CherylMomO4

Hello All. Hope all is well with you and yours. I am over 5 years out and recently feel like I am just a few weeks out from surgery. I can barely eat anything without throwing it back up. Truth be told I shouldn’t be eating the things I’m eating anyways. Is this a blessing in disguise? Are there veterans out there successfully living with stricture?  

currently 20 lbs higher than my lowest weight.

Hello All. Hope all is well with you and yours. I am over 5 years out and recently feel like I am just a few weeks out from surgery. I can barely eat anything without throwing it back up. Truth be told I shouldn’t be eating the things I’m eating anyways. Is this a blessing in disguise? Are there veterans out there successfully living with strictures?

my stats

surgery weight 189

lowest weight 145

current weight 162

Congrats!!

You learn something new every day. Thank you for a great laugh. I am loving this site more and more every day. Sad to find out I will have a sagging who haw. Does it ever go back to normal without intervention?

Had to Google Squatty Potty. If I ever need one I know where to find it...

I am on week 3 of 0 to 5K. I love it and I love the soreness because I can feel muscles under the blubber. Such a great feeling. The runners high is amazing. I run MWF and do circuit training on TTH. Alternating your exercises is good. Good luck.

Thank you so much for posting. I have the same questions. I know the answers are I can't do it on my own I'm just too embarrassed to admit I need to go to such drastic measures to lose the weight and get to the best me possible.

About a year ago I heard about juicing and the benefits. Last march I did a juice fast. OMG! I felt amazing, full of energy and my skin looked better than it ever had. I think I will juice after surgery just for the nutritional value.

TJL, Jenny12 & TeachAmy- Thank you so much for your replies. I feel very welcome here. It's wonderful to know I am not alone!

BamaBoo64- Thank you. I so agree! I would never have the surgery unless I was 110% sure this is the way I want to live the rest of my life! That is why I doing all this questioning and soul searching.

Hello All. My name is Cheryl. I don't know where to begin with my introduction; my apologies if I skip around here. My journey to WLS started 3-4 years ago at about 214 lbs...I'm only 5 ft tall. I went to the meetings, classes and appts at Kaiser in Northern CA. I was excited about having WLS and the only restriction I had before my surgery was to lose 10% of my weight...21 lbs!! Well, I couldn't do it. No matter how enthusiastic I was I cannot get myself under control. I am a quitter. As the months flew by I still did my monthly phone check in; even though I was on the fence if I wanted the surgery or not. Finally in August on 2013 I started Weight Watchers, so far I have lost 15 lbs. I didn't think much about having the surgery, some months I was against it. Soon after I started WW; I was against surgery. I figured if I really wanted to loose weight bad enough I will suddenly be a perfect eater and the weight will fall off. Either I eat really well or I exercise really well; I can't seem to do them both at the same time. The possibility of surgery wasn't really a reality until the nurse called and said I was 5 lbs away from my goal and I should make an appt with the psychologist. Since I made the appointment for 1/28/14 almost nothing else has been on my mind. Am I really fat enough to have SURGERY?? Will I put my body through that just to be thin? Will I loose my hair to be thin?? Will I look horrible with that sagging skin on my face and body?? Will I get too skinny?? My friend has been on WW for just over a year and has lost 70 lbs, if She can do it why can't I?? Since I cannot get my eating under control now what makes me believe that I can do it after surgery or even the pre-op diet?? My eating is mental. I hardly eat when I'm hungry.

My mind is crazy with questions!!

At the time of the phone call I was only about 30% for the surgery; now I am about 75%. One of the biggest reasons why the change is I logged onto SparkPeople; I hadn't been on in a long time. I saw my "join" date and it was 2008!! It made me realize I have been fighting this losing battle for more than 6 years! I am pretty ashamed that I need or want this tool to loose weight. I have only told my youngest child, age 14, and he said "Mom, you're doing great just keep at it" He likes me squishy but wants me healthy. I'm afraid to tell anyone else. I work at home and wondering if I should even mention it to them. If I'm out a day or two they really wouldn't notice. Why am I ashamed? I have a lot of soul searching to do. It's only a week and a half till my psych appt and a sleep study the week after. I do not know how long after that surgery is scheduled.

Thank goodness for this forum. I found you last night and see there are other "light weights" that have the surgery. I feel in good company.