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blackfalls

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  1. blackfalls
    The below quote is from here.
     
     
    Welp. That's depressing. And very accurate for me.
     
    My timeline (that I can remember)
     
    2003 - 200 lbs, graduated high school tried Jenny Craig, Weight Watcher's, Herbal Magic, physician-supervised weight loss
    2004 - 230 lbs, freshman "15"
    2006 - 200 lbs with diet/exercise concurrent with first serious relationship
    2006 - 230 lbs, 3 months after end of first serious relationship
    2007 - 250 lbs
    2008 - 220 lbs with diet and exercise, then started a grueling intensive 3 year program
    2009 - 250 lbs
    2011 - 275 lbs, graduated from said program, then couldn't find a job for 4 months, did food and retail therapy
    2012 - 235 lbs, with personal trainer costing $4000 with diet/exercise
    2013 - 285 lbs, highest weight ever at pre-op for vertical gastric sleeve surgery, found out 2 weeks before surgery I am hypothyroid.
     
    Time to put an end to this horrific yo-yo dieting.
     
    It reinforces in my mind that I'm doing the right thing by having this surgery. No turning back now.
  2. blackfalls
    Today is my fourth day of my 3 week pre-op diet. My diet is supposed to consist of a protein shake for breakfast, a protein shake for lunch, a protein food source and salad for dinner, and a third protein shake before bed if needed. It hasn't been too difficult although I have to admit that I have cheated. Here is a list of my sins:
     
    1st day - for dinner I had egg salad which I ate with bell peppers as a scoop. When I ran out of my serving of bell peppers I used a few rice crackers to finish up the egg salad.
    2nd day - same as 1st day
    3rd day - instead of egg salad for dinner I had cod. Instead of 1 serving/fillet, I had 2. But three-quarters of the way into it I realized it was too much. I ate with my eyes, not my stomach.
     
    Overeating because the food is there is something I am working on. When I have the sleeve I will not be able to stuff myself like I used to. One extra bite could mean terrible side-affects. I will really have to listen to my body.
     
    Although I called it cheating and "sinning" I don't feel bad about what I have done. This is a practice run for after the surgery and it is hard not to make a mistake after all my years of making mistakes constantly in regards to eating. You can't unlearn habits in 3 days. But I am trying. You better believe it. I know I will be successful with the sleeve. There's no other option. But my degree and speed of success depends on my ability to unlearn ingrained habits. And I WILL unlearn those dastardly ways. Enough is enough. I am worth every step of this journey. I am worth all the struggles ahead and I will come out at the end a healthier me.

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