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I promise I'm getting the " have you lost your mind?" look. Thank you so much. I'm smiling like a child!!

Johnny, you know what I've been going through, I'm very happy now. And you have been such a wonderful friend and cheerleader for my health. Thank you!! Notice the camera hiding the face.. My son jumped and gave me a black eye and bloody eyeball. Love five year old hugs!!

Thank you so much!!!! I really have gone through hell to get here. Still have a ways to go.

I am so happy for you!! It's great when you are at it and know you are doing waaaay more than you used to. Congrats baby doll, let the fun begin!!

I sorry:'( the only reason I say, is because I now have a five year old thanks to that patch. And if a woman gets super fertile and is still over 200. Well, just make sure every corner of that sucker sticks!!

In the small print on the patch, if you are 200 and up, it may not work as well. Just be careful.

My tubes are tied, but if you want less invasive you can try an IUD or the nuva ring. I tried the patch, and wound up with my youngest.

I shall do that. I'll try anything at this point. But I'm not sure how to handle this dislike of food in my pouch. I mean I just hate the way it feels. Aside of the throwing up, it has been so long, it just feels like it does not belong.

It's just a matter of making something so new, try and heal while in turn trying to prosess full on food. Stick with it, these days will seem like a blip on the map when you begin to eat. Give it time. We have almost all made said mistake, trust the mistakes of others to learn your lessons without the pain.

Not being able to keep things down. I have been so active, but it always ends in feeling sick and sore. I know I must sound like a baby, but it's really hard to deal with. I get plain tired of getting sick everytime I eat. Now, I don't even like the way food feels in my pouch. Don't even really want to eat. And that's combated by the fact that I'm always hungry and miss food. It's the strangest struggle yet.

The heart thing you're feeling is called palpatations. It's most likely in your case caused by anxiety. It's okay, just a few extra beats. Try and relax as much as you can. Take the amout of pain meds given. Thing have a way of hitting us a little harder than they once did. Try taking half the dose and see if it helps. Also the irregular heart rhythm can come from dehydration. So keep sipping!! It gets better hun, trust me.

I have had five children, six surgeries, and four kidney stones. Oh, and a gallbladder full of stones. But every time a nurse walks in with tha damn rubber strip and a pack of plastic wrapped stuff, my blood runs cold!! I get so worked up inwardly of course, that my veins hide. Some roll, and I almost always end up with a needle in my hand looking for the vein that was just there. I can't stand IVs!!! When I had my stones, they got it in, and an hour later tried to get blood from it. Nothin would come out, or go in after. Those things suck!! Only one time was I ever lucky enough to get a tiny shot of lidacane (sp) before they put the IV in. That was saweet!!

I had my second daughter there. I cried until I got home. They took her right after she was born. I was not allowed to hold her, and I was trying to nurse. Everytime I asked to see her, they would tell me she was eating or sleeping. I didn't want her on a bottle. She was never allowed into my recovery room. I went home very depressed. I have always kept my children right by my side after they were born. I had my RNY april 25th.

Thank you both do much. I had begun to worry I was losing my mind. I was setting things down and losing them right after. My bf made me sit down and calm down, because after almost three straight days of less than four hours of sleep, and no food, my mind was gooooone!!! I sat down alright, and cried. He dragged me to my room in the middle of the afternoon and layed there so I would not get up. I slept!! So now that I got the sleep issue out of the way, I get to work on eating. It seems more like a game of Russian roulette. But I have faith it will get better. I start a new job as a nanny to a super sweet seven month old. And the parents are wonderful. The mother had RNY five years ago, so I'm getting good tips to boot!! I worked one day last week and I do cleaning as part of my job. I was working for six hours straight, and the more I cleaned the better I felt. No pain in my legs, no sweating like a runner, just getting things done and fast!! But when you can't eat.. Oh I got the worst migraine!!! So it's all a learning thing.

I started at 250 at 5'3". Talk about pain!! That was April 25th. I am now 169 ish.. But not looking it. I was an avid blader since I was six and as a result, carry a bit more muscle. I'm now wearing a size med!!!!

I'm beginning to worry about bone loss more than ever now. I was on Lupron for six months for a tumor. I was taking calcium then and continue to take it still. On Friday I was horsing around with the bf, and I twisted my finger. Not very hard or out of place, but I am not in a cast for six weeks. It seems that I broke the knuckle on my hand above my index finger. It's in half. I'm really worried that my bones are not as strong as they once were, and if there is much more beyond calcium sups to help.

Ouch!!!! I hope you are better now!! I still can't bend my finger and since the doc did not see fit to cast or brace my hand, I have she a lot of tears because it swells still and hurts all the way up my arm. I have had to figure out a new way to write.

I'm out in round lake. But not from. Born and raised in Waukegan. I had an awful time after my surgery at vista. Hard to call it vista, I was born there and grew up calling it Victory. I lit that place up after I got home, because they really treated me like I was not there. Never had help getting up the first time. And never saw a nurse. But since then, things have changed big time. I guess telling them I would tell everyone I knew how bad I felt, and that is not my attitude or way of treating people. It really has gotten so much better. I spent a few days on the same floor three weeks ago due to kidney stones. The nurses didn't recognize me until I showed them the before pic. I wish you the best of luck, and don't drink the broth!! It tastes like dishwater..lol

I know I have dropped off for a while. I have not forgotten my rny family. I have just been pretty sick. Okay, very sick. I've not held anything down in over a week now and because of a major flare of RA and no money to speak of, I have had to take aspirin just to get out of bed. And some days I can't get out. This was never this bad before the surgery. No need to give me the third degree about the aspirin, I'm suffering for that too. Cramps in my left side since starting. I miss you guys. I'll be on more. I promise. And I'll be going to the doctor soon. Don't really feel like dropping dead, I just got thin!! Lol hugs Mami!!!!!

I have been so bad about my protien since I came home. I'm four months out on the 25th. I can't drink any of those shakes. It's not just about taste. It's the texture, that thick frothy and gritty foam it turns into makes me sick just looking at it. And the vanilla ones are GROSS!!! I wish like hell there was a chewable protien tab. Imagine the money they could make on that! I tried one of those bullets, and it said fuzzy peach on it, so why when I opened it and took a sip, did I drive the rest of the way home wishing I didn't? That thing tasted and smelled like a barn!!! I'll keep eating my soy Beans out of the pods with a bit of sea salt. Not too costly, and pretty yummy!!

So if you're ever in the area in that uniform, I'll be sure to set my house on fire and stand on the roof. Just gotta carry me down!

Dr Gibson!!!!!!! I had dr Siegel! I had him as a teen for my appendix! Dr Siegel was soo hot. I remember falling asleep on the table thinking " I wish I was older!" dr Gibson is so nice, and easygoing.