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I just bought a few things for a trip ny husband and I are taking. I just bought a dress in a size 8!!!! I am over the moon right now. My mom would be so proud and I know she's chearing ne on in heaven!!!

I think it's completely normal after this surgery! We loose soo much soo fast an out minds haven't caught up to our changing bodies! I'm a year out and a size 0... But in no way do I think I look that small at all, in my mind maybe like a 10 or 12. But everyone else always comments on how teeny I am and I keep looking around for the "teeny" women... And they're talking about me!!

That's exactly how I feel. I still kind of cringe when people say I am small. My best friend who is so supportive is the one that gave me the clothes. She's in 12s now so we swapped but I always thought she was skinny so being smaller than her is confusing me. I know it doesn't make sense... it just goes to show how our braibs don't catch up. Losing ny mom last week, to obesity related compkications makes me feel that much more depressed, scared and confused... hence my call to my bariatric psychologist. She knew my mom too from when we did Optifast years ago, so I am hoping she can help me make sense of these feelings and fear.

Congratulations on your size zero!!! That must be unreal. I can't imagine. I am petite too and small boned and will be thrilled if I can get to a six or four let alone a zero.

On a positive note I needed my rings sized again. I am now a 4.5 on my rings.

When I was 267 lbs I looked in the mirror and never thouggt I looked that big. I told myself my face wasn't fat and I carried it ok. Even tho I was 5'2"and wore a 24 pants I was convinced...

Now, I am 144 and wear a size 10 or 8. I look in the mirror and think my face looks normal but my body is huge. My friend gave me a bunch of size 10 and 8 levis and shorts. I held them up and said there is no way they'll fit. I tried them on and they fit but I just feel confused. I am pkanning on making an appointment with my psych because surely these body issues aren't healthy. I still look at plussed size clothes.

Is anyone else doing this? I feel like a freak and am sick of oeopke twllibg me I am tiny when all I see is fat and skin.

I bought a size 20 pair of jeans at old navy a few weeks before surgery. I was a 24 before surgery and I had a couple of 22s that I could squeeze into. I had tried them on before surgery and I couldn't pull them up all the way or button them. This morning I pulled them out of my closet. I told my husband I knew they wouldn't fit but I wanted to see how it compared to trying them on pre surgery. To my surprise they actually fit! I actually took them back and exchanged them for an 18 because I'm not going to wear them till I go back to work and that's not for a few more weeks.

Get a 16... trust me.

I just bought size 12s at the end of february. I bought 4 pairs of work pants and in now in a 10 more like an 8. The 12s are going to goodwill this weekend and some I only wore one time.

Exerderin Migraine. Nothing knocked out headaches better for me.

Oh excedrine migraine how I miss you.. I agree, this one is huge...

Where do you teach college and what subject? My graduate degree is in healthcare administration and I have been thinking about looking into teaching after working over 20 years in that field. I have been in healthcare my entire career but always said teaching would be my 'plan b'. I hold two bachelor degrees; one in english and another in healthcare administration. Although my typing on this site is horrendous due to using my phone. It makes me laugh because I would cringe if I read my writing on here in ' real life'.

I miss birthday cake. Being a dumper im scared of sugar and stat completely away. I'd love a piece of birthday cake, even tiny on my birthday. But I skipped.

I eat popcorn... no issues at all. I eat it dry with no butter cooked at home in olive oil.

Has anyone heard from jeepchick?? Ive missed her. Im hoping she's ok.

Glad to see you back here. You have been in my daily prayers. Sunday will be the one year anniversary of my Dad's death. I find myself dreaming about him a lot lately. Dementia had taken much of him before his actual death, but still, I miss him every day. The best thing you can do to honor your Mom is take care of yourself. Live the life she could have had if not for this awful disease, obesity.

Carol

I want to dream about mom so badly. I remember when my grandmother died I had the most vivid dreams and they were wonserful. Life is hard but I'll tell you just like Jesus said,"love is the greatest gift".

Hugs!!

I should have read more before responding. I am so sorry for your loss.

Aww thank you. It has been tough. My mom passed last Wednesday. She went with all her children and my dad, her husband of 52 years holding, talking, singing and praying over her. I am destroyed but know she's in a better place and I will see her again when it's my time. I haven't worked out in 2 weeks and not eating a lot but trying to get back into my routine. I plan to gym it tomorrow and msde my lunch today. I just have lost an apoetite from nerves but know I need to eat. I am drinking Water which is good.

You all are so special to me. I am thankful for you all. This journey is hard and after seeing ny mom die of obesity related complications it confirms I never want to go back. Less than 20 lbs to goal and then maintenance for me.

It took me a lot longer but I came off of my bp meds in february. My surgery was last june so don't give up. I was taking 100mg metoprylol and 25 mg of clorothalidone(sp??). He kept dropping the metoprylol and now I am officially off of them all. I take medicine for gout and that's it, it's wonderful!!!

I didn't realize they sold individual packets. I'm going to order some so I can try it before buying the big tub. I did manage to make it to GNC today for unflavored Protein. I mixed a little in with my yogurt and scoop in my bottle of Water with Crystal light. It was nice to know I'm getting my protein without the shake lol.

I drink the chike coffee protein too. I put it in the blender with ice and water and it is yummy. I buy the individual packets.

Ive lost 200 lbs in 1 1/2 & 100 lbs since surgery 8/28

Wow that is phenomenal!!!! Yay and great job!!!!

Well I'm afraid of the sleeve because there are a lot more complications with that and I like that the band is reversible. My BMI is 41 and I am 38. I'm hoping the band will help me get off about 50 or more pounds and still allow me to eat, but force me to eat slow and not overeat! My dad died at age 65 and weighed about 500lbs and I watched him lose over 100lbs probably 3 times and eventually gain it all back and more. His death has been my motivation to not try yo yo dieting, but search for a different type of solution.

I was the same as you. My mom was obese and so was I. I got the lapband in 2008 and it was great for the first two years and then I had a lot of serious issues from the band. I ended up with intestibal metaplasia which is a precursor to stomach cancer. I was diagnosed with that in january 2013 and made my decision to have the band removed and revised to rny thst same month. My revision was june 2013 and I am now 145 and 15 lbs from my goal. Unfortunately my mom just died on wednesday from complications from a lifetime of obesity and I vowed back in 2008 I would d I whatever it took to not go through the humilistion sadness and embarrassment of obesity any longer. Even at the end when we decided to bring my mom home with hospice it was a battle because of bed sizes. ny mother was 6 foot tall and weigh 330 lbs but because of chf she haf 60 lbs of Fluid on by the time she died. People are cruel and not understanding of large people and our healthcare system is broken beyond belief. Sorry to prattle on but I want you to weigh all of your options. The band is a phenomenal tool but dont go into it just because it can be 'reversed'. There are repercussions to anything we do to a body. So make sure you understand the maintenance and signs of issues. I loved my band but now that it is gone I realize how thankful I am that they caught the intestinal metaplasia early and I listened to my body to tell my dr something was wrong. And yes, fills are expensive. Expect several a year barring issues. PM me if I can provide further insight

My mom passed away tonight. It was the hardest thing I've ever been through. Our whole family was there and surrounded her as Jesus took her to heaven. Thank you all for your kindness and support. God bless you all.

I'm struggling. I'm sitting in a hospital room holding my mom's hand. Her kidneys have shut down and hospice comes tomorrow, we are taking her home. The last six weeks have been horrible. I'm hurting, tired and not taking care of myself. I have to get through this I love my mom more than any one. She is my one true constant.

Congratulations !! You've done so well!!!

CONGRATS!!! Did you know that we are the same hight? I am about 10 pounds behind you (I was 158 this morning). I started out much larger than you though at 330. I wish I had my surgery before I hit 300! My goal remains at 145, I want a weight I fell I can maintain. I guess we will see what happens. I agree with you about how good going this direction feels! I live in fear of waking up and finding out I am back where I was a year ago! You keep up the good work!! You inpire me to keep going!!

That is so cool! I am inspired by you too.

I have a goal of 125 but if I can get to 130s I will be thrilled. Im in a 10 petite now and am feeling 'normal' sized for the first time in 20 years. It is wonderful!

I love the new me!!

I hit a nice mini milestone today. I am officially closer to 100 lbs than 200! I am 149 and can't believe I finally am lower than 150. I used to say when I was gaining " I'll never be bigger than..." I remember 150 was the first time. It ended when I was 267 and said " 275 is next..." at 5'2" I can't tell you how much better this direction down feels. Well now 125 is next!!!

A triathlon is awesome! I am so impressed! That would be so cool in my book.

Hw 267

Sw 230

Lw 150

Cw 149

Officially closer to 100 than 200!!! Yippee!!!!

Happy to share mine! These are the big ones - there were many smaller ones as well!

Be preescription drug free - ACHIEVED

Be under 300 pounds - ACHIEVED

Be sleep Apnea Free - Can't be tested until June/July 2014

Be under 200 pounds - ACHIEVED

Fit into 'regular' size clothing - ACHIEVED (currently a misses 10/12)

Eliminate knee and back pain - ACHIEVED

Cut my BMI in half, over 60 prior to surgery - ACHIEVED (current BMI is under 30)

Maintain a healthy weight between 145 - 155 - IN PROGRESS 14 POUNDS TO GO!

What a journey! I am so happy to have found a place where people understand and Celebrate these victories with me. For those who have never faced needing to loose a large amount of weight, the stepping stones to good health are hard fought and worth every celebration we can give ourselves!

Yay!!! Those are all great! I especially love the prescription free one. I am almost there having come off of all of my bp meds. Just gout left!

I would caution everyone to measuring your success by the number on the scale, and setting your goals based on numbers. I am 1.5 out from surgery and have been on the boards for the entire time. I have read so many posts about people getting really discouraged because they did not hit that number on the scale. While the numbers are a big part of this journey - try to set goals that are non scale victories.

For example my first NSV was eliminating a certain medication I am on. I have reduced it, but have not gotten rid of it.

I sat down and made a list of the things I wanted to achieve after surgery, and I am much happier than when I stared at the scale willing it to go down another 2 pounds.

Congrats on the reaching the goals you have set for the scales!!

Completely agree; I am 9 months out from ny revision and have been working at this for over five years so by no means has my reaching any of my goals been fast. With that said, they are mine so I am proud when I hit another milestone.

My IV blew when they started potassium on me in the hospital. Holy hell. That was the worst pain of the entire thing. Surgery couldn't even touch that.

Oh my!! That happened in the hospital for me and it was way worse. Bless your heart!

Congrats! Sounds like you're doing awesome! My first goal is to be down 40lbs when I go back to work. I'm a little over half way there with a little over two weeks to go.

Yay!! That's a great goal! I chunked mine out because I had such a large amount to lose. It made it feel more manageable to me.