cccv4

Mine is my dog's name who I had to put down in July 2012, a few months before getting sleeved and my year of birth.

I am a dog lover and shelter volunteer/rescuer. I currently have 2 pitbulls-one is mine and the second is my current foster.

hey all!!! i survived surgery!!!
i arrived yesterday at 5:30, and by 6 i was getting hooked up on an IV. my dad and sister went with me! i was not nervous whatsoever! my doctors were amazing!!! they made me feel right at home, and my nurses were all so wonderful! my main RN was from the philippines and we were talking about the Pacquiao fight tonight lol. my other RN in the operating room was from the Caribbean, which is where my hubby is from. it felt like i had already known everyone. they all bragged about how i was such a wonderful, loving, easy-going, and joy of a patient. it sounds crazy, but i didn't want to leave! lol! they were spoiling me and so wonderful and helpful. my family was amazed by how I was taken care of by the staff at Delano Regional Medical Clinic.
i was rolled into the surgery room and they were playing oldies. they apologized for the music and i told them that i loved it! they inserted the IV and told me that this would be to relax me. i felt super relaxed! then i remember my surgeon walking in all prepared and smiled at me! the assistant put a mask on me and told me, "this is just oxygen, ok?" YEAH RIGHT! i said, 'OK!' and before you know it, i was knocked out!
i woke up and the first thing i heard was them calling my fam on the phone and saying that i made it through surgery. i started waking up and they all smiled and said, "you did great! no blood! no bleeding!" i asked my RN, "can i drive home?" LOL! i was so out of it! they rolled me back to post-op and then i went back to sleep. i woke up to see my dad and sister and they were so happy, as was i!
no vomitting, thank god! i have funny reactions with anesthesia. last time i went out, i woke up feeling like i was freezing to death. yesterday i woke up in a sweat, and was burning up.
today i am feeling really hungry, and i thought i wasn't supposed to be? i mean, i can deal with it, but i'd love to eat, although i know i can't. was anyone else hungry this fast? i've been sipping on Water, drinking apple juice, and right now i had a sugar free popcicle. last night i had horrible nausea and so i had to get another med for that. thank god for liquid vicodin!!! i am really sore and am thankful for my body pillow. my family is all coming over to see me tonight and i asked my hubby to make dinner for them. they're all so happy! i'll be in my room on my ipad but will be happy to see fam. my puppy has been taking such great care of me
thanks for all the support!

This has been a great thread. I'm so glad you've shared the ups and downs. I've got a feeling I'll be the same way so I can learn from your experience. Can't wait to hear how it went today!

Friends, I want to take the time to thank you guys for being there for me. It feels great to be apart of a group where I feel loved and where I belong. It helps to know that so many of you understand what I’m going through. Yesterday was such a battle, not just with the mental hunger, but with so many things going on in my life. I haven’t shared with this group of friends, but I am recently getting over very big losses in my life. My aunt passed away in January at the age of 54 and it was an unexpected death due to pneumonia complications. My uncle was diagnosed with brain cancer and just died a month ago. His death was rapid and very emotional, and I helped care for him during his last days. A month ago, one of my very best friends (or so I thought) totally walked out of my life. It has been so painful. The only thing I have had to hold onto is my faith, my husband, and the fact that this procedure is around the corner. Yesterday was a battle of emotions, mind, body, spirit, and I totally lost…to some degree.
I felt in a very lonely place, despair, and felt very lost after I logged off of here. I went to the refrigerator, opened up a gallon of milk, and had a cup of milk with a donut. I wasn’t satisfied, so I hopped in my car and went to the pizza parlor and ordered a small pizza all to myself. I had made my mind up that I was not going to have this surgery. The pizza came out and I was determined to eat the entire small pizza, all to myself. I read the sign and it said that it was suitable for 1-2 people, but I assured myself that I’d take it all on my own.
That’s when it started…
What I expected would be an explosion of joy and comfort was totally dead. Not what it used to be before. Mentally, I felt all screwed up. Why was I not getting a thrill like I usually would? I thought, “Maybe it’s the size of the slices being so small. Maybe the 2nd piece will make me feel better.” Second piece goes in, and still, nothing. It was like leaving your wonderful partner and going to have a cheap and quick affair. You’re only left empty and feel like crap. Entertaining the thought might be a thrill for a second, but you soon realize it’s not worth it.
And it wasn’t.
I realized that what I was doing wasn’t satisfying me, and even if I TRIED to eat the entire pizza, I couldn’t. I could barely get to pieces down. I had already made my mind to call my doctor today and say I was cancelling my appointment, but the moment I tried to get out of the booth, I realized how uncomfortable I was (and always am). I have to do the awkward sideways turn so that I can get out since I’m overweight. I thought to myself, “Is this worth a few seconds or minutes or gratification? It’s not.”
I went home and the entire drive I felt like I was going to puke. I was torn between crying and puking. My body hasn’t been used to eating like this for the week and so not only were my emotions and mentality knocking on the door, but my body was screaming that something wasn’t right. I barely made it in the house before I ran to the restroom and threw up. I couldn’t handle all of this food for the first time in so many days.
I wiped my tears and realized that I don’t want to live like this for the rest of my life. I looked in the mirror and told myself that I could do this, even though I fell. One part of me was disappointed that I was so weak. The other part of me is thankful that I did this, so that I can see that what used to gratify my desires no longer does. I long and desire for something much more than a few seconds of pigging out. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
Oh, what did I do with the box of pizza that was untouched? I took the pizza and went to a parking lot where many stray dogs are. They thanked me for the dinner.

you're totally right! this is a learning process and it seems that it is all trial and error. if we don't know what it is like to be at the bottom of the barrel, then how will we know when we are at the top? i've learned that most people struggle, and no one is perfect with weight loss. if we were, then we wouldn't be on this board, and we wouldn't need a lap band. some, more than others, are more open about their struggles. kudos to the people on this board who are real, honest, vulnerable, and transparent, including you!

Friends, I want to take the time to thank you guys for being there for me. It feels great to be apart of a group where I feel loved and where I belong. It helps to know that so many of you understand what I’m going through. Yesterday was such a battle, not just with the mental hunger, but with so many things going on in my life. I haven’t shared with this group of friends, but I am recently getting over very big losses in my life. My aunt passed away in January at the age of 54 and it was an unexpected death due to pneumonia complications. My uncle was diagnosed with brain cancer and just died a month ago. His death was rapid and very emotional, and I helped care for him during his last days. A month ago, one of my very best friends (or so I thought) totally walked out of my life. It has been so painful. The only thing I have had to hold onto is my faith, my husband, and the fact that this procedure is around the corner. Yesterday was a battle of emotions, mind, body, spirit, and I totally lost…to some degree.
I felt in a very lonely place, despair, and felt very lost after I logged off of here. I went to the refrigerator, opened up a gallon of milk, and had a cup of milk with a donut. I wasn’t satisfied, so I hopped in my car and went to the pizza parlor and ordered a small pizza all to myself. I had made my mind up that I was not going to have this surgery. The pizza came out and I was determined to eat the entire small pizza, all to myself. I read the sign and it said that it was suitable for 1-2 people, but I assured myself that I’d take it all on my own.
That’s when it started…
What I expected would be an explosion of joy and comfort was totally dead. Not what it used to be before. Mentally, I felt all screwed up. Why was I not getting a thrill like I usually would? I thought, “Maybe it’s the size of the slices being so small. Maybe the 2nd piece will make me feel better.” Second piece goes in, and still, nothing. It was like leaving your wonderful partner and going to have a cheap and quick affair. You’re only left empty and feel like crap. Entertaining the thought might be a thrill for a second, but you soon realize it’s not worth it.
And it wasn’t.
I realized that what I was doing wasn’t satisfying me, and even if I TRIED to eat the entire pizza, I couldn’t. I could barely get to pieces down. I had already made my mind to call my doctor today and say I was cancelling my appointment, but the moment I tried to get out of the booth, I realized how uncomfortable I was (and always am). I have to do the awkward sideways turn so that I can get out since I’m overweight. I thought to myself, “Is this worth a few seconds or minutes or gratification? It’s not.”
I went home and the entire drive I felt like I was going to puke. I was torn between crying and puking. My body hasn’t been used to eating like this for the week and so not only were my emotions and mentality knocking on the door, but my body was screaming that something wasn’t right. I barely made it in the house before I ran to the restroom and threw up. I couldn’t handle all of this food for the first time in so many days.
I wiped my tears and realized that I don’t want to live like this for the rest of my life. I looked in the mirror and told myself that I could do this, even though I fell. One part of me was disappointed that I was so weak. The other part of me is thankful that I did this, so that I can see that what used to gratify my desires no longer does. I long and desire for something much more than a few seconds of pigging out. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
Oh, what did I do with the box of pizza that was untouched? I took the pizza and went to a parking lot where many stray dogs are. They thanked me for the dinner.

i can't believe that my big day is finally here! by this time tomorrow, i will already be at home (God willing) and recovering. i have to be at the hospital at 5:30 in the morning. i'm my surgeon's first surgery tomorrow!
i'm excited to get home and start washing my linens, sheets, and getting my room ready for when i get home. tonight i have to go to the pharmacy to see if they carry my pain meds in liquid format. it is starting to sink in that this is really happening!
i'm a little worried, because i seem to be battling seasonal allergies. i've read online and it sounds that as long as i am not congested, then i am OK.
it's hard to think that this will be the heaviest i will ever weigh again in my life. i walk around and my pants keep falling. funny how 14 lb weight loss can make a difference. the nurse called right now from the hospital to check up on me and make sure i'm there tomorrow morning. this is all kind of surreal...

i can't believe that my big day is finally here! by this time tomorrow, i will already be at home (God willing) and recovering. i have to be at the hospital at 5:30 in the morning. i'm my surgeon's first surgery tomorrow!
i'm excited to get home and start washing my linens, sheets, and getting my room ready for when i get home. tonight i have to go to the pharmacy to see if they carry my pain meds in liquid format. it is starting to sink in that this is really happening!
i'm a little worried, because i seem to be battling seasonal allergies. i've read online and it sounds that as long as i am not congested, then i am OK.
it's hard to think that this will be the heaviest i will ever weigh again in my life. i walk around and my pants keep falling. funny how 14 lb weight loss can make a difference. the nurse called right now from the hospital to check up on me and make sure i'm there tomorrow morning. this is all kind of surreal...

i can't believe that my big day is finally here! by this time tomorrow, i will already be at home (God willing) and recovering. i have to be at the hospital at 5:30 in the morning. i'm my surgeon's first surgery tomorrow!
i'm excited to get home and start washing my linens, sheets, and getting my room ready for when i get home. tonight i have to go to the pharmacy to see if they carry my pain meds in liquid format. it is starting to sink in that this is really happening!
i'm a little worried, because i seem to be battling seasonal allergies. i've read online and it sounds that as long as i am not congested, then i am OK.
it's hard to think that this will be the heaviest i will ever weigh again in my life. i walk around and my pants keep falling. funny how 14 lb weight loss can make a difference. the nurse called right now from the hospital to check up on me and make sure i'm there tomorrow morning. this is all kind of surreal...

Either everyone here is way stronger than I am, or I am a major cry baby. My question is: when does the pre-op fasting get better? Today is my 1st day and I have never felt to miserable in my life. This is making me wonder what I signed up for. Please tell me that life as a bander will not be this way forever. I'm here sipping on my chicken broth, Protein Shake, and just downed a popcicle like it was going out of style. My head is killing me, my thoughts are all over the place, and I'm in an emotional funk. I read posts and people are like, "Today is my 10th day on my fast!" and they sound so encouraged and strong. I feel like sh*t. I'm mad at myself for being overweight and why did I get myself in this in the first place? I'm sad, because I cannot sit and have a happy dinner with my husband. Thank goodness I have a wonderful spouse who supports me. He doesn't furnish food in front of me because he knows how hard this is. I feel like I won't be able to make it to the 2 week mark for my surgery. When does this get better? When is there a light at the end of this tunnel of a hell called liquid diet?

Hey there! Thank you for asking
Things went GREAT!!! My surgeon was SO proud of me and told me that I've lost 14 lbs since January! He said I went down 2 BMI points!!! Woo hoo!!! I love that I am able to be honest with him and very vulnerable! He's very upfront with me and told me that my safety is his #1 priority. I shared with him that I did mess up in my liquid diet a few times, but he told me that the important part is that I followed through and didn't give up. He gave me a high-five and told me that it shows on the scale that I didn't give up!!!
I am scheduled for surgery bright and early on Friday morning @ 7:30 AM (California time)

i think you should tell him. if you cannot be 100% honest with someone that you've been in a serious relationship with, then why be together? through all of this, my husband has been my #1 supporter. he wants the best for me and isn't happy about me doing this, but will support me. supporting me also means that he is mindful about what we eat, what we do, etc. your BF will have to know that this is not only a life changing experience for you, but it is also a changing experience for HIM.

Hey there! Thank you for asking
Things went GREAT!!! My surgeon was SO proud of me and told me that I've lost 14 lbs since January! He said I went down 2 BMI points!!! Woo hoo!!! I love that I am able to be honest with him and very vulnerable! He's very upfront with me and told me that my safety is his #1 priority. I shared with him that I did mess up in my liquid diet a few times, but he told me that the important part is that I followed through and didn't give up. He gave me a high-five and told me that it shows on the scale that I didn't give up!!!
I am scheduled for surgery bright and early on Friday morning @ 7:30 AM (California time)

Yayyyy!!! Congrats!!!

Just the boost you needed right now. Way to go!

Had my pre-op appointment today and my surgeon was VERY impressed!!! i've lost 14 lbs since January and he said that I did very well. There was no greater feeling than the excitement knowing that I'm one step away. He said that my BMI also went down 2 points, so this is great news!!! I told him that I felt that I could have done better, and that I did cheat a little on my birthday, but that I tried my hardest throughout these 2 weeks. He smiled and told me that no one is perfect, but this is an example of what life will be like. It is ok to mess up every now and then, but we need to consciously watch what we are eating. He gave me a big high-five and told me to get rest because he will be seeing me bright and early Friday morning! Surgery is scheduled for 7:30 AM!!!

i think you should tell him. if you cannot be 100% honest with someone that you've been in a serious relationship with, then why be together? through all of this, my husband has been my #1 supporter. he wants the best for me and isn't happy about me doing this, but will support me. supporting me also means that he is mindful about what we eat, what we do, etc. your BF will have to know that this is not only a life changing experience for you, but it is also a changing experience for HIM.

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I am scheduled for surgery on friday! tomorrow is my pre-op apt. i will let you know how that goes! i've lost 11 pounds on this pre-op fast. i haven't been perfect on it, but i see the results of my hard work. diet a&w root beer plus my vanilla Optifast Protein have been my lifesaver! oh, and the diet orange crush with vanilla optifast! april 6th was my 31st birthday. what better bday gift than to do something for MY health!

I don't know how else to thank you guys other than share with you that you've all been my closest friends during a very difficult and challenging point in my life. Your ongoing encouragement is what makes me put my foot forward and take a step. Right when I feel that I've screwed up too much, I feel that there is still hope. Thank all of you!
Me falling down on my ass when I wrote that emotional entry was just what I needed to give myself a kick in the ass. It put a fighter's spirit in me. I told myself that I would push myself to see the scale clock in below 300. I started out at 327 and today I weighed in at 316. I can't believe I'm nearly 15 pounds from being UNDER 300. That's HUGE, and I haven't even had the surgery yet!
Tomorrow is my pre-op appointment. Let's see what the doctor says. I'm so nervous that he's going to ask if I cheated. I have to tell him that I did. Hopefully, all will be well.

i think you should tell him. if you cannot be 100% honest with someone that you've been in a serious relationship with, then why be together? through all of this, my husband has been my #1 supporter. he wants the best for me and isn't happy about me doing this, but will support me. supporting me also means that he is mindful about what we eat, what we do, etc. your BF will have to know that this is not only a life changing experience for you, but it is also a changing experience for HIM.

Due to my weight (most likely) I've had wonky periods, but now that I'm losing they are getting more normal! We're talking last cycle was about 40 days when normally I'd go for 3+ months with nothing, then 1 month of heavy period. I'm so glad!!

It has to do with hormonal changes during weight loss. Your body stores estrogen in the fatty tissue so as you lose weight, the estrogen is released from that tissue and it can cause imbalances for awhile. It will eventually settle itself down though.

I have seen on here loads of people who had to go on a liquid diet before surgery, I was told to go on the Sugar Busters diet...it wasn't hard at all and I lost on it too...sorry you are having such difficulities. It does get better though...just have to understand somethings are just never going to be the same!!! But hang in there you'll do great!!!