bandster_1007

i am doing fine. i seem to be sabotaging myself. i got down to 198 and now i'm back up to 200. i've been eating like crap. being perfectly honest though this is the week before my period, and i tend to do this. it's funny i just went two weeks without wanting anything sweet, i would prepare ice cream and then put it away, didn't want anything (except coke's...my weakness). then...all the sudden....i want sweets and chips and dip...and caffeine....

and my lower back feels like it is literally splitting apart. during my miscarriage when i had the d & c, that was overdue and after i already had severe infection, ...they ended up doing 2 additional surgeries at the same time....anyways....there was this staple lodged in my pelvis from a previous surgery...my lower back never hurt before, and now that they removed it...it is killing me!!!!

..i'm sure it is just a coincidence...........it's probably cramps..but it sucks nonetheless..

i am going to this new gym this week..don't think curves is going to do it for me...i want to try an elliptical.

quote of the day:

"Your power is proportional to your ability to relax."

ok, i'm not giving up on this:

i do not know how much i weight cuz, my scale is broken...lol.

so, goals for this week: exercise 3 !!! times. increase Water and only allow myself "other" drink once per day. (except coffee). track calories again.

come on want!!! let's do this. i'm finally not nauseated or throwing up. it's nice to eat and not throw up...i thought i was just going to stay that way for a while.

want, don't let yourself beat yourself down. you can do this, we can do this together. you will get your fill back soon.

i'm eating now.

stop blaming yourself and calm down. It will help you eat a more sensible diet. before each bite ask yourself if it is worth it. sometime's it will be. most of the time it won't. eat what you are craving, just don't eat a lot.

and although you could use this as an excuse, try not to, but remember, if you could've controlled all of this on your own, you would not have needed the band. the more you beat yourself up the worse it is going to be. keep coming here and venting.

girl ...i must have talked to you on the phone 5 times today at work!!!! how crazy is that. (i get in trouble for talking on the phone about anything personal at work, but you can e-mail me tdavis@famc.com (i used to be steingrubey)).

so girls, are we going to get together or what? maybe we should plan for friday night if it doesn't work out.

lets try to set up a time soon. i'm good for tomorrow if anyone else is.

i dunno about cabot either. i think you have to pay to walk at that track. not sure though. we could always just walk around in someone's neighborhood. are either of you military wives? i'm not...just checking because most of the people are here are military.

YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! I need walking buddies so bad. (i'm looking for a new job desperately too if anyone has any ideas). i'm doing ok with my bad. i've lost about 29 lbs, but i had gotten pregnant, miscarried....been pretty sick. i just lost 8 1/2 pounds in the last week from being sick with an ear infection.so, let's not put this off any longer, when do you guys want to get together..i can drive to Cabot, but i don't get off until 5 and you'll have to let me know where to meet at.

i got my fill at 6 weeks..he refused to do it before then...even though i was wide open.

sounds like we all live real close together. we should work out together. (i need some exercise buddies). i work in jacksonville at First Arkansas Mortgage Company.

i lost 8 1/2 pounds since last tuesday. i have not been able to eat. it should slow significantly when i start eating again. i'm now down to 199.0 WHEW HEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how are you feeling want???

quote of the day:

"The successful man is the average man, focused."

omg want...that is horrible. i'm can relate to being sick, but not like that. i haven't been able to keep anything down in almost a week now.

i'm so glad you are feeling better. i bet you were very dehydrated. ok, we'll keep this up and that should help you. i had an unfill and i didn't gain anythign when i did.

ok, i've not been able to eat all weekend. apparently (sp?) i caught some virus. so, i'm not going to dwell on that, but...i've been drinking my calories definately. most of them came back up...but ..

my scale is broken. i'm not sure if i will get a new on by tuesday or not. my 7 year old decided to turn his bathtub into a whirlpool the other day (while he was taking a shower) and after a flood, the scale no longer works ). i need a new battery i think.

here are some quotes for the days: (since i missed so many)

so my diet has not been the greatest, but i've exercised 2 times over the weekend. i got the walking video. i like it. harder than i thought.

want..how are you doing? i sure hope you are feeling better.

"Every man is guilty of all the good he did not do."

they sell the skinny cow ice cream here in jacksonville at the Walmart.< /p>

i'm starting to like it, but i just had a miscarriage and due to not having periods with the yaz, i didn't know i was pregnant at first.

so now i freak out.

yes, the yaz is wonderful for the pmdd. i have horrible pms symptoms starting a full week before my period (or absence of). i still have symptoms but only like every three months. and now i will have symprtoms but no period.

i have 4 lbs!!!!!............just 4 lbs....but in March i was down to 201, and then went back up.

i see that this thread has kind of died down, but want and i have been talking on the other thread and getting ourselves back together.

i was totally off track. when i get sick, i eat. and i've been sick. well, i started posting my calories and what do you know i lost 4 lbs in about 2 weeks!!! now i'm messing up again, but still posting.

girls we can do this. i say oh great this isn't working for me, but yet i drink a sweet drink or eat a candy bar. it is working for me, when i work it. i have to track my calories, or i will not lose weight. it is hard to do though.

i have lost 24 lbs since being banded. i did get down to 201 and then plummeted back up. i can't wait to get under 200!!!! (i'm now 204).

i'm back at work now, feeling better. i don't know why they won't recommend putting a tube in my ear to decrease my ear infections. i get one in my right ear about ever 3 months.

goodness want..i sure hope you feel better, i know how that goes. it sucks being sick, but i think it sucks double when you have the band. try to eat ice chips. that always works with me because no matter how small i try to sip if i'm thirsty, i'm sip a lot more than i want too.

so far today i have had 160 calories and 2 grams of Protein. not doing too good today. i'm also having migraines..one right now is making the right eye not see, so if i close my left eye i cannot see the words i am typing unless i try to use my peripheral vision. I HAVE HORRIBLE Migraines.< /p>

i'm trying to find a distributor for the passion for life Vitamins. can you tell me about how much they cost for a month supply?

my doctor says that as long as i am on the pill and not having periods that my hormones are fine, but if i'm not on the pill and not having periods then my hormones are way out of wack.

oh yeah, i think we should post nsv's. ok, so i went shopping last week with my 15 year old cousin. she is smaller than me, but she's not skinny. anyways, we can wear the same shirt!!! i decided i dress way to old and fat for my age, so i went and got some of those cute form fitting thin tee shirts...i love them. also, i found a pair of jeans that fit me perfectly that do not have W attached to them!!!! i can't tell you how long that has been. ok, so they are an 18, but they are a regular 18. plus i bought some shorts (never wear shorts but they were for camping) and they are a regular xl (16/18) and they are almost too big!!!

ok, so here is the big one, i just got a picture back of myself a couple of weeks ago at a family reunion and when i looked at it, i actually did not think that i looked fat!!! it was amazing.

no the thread is not going to die. it may just be me and you want, but this thing is working. i weighed in tuesday morning at 205.2 lbs!!!!! so i lost 2 pounds!!!!

ok, now my weight is up to 209 i'm carrying so much Fluid i can't close my hands and i'm sick. i have a sinus infection in both sinus cavities, i have an outer and inner ear infection in one ear and the other one has a lot of Fluid in it, so when i stand up i throw up. this is my 3rd day out from work sick. they are probably going to fire me. i'm not tracking calories because if i can eat it and it will stay down then i am, and that includes sweet drinks. so this week is a bust for me so far. as soon as i stop throwing up i will be tracking again.

i don't have my quote of the day today because i get those at work, so i will have to post that tomorrow.

CONGRATS ON THAT POUNT WANT.... way to go, it must feel good to bust through that plateau even if it is a pound. we are going to do this together.

i have found a new favorite snack, jack link's beef Jerky. i especially like the steak nuggets. low cal, and high Protein and very good.

...i need a fill though, i have one coming up in august.

i just found out today that my coworker takes it, and she has been thinking something is wrong with her because she has been several months without a period...i guess it is a good birth control.

i get to weigh in tonight, so i will let you all know. my calories are horrid today. i had captain d's with sweet tea, and a dr. pepper today!!!!!! i let myself have sweet drinks over the weekend because it was so hot i could hardly eat. (i have low sugar A LOT)...i have it high too.....

WAY TO GO WANT!!! you sound like such a good mother. how many children do you have? do you work too? how old is your baby?

ok, so i started using yaz around the same time as my surgery and i do not have periods with it. does anyone else experience this?

it takes me a while to get used to....i love it though. my pms is better, and my Migraines do not get is bad, my skin is clear, etc.

i was told that after i had my surgery from a lady that works at my doctor's office. all i know is that if your doctor can only do surgery in a "surgery center" i would be wary...however, wellborn, baker, and the guy with baker are all good and clear.

coo, i completely understand about comfort foods. when i was going through my miscarriage i just gave in. i didn't have time to deal with it. and i tell you, i still have my days. i'm taking antidepressents and everything but some days this whole baby thing really gets to me.

if you want to talk about what is stressing you, i am here.

i want another baby really bad, at least i thought i did. my husband and i have a 7 year old (i was 18) and we didn't get "back" together until he was 2 1/2. we've been together now for 5 1/2 years and we just got married in march. the monday after my miscarriage we found out we lost the baby. we delayed out honey moon until memorial day weekend (i didn't have time off from work) and i was a little better before the honey moon and then we came back and i got severly sick. i developed mrsa in my uterus. i ended up missing 9 1/2 weeks of work. for a very small thing. i had been pregnant since january but the baby had died and 6 weeks, and i carried it until april. it could have been a lot worse and i realize that. the miscarriage only made my husband and i stronger, but i ended up having surgery and my doctor (switched because the first caused the problems above) told me that i have a 4 month window to try to have another. but you know what, now i don't want one...but i do. i cannot stand the thought of trying to have another baby right now. if i had to go through all that again, i just do not think i could take it. if i had a miscarriage and it was taken care of in a week it would be easier, but i was soooooooo sick. and my brother had a baby in the same hospital at the same time i was having surgeries, so i've been able to be around her...and i've determined that i'm too lazy to have another baby.......so, i think in my head i don't want another because we have $10,000 in wedding debt to pay and i'm lazy,.....but yet i cry when i type this.

it has really been getting to me, and joey (my husband) really doesn't know how to deal with my crazy emotions. he has them too, but he doesn't talk about them as much.

...i didn't care about food when i was going through all of that. but i did puke up everything that i ate and i developed a severe Vitamin deficiency that caused sores around my mouth (seems the Vitamin that my doctor prescribed to me was for people who eat healthily...not for band patients..so i thought i was taking a good one...and i wasn't.) stupid..doctor.

ok, so here is my exercise for the weekend:

Saturday morning 1 a.m.: set up camp

later that day, paddled a conoe for 6 hours and swam

i also swam across a 25 foot river and back ( i know 25 foot is not that big of a deal, but for someone who never ever ever exercises, i was schocked that i could do it...i love to swim though and i'm a pretty strong swimmer).

sunday: swam for 2 hours, broke down camp....exhausted

today..i'm exhausted and burned.....lol..

can't wait to hear from you guys......

ok, so here is the quote of the day

"A good plan today is better than a great plan tomorrow."