jennynoblemiller

So my surgery is tomorrow and I'm suddenly overcome with fear and sadness. How did I get to this point? I have struggled to be faithful to my preop diet. (I have only lost nine pounds). I've been so excited, being open and proof about my choice. I've been reading and researching everything I can, but I woke up this morning just panicky and ashamed.

Tell me, is this emotional roller coaster normal? Does it sounds familiar to anyone?

I don't know what got into me. I've been great on my pre op diet, down 19 pounds. I'm five days from surgery and went out last night and had two Manhattans and a handful of french fries someone had ordered for the table. I'm back on track again today, but someone tell me I didn't do any irreparable harm.... No more going out with the girls for a long time. My head is throbbing!

I'm another April 23 sleever!

CW: 251

GW: 150