Kattmagg

It's been a long time since I've been on here so hete I go...
This has been the most amazing journey over the last year. I have started to live again and love again.
I was a food addict. I still am but im in recovery... I ALWAYS will be.when I was 353lbs I would wake up and think about food. I would eat and eat and eat. I reached the point that I could barely tie my own shoes bc i could barely bend over. I had to roll off of my couch to get up.. I could barely wipe my own ass. I was always uncomfortable.
Miserable.. I was completely miserable.
When I would pull thru the drive thru I would act like I was ordering for 2 bc i was ordering so much food. When I was cashing out at the convenient store I was act like I was buying all that chips and candy for my kids.. not me.
Embarrassed. .. that's what I was.
I would constantly compare myself to everyone... I would look at other women and actually be mad at her bc she looked better than me.. she had a better body than me.. my man probably wanted her bc i was so fat and ugly.
Ashamed is what I had become.
Finally I decided after years of dieting enough was enough.... I had the gastric sleeve 02/26/2013.BEST DECISION I MADE.
It's now been a year and here are my stats. 32 years old and 5-7'.I was 353 and now I'm 183lbs. Went from a bmi of 55.5 to 28.7. I wore a size 26 pants and now I'm in 10/12.
Over the last year I have stayed active. For the first 6 months I was VERY strict.on what I ate. Now I'm more lenient. I eat every 3 hours making Protein #1. That isn't hard for me bc I'm a hard core carnivore. As far as exercise I life weights 2xs a week at home.. 2 10 lb weights.. I walk 3 miles 4xs a week also. I've never busted my ass at the gym and

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I just continue to do what works best for me.

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This is Awesome! I just signed up for the forum today and found this thread. I've been nursing for 30 years, the last 12 in the Operating Room. I started my preop diet today and will be sleeved on March 19th. I don't know if being an OR nurse is better or worse going into surgery. I have been overweight my whole life, lots of yoyo dieting. I am doing this on my own so will be counting on the kindness of strangers to get me through.
Nice ta meet ya !!

Thanks for this post. I am pre op and one thing i am feeling is shame.Sounds weird I know. I don't want anyone to know I am going for surgery. I haven't owned it yet I guess. I am single and wish I had someone to share this with, but I can't think of anyone in my circles that I could count on as a buddy in this. Glad I have all of you. Which is a good forum/page for an everyday log in and support? there are many pages and I'd like to find one where I get to know some members and can check in daily. Still figuring the forums out....thanks