gabrielle2014

I'm dealing with this now. I went to my workshop last December but I was 25 pounds away from qualifying and no comorbidities. After a bad breakup and losing my job I gained 10 pounds and so now I'm around 15 pounds away from my 40 BMI with my first appt with the surgeon on Sept 17th. The appt sec at his office confirmed that this is the appointment that would determine if I qualify or not. So i'm now trying to gain weight. I feel so disgusting and I haven't gotten on the scale yet but I assume I can get up there. I have also heard of wearing an ankle weight to boost it up a bit and heavy shoes. it feels so wrong to me but I know that in the long run this will be what is best for me.
I'm very nervous about the insurance process but I hear that BCBS of MA and RI are pretty good. I have RI now. So fingers crossed. I've spoken with a few people who have had WLS and two of them said they had to gain a bit of weight and one wore ankle weights just to be sure.
My therapist agrees with me - if I don't have the surgery I will far surpass the qualifying weight within the next few years. So I have to keep my eyes on that and not on how wrong it feels to gain to lose.

Hi everyone - I haven't posted in a while but I thought I would turn back to the boards for help as I really need it.
I had VSG on December 16th. I had a heart attack shortly after on December 22nd but there was no blockage and i recovered quickly. In the first 5 months I lost 60 pounds and felt amazing. I started at 244 and got down to 180. But since May or June I have been bouncing around between 176 and 178. While I obviously can't go back to my old eating habits I'm still snacking and eating horribly at times. I have found the little ways I can 'cheat.' I keep telling myself I didn't go through all of this just to lose 67 pounds. I want to lose at least 20 more.
The surgery has changed my life in many great ways - my heart is doing really well - ankle pain is gone and I'm far more mobile. I started back at school in May and I am trying to change careers and I LOVE it. But it means that I'm in my car commuting 20 hours a week - working at my full time job 45 hours a week - and at school 13 hours a week. I'm so tired and stressed out. Though I know if I wanted to I could truly change my behaviors.
I have worked out maybe 6 times since surgery. I have a slight handicap that prevents me from walking long distances but I know I use that as an excuse.
I'm so upset and angry with myself for going back to some of my old ways and not working out. I'm angry I let myself have sugar and that I don't find the time to work out and lose these last 20 pounds.
I'm worried that I won't be able to get back on track and lose the rest of the weight and that even if I work out it won't make a difference.
No one needs to tough-love me bc I'm so upset with myself as it is.
Is there anyone else out there that is struggling as well? I feel like I'm the only WLS patient that has reverted back to old ways. I have an appointment with my nutritionist next week and with my nurse. I'm hoping that will help. I was hoping to find a support group but they meet on the same night as my class.
I could use some feedback about how to get myself back on track.

Renkoss - this is my biggest nightmare too. Well not entirely but close. I do buy the popcorn - and admit to being a bit addicted to it at this point. But I do NOT buy chocolate. Its at my office. They have bowls and bowls of it filled up all day long right in front of my desk (no not able to move it).
I have appointments with my nurse and nutritionist on Thursday. I haven't seen my nutritionist since surgery and I think it will help if I make a few appointments with her over the next few months and weigh in, etc. A little accountability would be good for me.
I wish there was a support group I could go to - she might know of one. But I know the group through my doc's office meets at a time when I'm at work or at school. I'm also hoping to join a gym this week. So I know that I need to be a bit more kind to myself but its tough. I wanted to really make this major life change - and I have changed many things - but it is scary how easy it is to fall back into old habits and eat poorly again.

Renkoss - this is my biggest nightmare too. Well not entirely but close. I do buy the popcorn - and admit to being a bit addicted to it at this point. But I do NOT buy chocolate. Its at my office. They have bowls and bowls of it filled up all day long right in front of my desk (no not able to move it).
I have appointments with my nurse and nutritionist on Thursday. I haven't seen my nutritionist since surgery and I think it will help if I make a few appointments with her over the next few months and weigh in, etc. A little accountability would be good for me.
I wish there was a support group I could go to - she might know of one. But I know the group through my doc's office meets at a time when I'm at work or at school. I'm also hoping to join a gym this week. So I know that I need to be a bit more kind to myself but its tough. I wanted to really make this major life change - and I have changed many things - but it is scary how easy it is to fall back into old habits and eat poorly again.

Thanks Surfer. Man - I think just hearing that maybe I'm not as bad as I think I am is helping me already. I keep telling myself I haven't gained and so it can't be that bad but its just the stress eating and the snacking and not working out. But you're right - I need to schedule in the workouts and join a gym. I'd love to find a pool to swim in but I live on the cape and its hard to find.
Anyway - THANK YOU!
This is helping me quite a bit. Maybe its just letting go of the shame of it all that helps. Admitting it "out there."

Okay - clearly I don't know how to manage quotes - but my response was in the quote - LOL!
Oh UmmZ - I hadn't read this before I replied. I'm so sorry you've had alot of stress at all but maybe we can support each other a bit to get ourselves back on track? I know there is no miracle to doing it - we just have to start. Its the starting I have a hard time with because I'm so angry at myself.

Boy I cannot tell you how much this has helped me. Thank you all so much. I think I also need to connect more here and keep it more in my life. I became so excited to be more "normal" that I sort of don't follow threads and boards anymore but then I go home and I do have popcorn and I do have soda some mornings. And you know - I feel much worse because of it.
But I love the idea that I'm STILL in my honeymoon period - that it is not too late for me to really get into the good habits I need to. I know that I am so much more hungry and irritable when I snack and eat sugar. And so I need to get back into a place where I don't have those things. Keep these posts coming - this is helping me so much!! others too maybe. THANK YOU!

Boy I cannot tell you how much this has helped me. Thank you all so much. I think I also need to connect more here and keep it more in my life. I became so excited to be more "normal" that I sort of don't follow threads and boards anymore but then I go home and I do have popcorn and I do have soda some mornings. And you know - I feel much worse because of it.
But I love the idea that I'm STILL in my honeymoon period - that it is not too late for me to really get into the good habits I need to. I know that I am so much more hungry and irritable when I snack and eat sugar. And so I need to get back into a place where I don't have those things. Keep these posts coming - this is helping me so much!! others too maybe. THANK YOU!

Thanks Surfer. Man - I think just hearing that maybe I'm not as bad as I think I am is helping me already. I keep telling myself I haven't gained and so it can't be that bad but its just the stress eating and the snacking and not working out. But you're right - I need to schedule in the workouts and join a gym. I'd love to find a pool to swim in but I live on the cape and its hard to find.
Anyway - THANK YOU!
This is helping me quite a bit. Maybe its just letting go of the shame of it all that helps. Admitting it "out there."

Thanks Surfer. Man - I think just hearing that maybe I'm not as bad as I think I am is helping me already. I keep telling myself I haven't gained and so it can't be that bad but its just the stress eating and the snacking and not working out. But you're right - I need to schedule in the workouts and join a gym. I'd love to find a pool to swim in but I live on the cape and its hard to find.
Anyway - THANK YOU!
This is helping me quite a bit. Maybe its just letting go of the shame of it all that helps. Admitting it "out there."

Boy I cannot tell you how much this has helped me. Thank you all so much. I think I also need to connect more here and keep it more in my life. I became so excited to be more "normal" that I sort of don't follow threads and boards anymore but then I go home and I do have popcorn and I do have soda some mornings. And you know - I feel much worse because of it.
But I love the idea that I'm STILL in my honeymoon period - that it is not too late for me to really get into the good habits I need to. I know that I am so much more hungry and irritable when I snack and eat sugar. And so I need to get back into a place where I don't have those things. Keep these posts coming - this is helping me so much!! others too maybe. THANK YOU!

Oh THANK YOU so much for saying that. The girls from my group are all at the 100 pound mark and still don't eat sugar or carbs. And I know that I'm not gaining - but I'm also not losing. But I think it is because of the way i'm eating - not getting my Protein - snacking on popcorn - eating small doses of chocolate - not working out - not having my Water. I'm just so disappointed with myself.
But your post gives me hope that I could break the pattern - that it isn't too late for me.
I think I got to a point where I felt so good and look so much better - I've just gotten lazy. But I need to regroup and remember why I did this and get myself back on track. Even after all these months. I have to believe I can do it.
I also need to join a cheap gym - I don't belong to one now and that is not good bc no matter how much I tell myself I will work out at home i Just never do.
THANK YOU!

Hi everyone - I haven't posted in a while but I thought I would turn back to the boards for help as I really need it.
I had VSG on December 16th. I had a heart attack shortly after on December 22nd but there was no blockage and i recovered quickly. In the first 5 months I lost 60 pounds and felt amazing. I started at 244 and got down to 180. But since May or June I have been bouncing around between 176 and 178. While I obviously can't go back to my old eating habits I'm still snacking and eating horribly at times. I have found the little ways I can 'cheat.' I keep telling myself I didn't go through all of this just to lose 67 pounds. I want to lose at least 20 more.
The surgery has changed my life in many great ways - my heart is doing really well - ankle pain is gone and I'm far more mobile. I started back at school in May and I am trying to change careers and I LOVE it. But it means that I'm in my car commuting 20 hours a week - working at my full time job 45 hours a week - and at school 13 hours a week. I'm so tired and stressed out. Though I know if I wanted to I could truly change my behaviors.
I have worked out maybe 6 times since surgery. I have a slight handicap that prevents me from walking long distances but I know I use that as an excuse.
I'm so upset and angry with myself for going back to some of my old ways and not working out. I'm angry I let myself have sugar and that I don't find the time to work out and lose these last 20 pounds.
I'm worried that I won't be able to get back on track and lose the rest of the weight and that even if I work out it won't make a difference.
No one needs to tough-love me bc I'm so upset with myself as it is.
Is there anyone else out there that is struggling as well? I feel like I'm the only WLS patient that has reverted back to old ways. I have an appointment with my nutritionist next week and with my nurse. I'm hoping that will help. I was hoping to find a support group but they meet on the same night as my class.
I could use some feedback about how to get myself back on track.

Oh THANK YOU so much for saying that. The girls from my group are all at the 100 pound mark and still don't eat sugar or carbs. And I know that I'm not gaining - but I'm also not losing. But I think it is because of the way i'm eating - not getting my Protein - snacking on popcorn - eating small doses of chocolate - not working out - not having my Water. I'm just so disappointed with myself.
But your post gives me hope that I could break the pattern - that it isn't too late for me.
I think I got to a point where I felt so good and look so much better - I've just gotten lazy. But I need to regroup and remember why I did this and get myself back on track. Even after all these months. I have to believe I can do it.
I also need to join a cheap gym - I don't belong to one now and that is not good bc no matter how much I tell myself I will work out at home i Just never do.
THANK YOU!

Boy I cannot tell you how much this has helped me. Thank you all so much. I think I also need to connect more here and keep it more in my life. I became so excited to be more "normal" that I sort of don't follow threads and boards anymore but then I go home and I do have popcorn and I do have soda some mornings. And you know - I feel much worse because of it.
But I love the idea that I'm STILL in my honeymoon period - that it is not too late for me to really get into the good habits I need to. I know that I am so much more hungry and irritable when I snack and eat sugar. And so I need to get back into a place where I don't have those things. Keep these posts coming - this is helping me so much!! others too maybe. THANK YOU!

Oh THANK YOU so much for saying that. The girls from my group are all at the 100 pound mark and still don't eat sugar or carbs. And I know that I'm not gaining - but I'm also not losing. But I think it is because of the way i'm eating - not getting my Protein - snacking on popcorn - eating small doses of chocolate - not working out - not having my Water. I'm just so disappointed with myself.
But your post gives me hope that I could break the pattern - that it isn't too late for me.
I think I got to a point where I felt so good and look so much better - I've just gotten lazy. But I need to regroup and remember why I did this and get myself back on track. Even after all these months. I have to believe I can do it.
I also need to join a cheap gym - I don't belong to one now and that is not good bc no matter how much I tell myself I will work out at home i Just never do.
THANK YOU!

Boy I cannot tell you how much this has helped me. Thank you all so much. I think I also need to connect more here and keep it more in my life. I became so excited to be more "normal" that I sort of don't follow threads and boards anymore but then I go home and I do have popcorn and I do have soda some mornings. And you know - I feel much worse because of it.
But I love the idea that I'm STILL in my honeymoon period - that it is not too late for me to really get into the good habits I need to. I know that I am so much more hungry and irritable when I snack and eat sugar. And so I need to get back into a place where I don't have those things. Keep these posts coming - this is helping me so much!! others too maybe. THANK YOU!

Oh THANK YOU so much for saying that. The girls from my group are all at the 100 pound mark and still don't eat sugar or carbs. And I know that I'm not gaining - but I'm also not losing. But I think it is because of the way i'm eating - not getting my Protein - snacking on popcorn - eating small doses of chocolate - not working out - not having my Water. I'm just so disappointed with myself.
But your post gives me hope that I could break the pattern - that it isn't too late for me.
I think I got to a point where I felt so good and look so much better - I've just gotten lazy. But I need to regroup and remember why I did this and get myself back on track. Even after all these months. I have to believe I can do it.
I also need to join a cheap gym - I don't belong to one now and that is not good bc no matter how much I tell myself I will work out at home i Just never do.
THANK YOU!

Thanks Surfer. Man - I think just hearing that maybe I'm not as bad as I think I am is helping me already. I keep telling myself I haven't gained and so it can't be that bad but its just the stress eating and the snacking and not working out. But you're right - I need to schedule in the workouts and join a gym. I'd love to find a pool to swim in but I live on the cape and its hard to find.
Anyway - THANK YOU!
This is helping me quite a bit. Maybe its just letting go of the shame of it all that helps. Admitting it "out there."

Okay - clearly I don't know how to manage quotes - but my response was in the quote - LOL!
Oh UmmZ - I hadn't read this before I replied. I'm so sorry you've had alot of stress at all but maybe we can support each other a bit to get ourselves back on track? I know there is no miracle to doing it - we just have to start. Its the starting I have a hard time with because I'm so angry at myself.

Oh THANK YOU so much for saying that. The girls from my group are all at the 100 pound mark and still don't eat sugar or carbs. And I know that I'm not gaining - but I'm also not losing. But I think it is because of the way i'm eating - not getting my Protein - snacking on popcorn - eating small doses of chocolate - not working out - not having my Water. I'm just so disappointed with myself.
But your post gives me hope that I could break the pattern - that it isn't too late for me.
I think I got to a point where I felt so good and look so much better - I've just gotten lazy. But I need to regroup and remember why I did this and get myself back on track. Even after all these months. I have to believe I can do it.
I also need to join a cheap gym - I don't belong to one now and that is not good bc no matter how much I tell myself I will work out at home i Just never do.
THANK YOU!

Thanks Surfer. Man - I think just hearing that maybe I'm not as bad as I think I am is helping me already. I keep telling myself I haven't gained and so it can't be that bad but its just the stress eating and the snacking and not working out. But you're right - I need to schedule in the workouts and join a gym. I'd love to find a pool to swim in but I live on the cape and its hard to find.
Anyway - THANK YOU!
This is helping me quite a bit. Maybe its just letting go of the shame of it all that helps. Admitting it "out there."

Oh THANK YOU so much for saying that. The girls from my group are all at the 100 pound mark and still don't eat sugar or carbs. And I know that I'm not gaining - but I'm also not losing. But I think it is because of the way i'm eating - not getting my Protein - snacking on popcorn - eating small doses of chocolate - not working out - not having my Water. I'm just so disappointed with myself.
But your post gives me hope that I could break the pattern - that it isn't too late for me.
I think I got to a point where I felt so good and look so much better - I've just gotten lazy. But I need to regroup and remember why I did this and get myself back on track. Even after all these months. I have to believe I can do it.
I also need to join a cheap gym - I don't belong to one now and that is not good bc no matter how much I tell myself I will work out at home i Just never do.
THANK YOU!

Hi everyone - I haven't posted in a while but I thought I would turn back to the boards for help as I really need it.
I had VSG on December 16th. I had a heart attack shortly after on December 22nd but there was no blockage and i recovered quickly. In the first 5 months I lost 60 pounds and felt amazing. I started at 244 and got down to 180. But since May or June I have been bouncing around between 176 and 178. While I obviously can't go back to my old eating habits I'm still snacking and eating horribly at times. I have found the little ways I can 'cheat.' I keep telling myself I didn't go through all of this just to lose 67 pounds. I want to lose at least 20 more.
The surgery has changed my life in many great ways - my heart is doing really well - ankle pain is gone and I'm far more mobile. I started back at school in May and I am trying to change careers and I LOVE it. But it means that I'm in my car commuting 20 hours a week - working at my full time job 45 hours a week - and at school 13 hours a week. I'm so tired and stressed out. Though I know if I wanted to I could truly change my behaviors.
I have worked out maybe 6 times since surgery. I have a slight handicap that prevents me from walking long distances but I know I use that as an excuse.
I'm so upset and angry with myself for going back to some of my old ways and not working out. I'm angry I let myself have sugar and that I don't find the time to work out and lose these last 20 pounds.
I'm worried that I won't be able to get back on track and lose the rest of the weight and that even if I work out it won't make a difference.
No one needs to tough-love me bc I'm so upset with myself as it is.
Is there anyone else out there that is struggling as well? I feel like I'm the only WLS patient that has reverted back to old ways. I have an appointment with my nutritionist next week and with my nurse. I'm hoping that will help. I was hoping to find a support group but they meet on the same night as my class.
I could use some feedback about how to get myself back on track.