Nykee

I took the 40mg of antiinflitories last night and either it wasnt enough or It wore off.,. The shot they gave me lasted 24 hours..!!! Tonight I will take the 60mg he reccomended. I dont like the idea of taking all this pill form prednisone.. I dont know why I think the shot is any different.. But it just seems that way. I only take these amounts of prednisone when I have a few days of something very physical to do like go camping or go to a family gettogether or go on a date. I have been told that prednisone makes ya really irritable and well I have starteded to notice how I feel irritable after I get home from my bouts of prednisone and the extra physical activity.. BUt I dont care, I rather of had a goood time where I was able to walk and be physical then not do it just to be less grumpy later. So, taking that much DAILY.. just to decrease AM restrcition just dont seem like a good idea. YET, if I dont find a way to be less restricted in the AM, THAN I cant find a way to be MORE restrcited in the PM.. (so needed) I am going to look up what the shot was exactly.. it wasnt called prednisone.. see what it is.. Plus that shot opened me up WAY WAY too much and lasted 25 hours.. I mean I was able to eat a whole slice of pizza and gulp it down with like 3 cups of milk.. THAT is completely TOO loose of course.. So I need to ask them what Milligrams they gave me and remember thats too much.. AND see what those millagrams are compared to what the 60ml of prednisone is.. THERE MUST BE A WAY to fix this!

I took the 40mg of antiinflitories last night and either it wasnt enough or It wore off.,. The shot they gave me lasted 24 hours..!!! Tonight I will take the 60mg he reccomended. I dont like the idea of taking all this pill form prednisone.. I dont know why I think the shot is any different.. But it just seems that way. I only take these amounts of prednisone when I have a few days of something very physical to do like go camping or go to a family gettogether or go on a date. I have been told that prednisone makes ya really irritable and well I have starteded to notice how I feel irritable after I get home from my bouts of prednisone and the extra physical activity.. BUt I dont care, I rather of had a goood time where I was able to walk and be physical then not do it just to be less grumpy later. So, taking that much DAILY.. just to decrease AM restrcition just dont seem like a good idea. YET, if I dont find a way to be less restricted in the AM, THAN I cant find a way to be MORE restrcited in the PM.. (so needed) I am going to look up what the shot was exactly.. it wasnt called prednisone.. see what it is.. Plus that shot opened me up WAY WAY too much and lasted 25 hours.. I mean I was able to eat a whole slice of pizza and gulp it down with like 3 cups of milk.. THAT is completely TOO loose of course.. So I need to ask them what Milligrams they gave me and remember thats too much.. AND see what those millagrams are compared to what the 60ml of prednisone is.. THERE MUST BE A WAY to fix this!

I took the 40mg of antiinflitories last night and either it wasnt enough or It wore off.,. The shot they gave me lasted 24 hours..!!! Tonight I will take the 60mg he reccomended. Reminder: I am trying to get my AM restrcition lessoned becasue in the AM I have a hard time with even liquids and then my night I am open enough to eat all kinds of crap and drink alot. I need less extreem tightness. IF I can get this extreem AM restrition taken care of, only then can I take care of PM openness where I have such a hard time limiteing my intake. Alexandrea) I have had my liquid restrcited for many months.. and only when I had these good fills Its restrcited right now, Its 4pm and I cant get down tomatoe soup and milk yet, I am sipping real slow and having many gurgles. (I woke up at noon however) I need it to be this way.. I DONT go too far and drink it anyway and get chest pains or PB, and by 9pm or midnight, I will be able to eat.. SO ITS FINE, IMO If I was drinking a gallon of milk and juice per day and MORE (slurpees, smoothies, ect..) than I think limiting my liquid intake is a fine idea. I would not limit it so much that it causing my band abuse, or malnut5rition or dehydration.. I dont feel I am doing anything that wrong.. Its not regualr I realize, its a special curcumstance. I KNOW I should not use this as the way to lose weight and I should use my self control and such, BUT I am doing what I can do, and I cant seem to find any control as I have been trying for a long long time and I STILL do try... the minute my band opens up I gulp as much milk and juice as possible.. I would NEVER lose weight if I didnt do it this way and my band will of been a waste... so I just HAVE to do it this way.. I amm sorry, But I really am being as smart about it as possible.. Jack, I can swallow chewed food! Just not until night time.. if it was like midnight.. and I chewed real well, I could eat some steak.. (though I have no desire to) It seems like trouble to you BUT I dont have any trouble.. I dont PB or anything like that, so IMO its FINE. gadgetlady, I agree with everything you say, I sometimes can have corn (in soup) and I like salad but for some reason I cant eat it anymore.. it feeels funny.. mostly, I guess I have never been much into veggies, ever.. anca1225, Thanks, that was an intereresting article.

It would be easier to not eat at night if I didnt open up so much! Your doing great delarla, you'll make it. Feb. 8th Middle of the night 2 cups grape juice 7am 2 cups nesquik chocolate milk 11am 1/2 cup chicken fajita corn chowder 1 cup milk 12pm 3 ounces Limeaid 1:30 1/2 cup Roasted redpepper soup 1tbs parm cheese 1 cup milk 5pm 6 resses Peanut Butter Cookies 2 cup milk 6pm 1/2 cup slit pea soup 6:30 half serving almonds 6:45 2 cups nesquick chocolate milk 9:40 4 ounces white milk NOW? Small slice of frozen pizza (maybe.. gonna try here in a sec) EDIT (didnt work.. not gonna bother fixing it on fitday though) Calories: 2837 fat, 91 carbs 385 Protein 104 This really shows how the milk and juice consumption kills me. this is why I strive for a tight fill becasue I DO need to be restrcition on milk and juice. I am not able to find the control to stop on my own.

I so needed that... SO needed that.. I am crying my head off...my kids are freaking out.. all the mascarra I put on to go the the YMCa is running off... Thank you Illude. THANK YOU!!

I am working on 12 hours on the computer today I made an appointment today at vocrehab to see if they would help me get a computer job like medical transcription

Hiya Nykee, Wow.. I'm amazed at what this thread just did for you. >>>lol, I know.. It made me think alot and it got my defenses up, witch is always a good way to look at your self and see how your feeling.... It was good for me.. Thank you for starting it. It must have touched in a very big way. And I can tell it wasn't all good, but I think the release was and what you did was awesome. You opened up and talked about the problem honestly and frankly.. Yeah, I realized that in my food log's, I dont always explain everthing.. I do them for me and I already know about me.. so I realized how I might be better served saying more.. BUT sheesh I already say so much sometimes.. lol and out of that someone was able to help you identify what might be the core of your struggle. And that is awesome! That's exactly what I was hoping to trigger with this thread. For us all to look at ourselves and really examine the why behind the struggle! >>>>yep, always a good idea.. I felt alittle low for a couple hours and NOw I feel really happy. I AM EVEN going to the YMCA to aqua fitness and I think for sure its because of my bit of drama today.. I dont like to look at my old habits, much less post them, share them, admit them.... but in doing so, I kinda feel better about my current food logs,, I had really been beating my self up every night for my lacks.. I do think you took much of this as a direct aim at you, and trust me it was NOT. There are many here who post about their food everyday and many who are upset at their slow weight loss. >>>Yeah.. I am a selfish poster... I really dont get around much. There are jsut so many people here. This was not about you, but it did strike a nerve and maybe that's a good thing. (I mean that in the most sincere way) We all learned from your posts and I really hope it was a good release for you as well. >>>yes You also have my promise that I was not talking about you when I mentioned eating beyond the band to the point of PBs and band damage or illness. >>>Good, I just wanted to be real clear about that to anyone.. its one thing I am extremely proud of myself for with this band journey. I have seen people posting about how they ate a huge quantity of foods that we all know are 'iffy' for us bandsters anyway, then they end up sick as hell and upset and confused about why? >>>Truefully, that unerves me but I am glad they post it, and it reafirms that I am not the worst bandster in the whole wide world like sometimes I think I am.. we all have our struggles with different things.. Or they talk about the huge quantity they can fit in their stomach and ask if they need a fill. This frustrates me because I get afraid for them. I want to shake them and yell, 'Stop that! Youre going to hurt yourself.' >>>yeah.. I have to remember that just cuz I am really good at this issue about the band... That doesnt mean anyone can, i have my things I cant control and lots of people cant seem to control that.. I assume if they could control it, they would or at leaste they are trying. And as for my comment about starting the posts with "I dont want to change, I just want sympathy".. well that was not for you either sweetie. >>>OK, I have admitted alot today to being defensive.. and the defensiveness has come out becasue of MY STUFF, its all about me.. NOT about what was said by the other posters so much... I recognize that. It was for the ones who really needed to hear it and they know who they are. You never, not once, not even fleetingly, crossed my mind in this entire thread. You have my word on that. Thank you for sharing all of those deep and sincere feelings. It touched me in a big way. *great big hug* >>>gooood.. I am glad..THANKs again for being a strong and caring person. <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

i WOULD NEVER TAKE MONEY FROM ANYONE WHO WASNT EVEN WANTING TO GIVE IT TO ME. Sounds horrible.. maybe if you gave them a bunch of info on the band, they may change their mind.. My parents wouldnt have even considered such a thing, and they love and treat me well.. its just they are money greedy.. (but ya know, why should they give me anything?/ anyway, its not their problem.

Sounds like its working pretty good.. BUT if you cant handle it and have chest pains or PB, than you should prolly get a unfiilll.. oatmeal and meat and stuff is not easy

I TIGHTENED BACK UP YEAH, WHEW.. LOL I tried to have some chicken fajita soup and it was apparent my wide openess is gone.. I will take 40mg of the prednisone tonight and see if it helps with morning restriction. I cant wait.. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR for months and months. A way to level out my band restrcition! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :clap2: Some Drama today.. made me feel low for a little while.. BUT I feel great now due to much support. I had to post my past eating habits and that SUCKED. I dont like to remember that crap. BUT IT REALLY HELPED. I fEEL better about myself instead of like crap. BUT its STIll time to GET IT IN GEAR TURKEY! I WENT TO THE YMCA TODAY FEB. 8th

I TIGHTENED BACK UP YEAH, WHEW.. LOL I tried to have some chicken fajita soup and it was apparent my wide openess is gone.. I will take 40mg of the prednisone tonight and see if it helps with morning restriction. I cant wait.. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR for months and months. A way to level out my band restrcition! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :clap2: Some Drama today.. made me feel low for a little while.. BUT I feel great now due to much support. I had to post my past eating habits and that SUCKED. I dont like to remember that crap. BUT IT REALLY HELPED. I fEEL better about myself instead of like crap. BUT its STIll time to GET IT IN GEAR TURKEY! I WENT TO THE YMCA TODAY FEB. 8th

76 for me... HA.. good luck with that!

I just looked at a couple of pages of scars right after banding.. MINE never looked so bad... eeek, I was lucky I guess.

My scar (the big one) is getting wrinkled.. (like my streachmarks are) *giggle

I agree.. CHOSE one.. I crave all the stuff I bought yesterday when the shot made me wide open and now I am tight again.. Cheesecake and pizza and chicken corn chowder.. and cool whip and hershey sunday pie too.. lol

I had my first non aided (by me) Orgasm (I am 35) last week So yeah.. I wonder if its a NSV.. ??

THANKS Jack.. that means alot to me.. THANK YOU.. You do the same for me. I COULD be so out of control still that I would still eat like that and PB all the time and refuse to get tight fills,.,.and go ALL OUT when I have open moments.. BUT i dont.. I look at my prebanding life and I feel I have come a long way.

I ordered the one called Potatoes Not Prozac: How to Control Depression, Food Cravings and Weight Gain... Sounds real good!@ thanks again

Donali, I am looking up that book right now.. I already know its absolutely true.. But I would to read about it, get some insight.. Ya know, I dieted for over a decade all focused on LOW FAT.. I mean i bought some low suger foods.. BUt I didnt know ANYTHING about carbs and how cutting sugar, CAN LEAD to fat loss.. until about 2 years ago. I was totally ignorant about that for a long long time and honestly I could still use all the information as I can get.. THANK YOU!

big paul) I just questioned those who look at this as just a surgical procedure, and not a long term plan involving participation from a team of professionals easily accessible to the weight loss patient. girl) I did this, it was a mistake, big paul) Don't confuse the two. A great surgeon in a clean hospital is only a small fraction of the Lap Band weight loss process. If you do not understand that going in, and are just looking at the surgery and not pre and aftercare, then you will fail. girl) I am learing as I go.. I dont think I am going to FOR SURE fail cuz of that.<!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

Heather, yes I do that.. kinda.. and I did include in all my posts to people this was incase they were talking about me.. and even if they werent talking about me inparticuarily.. it still fits me.. and few others.. (THAT I notice)

HEY KIMI.. you made me realilze that I havent had a Hershey pie in months and months and months.. AND IT CAN GO DOWN SO EASILY. Its like fluffy cream cheese, cool whip and creamy chocolate, So,,, yeah,.. WATCH it show up in my food log soon.. lol (its at BK.. BUT DONT GOOOOO!!!!) HeThergirl) My Dr. told me the band was a tool. He said that I would lose 50% of my weight with the band alone and I had to do the rest. That is why I personally am following such a strict diet. I want to lose 100% of my weight. GIrl) I want to too.. I personaly dont understand how you are able to be on such a strict diet just becsue your doctor told you it was a tool, and you had to do the rest. I AM SURE GLAD you CAN! I am proud of you and congratualte you in all sincerity.. BUT I um didnt do it for my children, I didnt do it to save my life.. and well its no BIG shock to me that I am not doing it CUZ I got the band. Heathergirl) I am sure someone will correct me if I am wrong, but I don't know of anyone that can lost 100% of their weight with just the band and not eating properly! me) I SURE dont agree with that.. I DONT THINK ANYONE CAN.. I DONT think I CAN... I KNOW I have to eat better. I HAVE KNOWN that LONG before I got the band. BUt since when was loosing weight be it 10% or 100% something that could motivate ME?<!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

A dollup can really make you appreciate that cup of sugar free jello ALOT MORE>... to me the 4g of carbs is worth feeling less deprived.. thus saving me later from cravings..

Nykee, For many people, getting the band was the thing they needed to be able to follow diets like the some of the logs you see. They couldn't do it without the band because they were always hungry. I don't follow the best bandster diet, but I sure eat alot less than I used to because of the band, and I am not constantly hungry. I've been stuck in my loss for a while now, but I'm not gaining, and it's a big blessing for me just to have that. >>>>>>>>>>OH I KNOW I KNOW>. I was trying to make a point, I didnt mean to look like I didnt understand ATALL. It still shocks me sometimes.. Just the sheer number of perfect food logs.. I am sure its alot of jealousy though.. lol If I had had any control AT ALL, I dont think I would of got the band but thats only cuz I really could not afford it AT ALL.. So, yeah (JEALOUSY) I TRY to take comfort in not gaining as well.. I mean before I YO YO'd and ALWAYS gained back.,... SO Actually NOT gaining is a really BIG deal to be proud of! DELARLA, THANK YOU.. I Sooooo appreciate you for being so honest as well. Your are also a queen of editing like I am.. lol

That antiinflamitory shot lasted till about now.. LOL I had some Soup and I can feel the restriction again.. I will take some of the meds again tonight! ITs a good plan! I WANT TO POST THIS>. I KNOW my food log SUCKS.. and people MUST wonder how I could ever post it, mUch less eat that way.. THIS IS PARTY WHY: PREBANDING HABITS FOR THE LAST DECADE: AND up until the day before banding (minus a low carb diet for pre op) I HAD to have fast food daily, many times more than once.. I would feel all uptight and maybe three days a month I couldnt get something.. If I couldnt get my little cheeseburger or rodeo burger, KFC snacker's, cheese curds, taco's, nachos, chicken sands, onion rings, corn dogs, burettos, TOO MUCH TO LIST. (one thing, not all things each day, lol) Fries with 4pack MAYO, 1 mustard and 4 Ketsup.. I would cry if the mustard was absent.ect... If the fries were cold I would cry.. I would blame others, I would be a bitch to everyone. I would buy many items to keep in the house to heat up. Breakfast egg Muffins, hershey pies, cheeseburgers. I would throw food across the room if I didnt get what I wanted, I begged people to make runs to get me these fast foods. I was so picky and everything had to be exactly how I wanted or I felt abused or hurt. I HAD TO DRINK ALL DAY LONG. and night(not alcohal) I had a rootbeer float or a coffee drink or a smoothie everyday, minus maybe 4 times a month. Sometimes 2 or 3. I had to have one or feel sad. I could drink 1 to 5 slurpies a day in the summer. I to 5 a week in the winter. I have drank 10 slurpees in a day a few times. I drank a gallon of milk and/ or juice per day. EVERY DAY, sometimes more. There had to be milk in the house at all times and everyone made sure of it, daily ritual. It came before toilet paper if need be.. If I was out of juice and no one would get me some I would cry and feel extreme anxiety. I would gulp it like a maniac with tons of ice in order to feel alive. I am still addicted to juice and milk to this day. GOING OUT TO EAT MORE THAN THE RICH FOLK DO! I went out to china, resturants, KFC, buffets, about 4 times a month. THATS ONCE A WEEK. I always took someone with me. I would take one kid or one friend at a time, so I benifited going each and every time. I would spent bill money on it unable to resist. I did this all the time.. I spent money we couldnt afford on pizza and delivery of China food ALL the time. Pizza was in the house NO less than once a week. I would seriously be holding the money, knowing i cant afford it, it was a HUGE mistake and the food was just too tempting. Utilites were shut off, lanlords didnt get paid.. Groceries in the house The house food I ate was corndogs, nachos, frozen foods galore, quiche, candy, chips and Cookies, crap cerial, cheese, lunch meat, hotdogs, bagels and cream cheese.. We made a simple meal once a month on average. Then it was a frozen lasangue or spegetti or chilli or parm Pasta with shrimp, a salad from a bag and a premade french bread roll. I HATE POSTING THIS.. THIS was my life THE DAY before banding. So, I cant help but feel alot better, about my food logs. But I know I need to move further.. THANK YOU FOR LISTNing. I am reposting this on my food log..