... I bleed for 3 weeks on the nose! Gyn said it was ok cause my lining had built up so high and that he had to shed. I was losing my freaking mind ... for all you bible thumpers I was thinking I was going to be like the lady in the bible that bled for years and years and years LOL I was so scared called my Nanna and cried and everything. But anyway it stopped. And I didnt see it again until after surgery. I was banded February ... Got 1st period in March, April, and I just finished May period on Friday eventhough it ran kinda late. Got me kinda nervous. But they seem to be back to norm averaging 4-5 days tops just like usually. But I am still not ovulating at all. And I wont feel complete like a "normal" woman until I am ovulating. I am going to start birth control next cycle. I am doing the nuva ring and my doc said thats the best one for us ladies attempting to lose weight cause other birth controls can do just the opposite with all the hormones can increase your appetite. I am going to wait the reccommend YR for pregnancy and then some considering that hubby is off to Iraq in Jan for 15 months. We are hoping to start trying upon his arrival! Thanks for reading and LOTS OF LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!

F^CK HIM GIRL! Stay on your grind! He is just an a$$hole. Maybe his wife didnt blow him that morning! DO YOU! U Will make it to goal maybe even beyond! Make sure you see his face when you do!

LOL don't feel bad Gib I literally cried when I got to the 2's LOL ... it had been atleast 2 years since I had seen the 2's I used to hate them so freaking much until I ballooned to the 3's .... I was glad to embrace the 2's again LOL! And we are here to stay dammit ... well for a lil while atleast! We're on the next train towards "1-derland"!!!

I have been banded for a little over 3 months now and yeah my friends are starting to fizzle too. All of my fat friends don't wanna talk to me much and I mainly talk about my weight alot cause I am so excited I mean I talk about other stuff too but they now have NOTHING to say about my weight and don't wanna discuss it. My skinny friends are the one's that cool with it. And my hubby was so excited he hadn't seen me (he's military) since I had lost any of my weight and mouth literally dropped. It felt so good to see his face. But now that I am losing and my fat friends constantly pig out still ... this upsets me and sometime disgust me that I used to be that way. A few of them know about my surgery and I am angry that they don't care about their weight at all and that totally love being fat and unhealthy. I feel bad about these feelings cause I used to be them and I am so not trying to be judgemental but this is the attitude that they portray. But anyway other than that fuck em! I dont care if it's like that you never were my true friend anyone. I don't have time for hatin' ass b!tches in my life. I am only accepting positive people in my circle right now.

Well what I can say is NOBODY can tell you why your husband had an affair. Only person that can answer that for you is HIM! I know your mind is racing all over WHY and I know it's hard and you have babies also so thats x10. But you have to do what is BEST FOR YOU. Because at the end of the day if you sit there throughout a marriage that makes you miserable and sick to your stomach every ounce of that is going to rub off on your children if you are unhappy. So you have to do what is going to keep you healthy for you. Don't force something so bad and then regret it yrs from now. Thats only going to hurt. I am also young but I have been married for a yr and with my man for 4 yrs now. And I am a psych major. My field is going to be family court and social work. And from my volunteering and exp DO YOU! DO WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU. And don't think that you are throwing your marriage away because I was raised in a religious home as well and the ONLY ground for divorce is adultery! So he already threw the marriage away before you did so if you wanna throw him a "peace" sign feel free. But if you wanna work it out as well FIRST TIME SHAME ON HIM. 2ND TIME SHAME ON U get outta there if it happens again. And girl use that xanax and be done with it ... not a good drug ... don't know how it's working for you but when I do have my degree that I am currently studying for all wouldn't put any of my patients on meds until it's the last resort I mean extreme. But follow you first MIND first you gut instinct than follow your heart 2nd cause when it comes to love ... love is very blind and the heart can sometimes lie to you. Look how many battered women follow their hearts and end of dead. Just making an example. But lots of love to you honey and blessings. I would reccommend personal therapy for just yourself as well with him not being in the room. But as my grandma would say dust yourself off and put your big girl panties on shake that sh!t off as best you can and do you. And besides your hot sh!t now his loss... I wish my hubby would pull a stunt like that once I am as fine as I wanna be LOL ... I dont take BS off of him now but once I confidence is through the roof he'd better not mess with me. You can do better baby. It's men out here that would worship you and treat you like the queen that you are. KEEP UR HEAD UP! And we are ALL here for you! Apples!

Well I my doc lets you fill up every 3 weeks. And that I am pretty happy about but I kinda wish it was more like 2 weeks then I would be able to get to my "sweet spot" even faster than what I am!

Karso I just seen your post and I wanted to say please keep your head up girl. Those type of negative thoughts is exactly what will bring you back down. Remember that's all we always fell off diets. "Man this sh!t not working... I'm just gonna stay fat ... screw it" I am sure we have all given up with thoughts of this kind. But you have to change your way of thinking and let it go. You will reach ur sweet spot just like the others. We just have to give it time. LOL we all want this to snap in to place asap. But I had to calm myself down and start to appreciate my journey. On the otherside girl we will all have a story to tell about OUR unique journey. I'm sure the beginning of yours will start "Girl I thought my band wasn't working... but boy look at me now" Keep the FAITH and keep happy positive thoughts. You and your band are a team now! And you both can get through this. Lots of LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!

Well guys I had fill number 3 and still not much. I do feel a bit restricted but not like I hoped I would. I am getting fill #4 on May 19th so once again hoping and praying that this one will do the trick. I am so ready to have my sweet spot it's crazy. I know that once I have restriction the weight will just melt because I count calories like a nutcase. I wear my bodybugg. I am exercising as much as I can even if it's just walking super fast from the parking lot into a store. Eventhough my weight is coming off and I am losing so many inches! But of course to us "fat people" and "ex-fat people" the scale is what counts the most. Because look how long the scale has been the key factor. Doctors or their cute little skinny nurses only made us get on scales our whole life and gave us that look like DAMNNNNN LOL so I dont ever want that feeling again! So lets hope the 4th fill does me justice! I pray!

Well guys I am not to hungry. I know everyone want's to throw paper balls at me LOL. But I was at one point I was freaking starving but now more than 90 days out I am alrite. I am still losing I have lost 48-52 pounds so far (it fluxuates from day to day LOL stupid scale) I am losing hella inches though I have lost about a good 30 inches from my waist and 25 inches of other areas of my body so a total of 55 inches of my flabby a$$ in 90 days I am fine with but anyway back to the issue at hand I am not this perfect person that has been following band rules to a T but I do plan my meals during the week only cause I am at work all day and I am answering phones and filling prescriptions all day not alot of time to fantasize about food. But all hell here comes the weekend and I pig out. Damn sure not as bad as I ever did before I was banded but it's looks like alot to me now. Like last night I back a cake I ate 2 med size pieces. And I was like oh my god what have I done LOL. Then I said apples wait a min ... before you would eaten half of that cake one night and the other half the next night easy ... then on day 3 you would've been like dang where'd that cake go. But anyway it is all in the mind. I was like "head hunger" before I was banded and when I was first banded. Like these people are crazy LOL and now I see that it does exist. Some days I just crave my a$$ off others I think out how much of a pig I really was and all the food I just ate and ate and it makes me sick to my stomach to remember those moments and that shoos my a$$ away from the fridge immediately. Or when I cant help to contain the inner food addict in my I pop a 100 calorie snack or something that won't ruin my whole entire day. But I hope this helps. And protein, protein, and more protein. This is the only thing helping me so far cause I dont have a 100 percent restriction and I am on fill #3 ... 4th fill coming May 19th! SO I am praying, hoping, and wishing! Cause if I had the right restriction man I would so be on the ball! But lots of love sorry if I rambled a bit but I thought I told ya Apples is backkkkkkkk!

Hey guys how has everybody been ... me just working and trying to maintain my weigh BEINGS THAT I'M 3 FILLS IN AND DONT HAVE A DRP OF RESTRICTION!! Well I take that bad I dont have as much as I would like to have. I wanna take 2-3 bites of food and feel like I just ate 3 serving of Thanksgiving dinner! That's my "fantasy" fill. But as far as weight I think that I am doing pretty good my weight has kinda slowed now but I think it's really because of the fill stuff. But I dont eat anywhere as much as I used to and I am definetely a more concious eater! Before I would just get food and let it rip. I mean sit in front of the TV all weekend and just eat ... eww I was such a pig. I look back on those days now and sometime I get really disgusted with food and other I am just as food happy as I used to be but it only last for a moment ... like if I have something really tasty for lunch or I go to my favorite restaurant or something. I assume this is how "normal" act towards food or "ex-fat people" LOL or "ex-fat people in the making" But anyway guess what! My husband hadn't seen me since I was all fat an extra gross well he came home last week and he was in a state of shock! HE was so happy AND he couldn't keep his hands off me! He was very flattering and the extra flesh wasn't in the way during "play" time! I really really missed him. And he wasso proud of me. And as sexy as he is he deserves to have a nice looking woman on his arm inside and out! BUT OTHER THAN THAT I missed everybody and Apples is BACK!:biggrin:

I just thought that we would all share our goal weights and any clothes sizes that you wanted to share ... Also what are you basing your goal weight of ?? Some are the "BMI" charts that the docs give ... others are just your own preference. I myself am about 5'9-5'10 inches tall so of course I can carry more body weight than the short girls ... I am currently about 325 (yeah I know it sucks :frown: damn u PCOS LOL) but my goal weight is about 170...175...180 no more no less. U like some people I dont desire to be a size 2. I never will be that's just not for me. I like having my curves (once they fall back into place right now they are more like hills and bumps LMAO) i like nice hips and thighs and a nice shaply ass we are women that's how god made us to be curvier and voluptuous. And I plan to keep my curves I don't want to look anorexic I.E. Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan, Nichole Ritchie ... stars that people idolize right now. Not I said that cat but anyway. Here are my goals ... please share yours! Weight... 170-175- or 180 no more no less Jeans... 10-12 maybe even 14! Bra... currently 44 C cause my bust don't really care what size my tits are just want at least a B or small C like they used to be! (mid to upper abdomen is so big that's why 44... I was always a B cup to a small c my whole life now my boobs are pretty husky LOL... But they have only become this way since I have been fat so I know when I loose weight they will be small again but I dont care ass, hips, and thighs run in my family so that a OK with me ... my hubby is an ass and leg man anyway LOL) Panties... Whoa I am in a 10 right now those things are huge LOL!! Can't wait to be atleast an 8!! Tops... 3XL nearing 4XL... Can't wait to be a XL or just L!! But thanks for reading guys ... I am so glad we have this forum to share things with cause alot of us dont have anyone (like myself) to really share things about our weight openly. ANd I really appreciate that we have that here ... no matter how embarrasing it is cause we are all here for each other we are all in the same boat trying to keep each other afloat! So love, hugs, and kisses to all!!

I wanna purchase one of these this week so please lemme know asap ... which one I should get ?? I am trying to compare the deals but I want the product comparisons... please help!! :eek:

Well just a tad bit ... but not much! I had my first fill ... Just got my 2nd 2day hoping that it's going to work! But I need some assistance from you VETS! I feel absolutely famished after I exercise ... I know this is normal. My doc explained it to me as a car and gas. If you run your car very fast and hard for a long period of time you will need more food I.E food ... ok I get that. But I feel like I am not eating enough or like I am not doing something right. I always push myself times 10 no matter what I do. But when it comes to this weight it's always been an issue. I dont know what the hell I should eat for breakfast. I still haven't found a good protein yet! And I am guessing that's what I really need. My pounds have stop falling I am now seeing inches come off. But I am curious also at what people are eating ... My bodybugg coach says I should have about 1550 calories a day. I have been staying in that relm ... As a matter of fact I dont think it's my eating I just wanna know when this damn fill is gonna start working?!!?!? I have my 3rd one April 28th ... I work out 3-4 days a week! I feel like if I had proper restriction I would freaking MELT! So ANY advice or assistance would be greatly appreciate. Thanks for your time! Lots of LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!:ohmy:

Nope nothing at all!! And guess what my period is on ... ladies you know exactly what I mean!! FOOD CRAVINGS GALORE!! I just wish I could not eat as much ... of course my will power sucks! And I don't know what to do ... I was doing so good before 1500 calories a day and the nutritionist said that I should bump that to 1800 till I take some more weight off... But I just wish I wouldve known that alot of times first fills don't do the trick I mean I feel nooooooooooooooooooooooo restriction at all! :shades_smile: If anyone could please help me with this any in sight would be greatly appreciated! I don't know what to do ... I just dont wanna regain all my lost weight ... 2nd fill is in 3 weeks from now. But I need soome help I am really down! Thanks LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!:success1:

LOL well I really really appreciate all of your responses! Newgette ... girl I am sure he hit it LOL ... I heard the gross pop of hitting the back of my port LOL!! I do have to get more protein down that I can admit ... But alot of times I am not hungry ... then when I am it's like x10 ... I feel like crap right now cause I did a workout class with my gym buddy and I almost passed out!! It was awful I thought Iwas ready for it and I was not!!! TOUGH! So I just gotta take it easy. I gotta crawl before I run LOL! But it is kinda ddictive seeing the pounds come off than I want more and more and more and more LOL! Like some forbidden fruit or something! But I am really trying with this eating man is it hard. It was easier when I was on mushies and liquids and stuff but now being back on solids it's like a green light! Maybe I should just try to cut cards all 2gether like before ... Like do the south beach diet until I get proper restriction. DAMN why do carbs have to be so damn tasty! I am so proud of myself for my weight loss thus far ... but damn this is harder than I ever imagined! But I am ready for the journery as Jack said ... It took me awhile to get this fat even though it felt like I just woke up fat one day! LOL ... But thanks you guys please keep the comments coming all you "vets" in this game! Us rookies need to hear this stuff alot! But I damn sure hope that the 2nd works and by the way the 2nd is in 3 weeks! So wish me luck lots of love and blessings Apples!

Doing pretty good girl ... enjoying not having to fight with my damn jeans everyday LOL ... but I have a long way to go still ... just have to keep my eye on the prize ... you should get ur myspace back up and running ... Or did u have another site to track your journey ... check me out I have before and after pics up there LOL since I am not about 39 pounds down!!!! First fill is March 18th!!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I am sooooooooooooo HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!! I can't wait to see before and after pics!!! You will do GREAT BABE!!! Congrats!! LOTS OF LOVE APPLES!! P.S. R u on myspace?!!?!