feelingdown/but determined

I too feel your pain and frustration, you really took the words out of my mouth today was a really bad day for me and all I could do was just cry. I know that this will help me in the long run. My food use to be my support system when I was feeling down now the very thing I love I can't have and I miss it , having a very hard time dealing with this I can't seem to find anything to satisfy me all I can think about is how thirst I am and want to eat something but If I do I will be in so much pain. Very depressed but still optimistic.

I had the sleeve performed on 1/20. I was on Protein shakes and clear fluids for two weeks pre op and 2 weeks post op. It's now been three days that I've been able to have purée foods like mashed potatoes, apple sauce yogurt and Soups.

After being on the clear Fluid diet for so long I thought I would be happy to move on. I have felt regret since the moment I woke up from surgery , and despite my hope it would get better when I could eat more it's actually gotten much worse.

I miss so much about life before this surgery. I don't know how I will adjust. I miss taking big gulps of cold Water. I sip and sip and sip, but I am always thirsty. I miss the joy of eating with friends and family and eating good foods. I miss being able to drink while I'm eating and I hate having to wait half an hour before and after eating to drink. Will it always take me half an hour to drink a cup of Water? Will the rest of my life be spent feeling thirsty, hungry, counting minutes till I can drink water or constantly tracking my Protein? I chose the sleeve over the bypass so that I would still be able to have a semi-normal life. There's no point regretting something that cannot be undone, but I do.

IN THE BEGINING WHEN I CHOOSE TO GET THE SLEEVE DONE I DIDN'T TELL ANYONE NOT EVEN MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH ANY TYPE OF NEGATIVITY. I COME FROM A FAMILY OF GENETICALLY LARGE PEOPLE AND MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER IS DANGEROUSLY OVERWEIGHT. I DID TELL HIM I WAS GOING TO HAVE SURGERY BUT NOT TOTALLY WHAT FOR UNTIL A FEW DAYS BEFORE. AS I FIGURED HE WAS TOTALLY AGAINST IT AND NEGATIVE AND THAT DISCOURAGED ME FROM TELLING ANYONE ELSE. AS FAR AS MY EMPLOYER I JUST TOOK PERSONAL DAYS I WAS NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS WHAT FOR I WORK IN THE MEDICAL FIELD AND DID'T WANT TO HAVE TO MAKE ANY EXPLINATIONS GOOD OR BAD. ITS HARD TO TAKE THIS JOURNEY WITHOUT A GOOD SUPPORT SYSTEM. DO WHATS RIGHT FOR YOU AND YOUR SITUATION

Hello, I am 12 days post op and feel awful. The day of surgery I think was my best day because I didn't feel much pain I was able to get up right away and walk, I felt a little week, and sore but that was all. Day to in the hospital after my upper GI study I tried to start the liquids and that's when it started going down hill. I have the worst reflux I have ever had. Anything that touched my stomach, hot, cold, warm, made me gag, my stomach spasm and severely cramp, and heave and kicked up my stomach acid so bad that it burn all the way up my esophagus to the back of my mouth. I am on reflux meds and it was still so bad that I was prescribed what is called a white slider (a mix of mom and lidocane) just in order to take a sip. I had to go home with this script it helps but I have to be very careful because every thing gets numb after I take this and its hard to judge if I have taken in to much Fluid at one time. I can drink more than 2-3oz an hour. Every sip I take feels like I'm swallowing a baseball slowly. I'm very frustrated and depressed I can seem to get any type of satisfaction to quench my thirst. I'm having more pain and feel just week! TODAY ALL I CAN DO IS CRY!