j_war06

My school ends like on the 7th I think is the last day of finals...Im not sure, Im taking all mine on the 30th...I only have 3, but thats enough lol! I still have a paper to finish (it only needs like 2 sentences) and one to start...yuck! But Ill be done soon

Im doing well, the baby is underweight and may come earlier than expected...but Im full term...Im so tired all the time lol! And theres always so much to do :crying: Plus Im still not done with class this semester :crying:

Im still here, Im still at a 1 lol! I had a nonstress test done Monday and it came out well. Im having another one tomorrow, and an ultrasound Tuesday to measure the baby. If she hasnt gotten on up there in weight then I will have a baby girl next week :confused: We have been working so hard around the house trying to get it baby ready! Its so exciting to be so close....

I just know that everything is going to be okay *crosses fingers* I try to stay on the positive side of things, PLUS I cant be all down and worried for the baby shower on Sunday. I keep reassuiring myself with the fact that she IS fully developed and even doing breathing motions and Im even dilated...so hopefully shes just short and fat and my placenta is fine...I just want the safest, healthiest delivery for her and what is best, and I trust my dr. P.S. IDK what I would do if she was any bigger because she nearly knocks me down with her kicks and punches now! And it feels like shes in there SO tight...I dont know what I would do if she was like a 9 pounder

I eat like a horse...Im enjoying ALLLLLL the food I cant eat when my lapband is filled. Im always with something...Ive gained the average amount of weight with her, like 40lbs I think. The doctor says that since I have had fertility problems in the past that that could have contributed to it or the amount of stress Ive had during my pregnancy (which is ALOT).......So now its hard not to stress about all this, but Im staying pretty relaxed so far. Trying to convince myself that it will all be okay. I have a terrific doctor and she specializes in high-risk, which this isnt really high-risk i dont think, more like medium because she is full-term and she is doing breathing exercises...so theres a good chance she will be okay even at that weight.....but babies born under 5lbs are known to have growth problems (mentally and physically)...I just want her to be healthy and make it....shes so beautiful

Sooo ladies....I went to the doctore today and I really need your thoughts and/or prayers (whichever you believe in) because my little girl is weighing too little in the womb. Im 36weeks pregnant, and she only weighs 4.5lbs. The doctor says shes only in the 11th percentile and she SHOULD be in the 50th...we know she wont make it to the 50th, but she has to get over the 12th percentile for me to carry her until I naturally go into labor. The doctor told me today that I will have a nonstress test done next Monday to monitor her and to see if she has gained any weight, and if she hasnt gained about 1.5-2lbs in 2 weeks then they are going to induce me right there on the 21st. The Dr is concerned that my placenta is not feeding her enough and that the longer she stays in, the more chance there is for a stillbirth if she isnt gaining.... HOWEVER, the doctor is VERY perplexed that she is so tiny and not showing signs of distress AT ALL...shes moving a lot and her heartbeat is wonderful, AND shes even making breathing motions which is apparently a GREAT sign...regardless of all that though, if she doesnt gain the weight, they are going to induce me...hmmmm, ya know, I never though that any child of mine would ever have an issue GAINING weight...I always figured I would have to REALLY watch their weight because my metabolism is soooooo bad....ironic isnt it? I have problems losing weight and my baby cant gain it...strange... Other news: I am already dilated, 1 cm! 9 more to go lol! Well if everythng goes naturally that is....I really hope everything is okay with her, and that she is just short and fat like me...which the doctor says is possible, that her length is contributing to her being small, not necessarily anything else, because lemme tell ya, shes got some chubby chubby cheeks Shes beautiful, I hope to have the ultrasound pics posted tomorrow from today....

lol, Im still around, just SWAMPED in school work and opening a business next week. Im still impregnanted....BUT about a month to go Im SOOOOOOOO READY! We get the 4D next week and the baby shower is next weekend....I cant wait....after that she can just come on out lol....Im so tired of being pregnant, Im ready for my body to be somewhat normal again, and to go ahead and get all the pain and stuff over with....

I actually am about to have to start driving an hour to go to the community college in the Fall, to its main location. Its called Angelina College....I used to go to Texas A&M Corpus Christi and Del Mar. Ive been to Angelina like 3 times though lol! I always go back :sneaky:). I plan on continuing my education completely despite the baby (I know this is bad, but its free now). I just have to go to colleges that are closer to my hometown than if I didnt have the baby. I graduate from Angelina in a year, then Im going to go to Stephen F Austin to finish my bachelors and masters degrees....then I suppose to Houston for Law School...thats the closest I can get. I just have to pace myself more because of the baby...my poor professors this semester are probably so glad that Im an online student right now because Im quite rude to the other classmates online, much less if I had to actually look at them lol!! But they are going nuts over when Im going to give birth because its right at finals...its soooo crazy

Man, Im on my 3rd year of college...Im glad Im actually getting to do what I want and not what I have to in college. I should be further than I am, but I screwed off a WHOLE year and Im having to really pay now...I had to go back to community college to get an associates in applied arts degree before I go back to university.

Im actually sitting here frantically typing assignments because they are due today and I procrastinated lol!

Im a college student too...with the band...LOL! Highly suggest being careful with what you eat in class, Ive had to run out of the run a few times because of the band. And right now....I should be doing homework too...but this is less demanding :crying:

hahaha! I saw those at the dollar tree like in February and thought it was kind of funny and strange that they were carrying them at all...We make the joke that I should go get one and see if they work :crying: I suggest going to Wally World and getting one, I used the equate brand and it was accurate...Even before I missed my period

Nikki, I understand your concern, but the baby's father is no one that should be around children...much less his own. I have to make the decision because if anything happens to me, he could possibly get custody if they find him. He's not all there upstairs, thats major reason one why I left (he had this little girlfriend the next day after he got out of jail). He is already a father by the way, he has like a 3 or 4 year old son in that area (hes 7 hours away from me). He was married before and abandoned that family too. He has called me once during the whole pregnancy and he was very "high" on life if you know what I mean. I in no way want him around my child until she is old enough and mature enough to meet him. I wont get any financial support from him anyways because he cant hold and job, and if he does it only pays cash no check (he doesnt have a GED). I really dont even know him, I dated him for a while and was engaged to him, then I found out he wasnt AT ALL who he said he was (I mean right down to his family and stuff)....hes a pathological liar...Im not going to hide the fact that hes out there somewhere from my daughter...but I dont want him to be able to make a crazy move one day and show up wanting visitation and stuff...and its just easier to find him now than 5 years down the road when I want to remarry and my husband may want to adopt her and cant because parental rights to her are still with him. Hes REALLY good at disappearing...I know approximately where he is right now, so its just best to let this all be taken care of now.

So.....I finally got up the nerve to try to contact the baby's father...well it wasnt really nerve, more like umph. I know I have EVERY right to try to contact him about stuff, I just HATE dealing with his stupid crap and OH God, his crap is NOTHING compared to how his girlfriend acts about things. I emailed him and myspace messged him asking him to give up his rights and told him how he would benefit from it. Im hoping he will go for it, it would help me so much and be so GREAT for the baby. I seriously woke up at 4 am this morning (well technically yesterday morning) and couldnt get it off my brain for some reason, and Ive been thinking about it all day (what I was going to say and if I should) and I finally just did it 2:30 this morning. I hope he even reads it, I just want him gone forever until my daughter decides she would want to meet him, and I will allow that if she is MATURE enough (I dont want her jumping his case, I just want her to meet him one day to say "hey Im your daughter, this is my life" and to answer any questions she might have). I will speak to him over the phone if he calls me and if he wants pictures from time to time I have no prob with that....I just dont want him to have any actual rights to her, however I dont intend on hiding them from one another. Jeez, I just hope and pray he reads that email/message and responds in some form or fashion that is mature and reasonable, and not calling me all kinds of names and stuff....I just need him to submit to a DNA test and sign some paperwork and he will be as free and clear as he wants to be....I dont care if he falls off the freakin earth after that....its just easier than trying to find him 5 years (or whatever) down the road if I want to remarry and that husband would want to adopt her...Gah, I hate all this stress!!!! P.S. Happy Easter Ya'll!! My family is pretty much taking the year off this year because next year's Easter is goin to be a big production!! lol

Woohoo! I FINALLY get a 3-D on April 7!!! Im so freakin excited!!! I just cant wait to see what she looks like in there :biggrin: Bad news....Im almost to my pre-surgery weight....BUT if I lost it once, I can lose it again...and more....so I just gotta get my tubby butt out there and work it off after Fallon gets here....who ,btw, is probably only going to weigh in at 6-7lbs....strange because both my sister and I were a little over 9lbs a piece

Oh ladies Im so happy, ITS SPRING BREAK! lol! That means I get to sit, relax and only do what I want to do lol! :drool: Ive just had really bad fatigue lately...like sleeping until almost lunch, taking a nap, and still in bed knocked out before midnight! And its true tiredness....I went grocery shopping yesterday (thank God! Ethiopians would laugh at our fridge ) And I found I was just beat when I got home....So strange....HOWEVER....I am 32 weeks today YAYNESS! But people still cant tell Im pregnant....I can, my BFF can and people close to me that have watched me develop over the past few months....but people I havent seen in a long time just think Ive put my old weight back on...kind of hurts my feelings :sneaky: Then again, Im still not THAT big to be so pregnant...so I keep trying to go the optimistic way......Im starting to get so excited about her being here, but thats when things really start rolling, thats when I have to find time to work, goto school, and do an internship....not to mention I have to drive an hour to do my school and internship...I dont know where Im going to work yet, its REALLY hard to find a job in this area, especially when you will probably only be there a year because I graduate school then. Dunno, lotsa stuff going on in my little world...

Awwww....thanks ladies for all the hugs and wishes I love this forum because there is so much support, especially in this thread...us pregnant women need people to vent to that know how we feel emotionally and physically :eek: I just wish I could get these stupid girly hormones under control....Ive always been a girly girl physically, but I was a man emotionally lol! Now Im ALLLLL WOMAN! And its pretty bad, funny most of the time though

Oh....what a morning, I woke up to my sister ringing my phone to death...just to ask if I had the addresses for the baby shower...uh huh, knew she had something up her sleeve, and she did...she found a hole somehow and started a whole conversation about everything that I could do to fix my life.....ummm...last time I checked, my life didnt need to be "fixed"...it was a long conversation, but the jest of it was that she knows how I feel (no she doesnt) and she told me what I needed to do, and treated me like an utter and complete idiot........ I so effin SICK AND FREAKIN TIRED of people treating me like an idiot....YES, Im 20, single, and pregnant.....But I also am continuing my education and have a lot more of it than everyone trying to run my life and tell me what to do. And believe it or not I have enough sense and brains to make it in this world, but for some reason I just get looked at like Im the dumbest thing walking on the earth everytime I open my mouth....THEN (oh this is the good part) THEN when Im proven right, they act like the conversation NEVER happened.............UGH! I know Im young and that I dont know a lot about real life yet (through experience ofcourse), but I havent made it this far without SOME KIND of intelligence. These people that surround me make me feel like a little scared girl instead of a soon to be mommy, an adult...Im having a dramatic week ladies....

I know that this is the greatest blessing God has ever given me (well besides a great family to begin with)...And I really do keep my head up most of the time despite a lot of crap. Its just amazing the looks people give and dont even realize that they are doing it...like, who are they to judge me? Ive got better dirt on them, but I dont look at them like that, or treat them badly....I guess its just hard because people assume that I moved back to my hometown BECAUSE I was pregnant....I moved before I even knew I was pregnant, I came home because I was getting away from the corruption I had gotten into in Corpus....People are so stupid and need to go away lol:) Most days Im a happy happy camper, just sometimes its hard to put up a happy front when you really feel like crap (which most of the time I am actually happy, not just pretending to be). But I know that I am strong enough to make it, but I have SOOOO many hard decisions to make including what to do in the Fall....I just found out I have to travel to my college an hour away (I cant take any more classes online or from my local location) because I will only have two semesters left and I have to do an internship in that city....thats a tank of gas PER day, 5 days a week at 3.10 a gallon (current price, who knows what it will be then)....Mom and dad dont want me to move the baby that far away without anyone that I know and trust well enough to babysit her, so I either have to let mom and dad have her during the week (I REALLY REALLY dont want to do that) or drive every single day and be gone allllllllllllllllllllllllllll day (probably from 7 am - 11pm at the earliest)...I wouldnt even get any time with her if I did continue to stay here.......Its so hard, I hate it, BUT its the only way that I can provide the lifestyle that she and I deserve....Jeez, I guess its Jodie's going to vent week....lol

Soooo.....We got the baby's wardrobe and crib up this weekend!!! Im so excited......but it also made me realize how REAL this all is, and it freaks me out...the baby has been SO active the past 2 or 3 days in my tummy too, so thats also a constant reminder....so ofcourse Im already getting new mom jitters! The crib is so much bigger than I thought it was....I swear, I could crawl in it and sleep comfortably! We have to do some serious rearranging because it doesnt fit the way it should, and my room's not that big, so my room has become one of those party favor puzzles with only one piece missing so that you can slide things around and arrange them to solve it, yet it takes FOREVER to even come close and when you do you realize the combination is completely wrong because ONE PIECE is out of place so you mess the whole thing up again just to try again.....BLAH! Long analogy I know, but thats how it feels....Ive packed up so much stuff to make room, and there's still a lot of stuff in there!! My poor dog is scared to death that Im moving out again and has been stuck to me for 3 days and tries to stop me from moving stuff and packing stuff......its been wild around here ladies lol!! Not to mention that I do have childbirth class tonight, my first one...and well it makes me a little sad although Im REALLY excited at the same time. I want to learn SO badly, but I dont want to feel out of place with all those cute, sweet little couples in there that are expecting their little bundle of joy, and me in there with my mom...Ive done really well with holding my head up during this pregnancy...but sometimes its hard, especially when people ask me when Im getting married, if Im married, or even more rude questions I prefer not to put on here....It also kind of breaks my heart when I see those happy couples everywhere (seems like there are ALOT of pregnant women right now lol), and Im on my own. I try not to think about it, and I mostly do pretty damn well....but somedays its hard to hold my head up when everyone looks at you like a, quite frankly, whore. Sorry for the language, but thats the looks I get, when they dont even KNOW the story AT ALL.... UGH! I guess I just keep thinking about something someone said to my dad a month ago, on his BIRTHDAY....we were hanging out at the local bar and a man was talking to my dad (I went to school with his daughter all my life) and the man pointed to me when I wasn't looking and proclaimed, "Now that's the result of bad parenting." It broke my daddy's heart...and really made him mad. The man didnt realize that I was his daughter, he just didnt recognize me because it had been YEARS since he had seen me at all....this man's daughter has been all over this town (if you know what I mean) and was caught dancing topless at a local club when she was 16 or 17. It made me feel like I shouldnt even go out in public because I feel like Ive embarassed my parents, and made them look badly in the community....when they have been the best parents that anyone could have asked for and then some...I love my parents and they have done more for me than most parents do for their children. They have been so supportive and great through this pregnancy. If I didnt have my parents, I wouldnt have anyone right now. For someone to consider them bad parents, breaks my heart... Oh LORD! My freakin HORMONES! I was going to leave a short little comment and have gone on and on and on...Im sorry ladies :biggrin: It was all just on my mind right now....Me and my rambling....

Awww....guys its just someone looking for a pity party....seriously though... And I found this thread in the "New Posts" section, and it looked fishy as hell, so I looked at it and I was right. No one feels sorry for you...aww poor thing she's hungry even after shes eaten....NO! That is wrong, thats what made you fat.. AND BTW, I never lost all my weight, and I AM still fat....Im 7 1/2 months pregnant and 225lbs....I was still large before I got pregnant at about 180lbs....so dont talk to me about thinking that a band doesnt work...in the 2 years prior to getting pregnant and having the band I had only lost about 50-60lbs total.....Its different for everyone, and its embarassing for me to be sitting in a group of people and have to leave to go puke my guts up because something didnt agree with the band...but I dont care, I want to be thin SO BAD that its worth it.....If you dont want it, get it out....theres no discussing....the fact that you continue to discuss it and make excuses and all that BS means that you are just looking for a pity party....in the time you have spent defending yourself, you could have easily made a decision to take it out, scheduled an appt to do so, and be close to date to get it done.... Get off your pity party, no one cares if you want to be fat when the most of us want to be thin and most importantly HEALTHY more than anything else in the world.

I was so cruel in my posting because the way it was written sounded like ohhhh Im uncomfortable so its not worth it...I have dealt with pain in my band, so have MOST of the people here...we all get "stuck" and have issues with it at some time. My band hasnt worked as well as for some people, but it seems to work a lot better when Im paying attention and writing down my caloric intake. I went through a whole 3 weeks or so where I puked up every single thing I ate or drank....people at college thought I was bullimic and doing it on purpose until I sat down and had a talk with them. If you dont want your band, get it removed. Its okay to discuss why you want it removed, however when you are complaining about it being uncomfortable so you want it removed so you can eat without still feeling hungry in the bottom of your tummy (false hunger really) and that you've gone to curves (which I do understand works for people and will cause someone to break a sweat) but your not seeing results when you could easily go join a gym and work out harder, that is just disrespectful to those who work their asses off to make sure they get their money's worth out of this surgery. This site was created for people who want or have the surgery to support and advise others through their weightloss and banding journey, to sit up and talk about having it as an inconvenience in your life is rude to people who have suffered through more than that. Just get it out or whatever you need to do to make yourself happy, thats what life is about...if someone is happy fat, let them be fat....if they strive for more, let them have more....but if your one who would rather be fat, Im sure that others would appreciate you not whining and complaining about a perfectly normal band. Life isnt always what is "should" be, it is what it is....everyone is different, everyone's experiences are different, thats what makes this forum interesting and helpful, however one person's norm is another person's odd. Get happy and live your life by whatever means it takes....

Thats called lazy! Curves never even made me break a sweat...You want to lose weight...but you dont want to be uncomfortable....thats sad

Im hoping for a 3-D ultrasound either tomorrow or in 2 weeks :smile2: I cant wait! I think they are soooooo cute, and sweet, and tide you over a little until the baby is actually here!

I just found it the other day....and thought it was quite entertaining.....I have a legal background and this smells fishier than the gay club on friday night (thats actually not a joke towards gay people btw, fish are straight women aka fag hags