LisaCO

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I have no clue what I just posted. Lol we will see when the pic comes up. Lol

Yes that would be the 1% you have to deal with unfortunately but remember your there to give them the best start they can get. It does suck knowing what kind of environment they might be discharged too. Don't get attached. I really do love my job.

Yes Amylynns if you have a passion for OB go for it. I do labor & delivery, nusery, postpartum & gynecology. It's very satifying. 99% of my patients are healrhy. It's rewarding bringing life into the world.

Thank you everyone. I really need support. My A1C is my sugar level 4.62 & normal values is 4.8 to 6.0. Before surgery I was in the 7. My Iron levels are normal. My B12 is sky high so I quit taking it. My husband & I are good. We did go to counseling but that was before everything that happened. He was smothering me it was awful. I was either going to fight or flight. It is a work in progress but our communication is much better. I really wanted out of my marriage at that point. Oh my gosh I am so happy I remembered my password & found you guys again. I used the drinking as a crutch it kicks my butt so I would use it to go to sleep & forget how unhappy I was. But now that I got the second job & meeting new people (women) lol. I feel in control again. I am a labor & delivery nurse. Hang Amylynns on your nursing. You will be fabulous. thank you guys again for the comments. I don't feel so alone anymore.

But honestly with the weight loss. I lost my mind. I started drinking alot. Vodka is my go to drink. My husband became so controlling I was not allowed to even go exercise. I then had an affair. My husband found out & bought me a new truck back in August 2016. Which still is a shock. The attention got to me. Since my lowest weight I have gained 27 pounds & I am miserable but I'm not giving up. I became very sick this winter my asthma exacerbated & my lungs filled up with Fluid. My diverticulitis got me again to I was very depressed & got into a funk. The Good news is I'm still with my husband & he loves me greatly thank God. I recently got another job & am ready to power through all this weight gain. I plan on getting surgery in January 2018 but I have to lose 20 pounds first. My rule. I don't want to sugar coat all of this because it's not. I have been on one hell of a ride. Did my lab work back in February everything came back perfect my A1C is 4.62. My liver, kidneys & pancreas are all great. My friends sister had GB & died this last summer from liver failure & her kidneys shut down very quickly. So I talked to my Doctor & was honest. She scolded me & told I'm only allowed to drink once a week. It feels good to tell someone because I have kept this all in for to long. Seeing you all & seeing your continue success will help me. I know it. I hope this isn't to much information. If it is I apologize.

I havnt talked to you all for awhile. I forgot my password but I'm back in. I done so well but am on the gaining side I am very disappointed in my self but the good news is that I am getting back on track as soon as the weather allows me. I really want a Tummy Tuck. I hope everyone is well.

Breakfast P3 & cheese stick. I could eat more but I'm really trying to give my pouch time to tell my head I'm not hungry anymore.

How is everyone doing. It seems that we have all hit a plateau in some way. I actually went exercising in the mountains yesterday. It felt great to get ou. I trek through the snow & mud with my trusty dachshund. I know I have gained weight but the scale says I am 5.8 pounds over my lowest weight. I feel more like 50 pounds. It's weird to because in the mirror I see a huge belly & fat arms. I realize more & more everyday that my mind is my worse enemy. Would love to hear how everyone is holding out.

Well...I have gained 5 pounds. I'm at 170 now. Kinda discouraging when I see how well everyone else has done. I can eat almost anything without trouble, which is not a good thing. Just yesterday, I refocused and with warmer weather I can start walking outside again! Pepsi....my nemesis! Started out occasionally as a treat and then moved up to several times a week. NO MORE! Got to remember how much I've paid financially and emotionally for this!

How is everyone doing. It seems that we have all hit a plateau in some way. I actually went exercising in the mountains yesterday. It felt great to get ou. I trek through the snow & mud with my trusty dachshund. I know I have gained weight but the scale says I am 5.8 pounds over my lowest weight. I feel more like 50 pounds. It's weird to because in the mirror I see a huge belly & fat arms. I realize more & more everyday that my mind is my worse enemy. Would love to hear how everyone is holding out.

Lisa, I've been suffering from the same thing. I need to stop. We've got this!

Thanks guys. Yes Shadow I would get wasted so fast in such a short amount of time & would get so silly. I feel awesome cuz I am in control. Now to get my diet back in control.

Hi everyone. I have not been on for awhile and boy have I had some major changes. I recently went on a cruise. Ate what I want and drank what I want. After the cruise on my way home I thought what is happening to me where has my motivation went? Why am I drinking so much alcohol? Because it makes me feel good it makes me grow wings & I become super women. I only drink at night as if that makes it better. One night my husband had a terrible time helping me down the stairs. I don't remember any of it. So on our way home some where in Texas I woke up & thought to myself I have gone through so much. No way was I going to let alcohol control my life like food. I took my life back in control & have not drank any alcohol for 5 days. There are so many obstacles in life that we have endured & have yet to endure but losing the battle of winning is not one of them. I hope you all are doing well. Let's revamp, refocus & reset my friends.

Hi all I am doing ok. Finally got a work out in yesterday. I too can eat whatever I want. Sometimes I eat way more then I think I should at a serving. Still drinking a Protein Shake everyday. I feel fat at times but my husband says it's all in my head because I am not. But I have gained some weight I can tell in my pants. I have been traveling alot so I think I make bad food choices because it's readily available. Weather has been rough this year & it has kept me lazy. Lol Going on a cruise on 2/19. I hope I don't over do it with all that food on the ship. Nice touching base. Y'all have a great day!

I think at some point everyone loses there mind a little. I know I did in August. All the attention I was receiving was over whelming. I made some bad decisions & put my marriage at risk. I do want to live life to the fullest but with confidence & power that comes from inside me. The outside is only for show it doesn't bring you the love you want & need by the people who really love you. I am glad that I am back to me. Have a great day everyone!

Yes we are! I gained 11 pounds over the holiday. I have lost 9 pounds and am now 13 pounds from my goal weight. I felt good after stepping on the scale this morning. Sticking to Protein.

Good morning from wintery Colorado. I am happy to report that I lost 4 pounds. I am thrilled. I was so worried. I focused on Protein yesterday was craving carbs so I ate about 5 Truscott but mostly sticking to salmon & sautéed veggies. Have a great day everyone

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Funny thing with me blowing my diet I weighed yesterday & I have not gained or lost but I feel huge. I swear the fat is creeping back in. My husband said either pick better food or stop complaining. Poor guy I am driving him nuts because I continue to complain about my fears of being so fat. Yet he sees beauty & keeps telling me you don't get it. My mind is my worse critic. I got off my butt & went cross country skiing. First exercise since Thanksgiving. Yep I'm ready to get it together.

Yes Shadow for sure.

I am completely off track. These holidays are killing me. My will power is broken. I am up 9 pounds from my lowest weight. I have not worked out since Thanksgiving. I know I will fight to get back in focus but really why can I not say no to all the bad foods right now.

I am curious on cost & doctors for breast lift & Tummy Tuck. If anyone has any it would be great.

This is my Doctor. Had my yearly visit yesterday. He is awesome!!!! Supposed to be back on Dr. OZ this month.

@@LisaCO that picture of you with your husband is so good. You are so pretty and I agree with the guy that you also look very feminine.

My husband told me about 3 days ago that he was getting nervous also because the guys at work told him he should be on alert.

Thanks guys... Now I have to coddle him. It was, "where are you going?" And I'd say "to the movies" and he'd tell me to have fun. Now he's like," should I go?" Uhmm, No! (He's one of those loud movie people that talks like he's in the living room and eats loudly and crunches ice. Everyone gives the evil eye.) I learned long ago to never go to movies with him.

By the way, our 19th anniversary is in a week. Between him and my first husband, I've been married for 25 of my 49 years. Yeesh! I've been taking care of other people a long time! Nice to have devoted a year to myself. Congratulations me!

@@LisaCO

Absolutely running into these problems. The plumber was checking me out, imagine that. He was full on flirting too, OMG. I honestly did not know what to do. I regressed back to high school, the last time this was going on. My inner reaction was - you creep. But then, a part of me liked it. I am in no danger of going down that road but I could see how someone single could replace food with sex. It scares me a little because other women probably deal with this all their lives and have learned to cope. We on the other end are completely unprepared with the self confidence to handle it. When we were obese there was a little comfort in being invisible. That cloak is gone. Now we have to face the world in a new way. I don't think my husband knows how to handle it either. But then maybe he needs to because we were taken for granted for so long we became pieces of furniture. Like a comfortable recliner that is always there. We must take life in our own hands and carve a path in the full knowledge that we are "ALL THAT" and we deserve nothing but the best. As I put my foot forward everyday I want it to be to become better and make the world around me better. Nearly one year on, I am at a point were I think I can look towards being amazing become I am, I always was but I was lost in a sea of despair and self pity. I wouldn't even speak up because I felt I was the fat woman nobody cared about.