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Well I am going home today I am having some major gas issues and having a hard time making it move. They keep telling me to walk but nothing is happening. I am just ready to go home and check with pharmacy to see I can take gas x with the medication they are giving me. Thank everyone for the well wishes.

Up and ready to go. 9am surgery can't wait. Will update when I can.

Well today is the day and I am up and ready to go. Need to be there at 7am and surgery at 9am. I feel a little nervous and excited. Well I am on my way. See you all on the other post op side. Good luck everyone going in today. Update later.

Well tomorrow is my time and I am full of different emotions but the one that stands out right not is excited. It may change to something else later this evening. I have put myself on a liquid diet for two days and this is the last day of it. I have really been feeling hungery and that is really strange for me because some days I can go the entire day and not eat until late in the evening. I have been drinking liquids all day and lunch has been cream of chicken soup and I think I will have more tonight as my last meal before surgery but boy would I love a bacon double cheeseburger from Wendy's. Cant wait to see the other side.

Well what I have been waiting on is now upon me. I go to the hospital at 7am tomorrow morning to start anew. I don't know what these feelings I am have are about and if they are fear or anxiety about tomorrow. I don't know how I am going to get through the day and night. I start work at 12pm and get off at 8pm that really takes up the day but my mind is on the surgery and nothing else. I know I won't be able to sleep and will be up all night. My husband plans to park on the street so he does not have to pay for parking so that means I have to be at the hospital at 6 am so an hour of waiting to check in. I know I am just over processing this and everything is going to be fine but I wish I could have just got the call at 5am tomorrow to just show up at 7 so I would not have all this time to think. I am really excited that its here and I will be joining the rest of the group on the other side. I have packed already due to the anxiety and wishing it was already here. I want to say good luck and prayers to all my sleeve sisters and brothers who will be crossing to the post op side tomorrow. Also good luck and prayers for those going in today.

Hey August sleevers, tomorrow is my day and I am full if emotions but still very excited. And scared. I don't think I will be able to work today but it will keep me busy til 8pm so then I can be up all night thinking about the surgery. I put myself on a liquid diet as of yesterday and its not too bad until I see food I really like. My husband is cooking stir fry tonight so I asked that by the time I get home at 9 could they be done and cleaned up so I won't be tempted. I really feel like I could eat a double bacon cheese burger from Wendy's and I would be ok. Lol. But I will eat my cream of chicken soup and be happy. Good luck everyone who is going in today, prayers are with you.

Prayers for you.

Thank you and my thoughts and prayers are with everyone making the change to a better life on the 27th.

Aug 29

Well I am in my real count down, I will be changing my life on Thursday and I am having so many different emotions that I feel like I just can't focus on anything. I am starting to get things in order to that everything will be good when I get home. I am prayed up so I know I am going to come out fine so all that's left to do is pack. So ready for the change. ????

I don't have him but I know someone who did and said he is the best.

Hey lesmarie, I am having my surgery at U of Chicago and it is the best and they are so nice. Angela will be so helpful with any questions you may have. They don't make you do a lot and it does seem to go fast. Go to the hospital website and you can see all the information that you will receive. Just make sure you get everything done that needs to be done before prep because after prep you will get setup for your meeting with the nurse, do blood work, and consent & nutrition class then it will be time. I wish you all the luck. I am glad to see someone else at U of Chicago with me.

I can't wait for skinny sex it's one of the many great perks to having the surgery. My hubby told me that he can't wait to hit it from the back without a lot of work to get to it or me having to lay facedown to do it. I miss all my favorite positions that I use to do before the weight came. I really can't wait to wear boy shorts style panties that don't look like 6 or 7 pairs sewn together. I want to put my legs up and not have by breast and thighs almost kill me because I can't breathe. It's going to be soooooo on!!!!

I know when its my turn I am going to be the same way. I wish I would have taken the day before off also but I will try really hard to stay focus.

Ok so I went for my last appointment and met with everyone and found out that I have lost 14 pounds since my last visit. I was really excited that I lost some weight considering I have been watching my food intake for the past 19 days. I am now starting my pre-op diet and it just a low carb, high protein so I get to have 2 weight watchers meals, 1 protein drink, 2 cups of dairy, 1/2 cup fruit, 1 cup vegetable and 8 cups of water. So its about 800-1000 calories a day and 60-100 grams of protein. I am so ready for Aug. 29th so I can start this new journey in my life of a new me. But let not forget to add that I am a little nervous but nothing going to stop me.

Well my surgery date is Aug. 29th and I have started changing my eating habits as of Aug. 1st. I want to give my self a chance to drop a few pound before the 10 pre-op diet which I think I will be starting on Aug 19th when I go to see the Anesthesia person and have my consent and nutrition teaching. I am really excited but it is really hard to keep those danger foods away from me. I am a sweet and junk food eater and I know they are not good for me. I have been OD'ing on crystal light and it helps with the need for something sweet but I still attend functions where they are eating all the things that will be off limits after this surgery if I want to see success. I have been dealing with a lot of stress so I have been working on a new way to deal with it besides eating and having a cocktail. I don’t have an issue with liquor but every so often I like to have one when I want one. But I have been having them a lot more before Aug 1st. My mother in law lives with me and my husband and she is a junk food eater and Snacks all day. So, it’s really hard not to have those foods in the house that are a sore spot for me. She also is an older lady so it hard to say that it’s not good for me and she remembers that. Her memory is slowing leaving her so its going to be hard for her not to have those things and for her not to eat the things that are for me. She eats my yogurt now and does not even remember even eating it. It’s crazy for me but I am trying to work around it. I think this would be a good place for me to get a few things that are on my mind in a journal of my journey. I am thinking about this surgery day in and day out. I can’t seem to think about anything else. I think about what its going to be like after, how will I feel about food?, how will I look?, will I be able to keep it up?, will my husband be able to accept the changes in me? He fell in love with the heavy me and will I still be as attractive to him? He always tells me that he loves me no matter what I look like and I really believe that but he has never had to see me look different. I feel really good about this surgery and what it means for me that I will be able to walk up and down stairs and not feel winded or my knees hurting soooooooo bad. My ankles won’t hurt so much either, I feel at the end of the year and twisted both ankles and tore ligament in both. They are not able to heal complete because of all the weight they have to carry. Not to be nasty or anything but I want to be able to see my lady parts without looking in a mirror but look down and say "hey there your are!" I am looking forward to having an active sex life again. I don’t have much of a drive anymore and I know it’s because I don’t like the way I look and I don’t feel attractive anymore. Now my husband does not agree with this statement but I told him it’s about how I view myself. I want to wear clothes that are visual pleasing to me and fit nice. I will be able to stand and not have lower back pain and be able to lay on my back because my behind will be smaller. These are just some things that I am looking forward to after the surgery. Ok, I will come back in a few days after I have gotten my scale to see if I have made any changes on the scale since I have tried to change my habits. More to come.

Ok so I went for my last appointment and meet with everyone and found out that I have lost 14 pounds since my last visit. I was really excited that I lost some weight considering I have been watching my food intake for the past 19 days. I am now starting my pre-op diet and it just a low carb, high Protein so I get to have 2 weight watchers meals, 1 Protein Drink, 2 cups of dairy, 1/2 cup fruit, 1 cup vegetable and 8 cups of Water. So its about 800-1000 calories a day and 60-100 grams of protein. I am so worried that I will not be able to get all the protein in because I start this diet today and I cant pick up my Protein shakes til Wednesday so I guess it will be ok if I do the other stuff until that day. I just want to day that I have blood work done today and they took like 12 tubes of blood, I mean that is alot and I was really light headed after that. I love my hospital but the hospital food in the food court is expensive. Me and hubby had a chicken salad, chicken strips, onion rings and a cranberry juice and it was 17 dollars. That is way over the top and my hubby was really upset about it. So, I told him when he stays the night with me he better pack a lunch. lol. I am really excited now that I am coming really close to the day and nervous because its really coming close to the day. They gave my group samples of unjury Chicken Soup and vanilla mix. I am going to try them out and see how it work and may buy some to have on hand. So its 10 days and counting and I cant wait. I also want to say that I have told a few people about the surgery those being my sister, brothers, cousin and her boyfriend. They are all so supportive and it really makes me happy that they will be at the hospital when I have the surgery because my hubby will need so support that day. He is nervous about the surgery but has not said anything to me yet. I know the last time I had surgery he was a wreck waiting for news that it was over. I love my family completely but I know that everyone in my family would not be supportive so only chosen ones know about it. But for those who are going to be at the hospital, it makes my heart sing to know that they understand what I am going through and why I have made the decision to take this step. I will be back with more updates as I continue this journey.

Ok so I went for my last appointment and meet with everyone and found out that I have lost 14 pounds since my last visit. I was really excited that I lost some weight considering I have been watching my food intake for the past 19 days. I am now starting my pre-op diet and it just a low carb, high protein so I get to have 2 weight watchers meals, 1 protein drink, 2 cups of dairy, 1/2 cup fruit, 1 cup vegetable and 8 cups of water. So its about 800-1000 calories a day and 60-100 grams of protein. I am so worried that I will not be able to get all the protein in because I start this diet today and I cant pick up my protein shakes til Wednesday so I guess it will be ok if I do the other stuff until that day. I just want to day that I have blood work done today and they took like 12 tubes of blood, I mean that is alot and I was really light headed after that. I love my hospital but the hospital food in the food court is expensive. Me and hubby had a chicken salad, chicken strips, onion rings and a cranberry juice and it was 17 dollars. That is way over the top and my hubby was really upset about it. So, I told him when he stays the night with me he better pack a lunch. lol. I am really excited now that I am coming really close to the day and nervous because its really coming close to the day. They gave my group samples of UNJURY Chicken soup and Vanilla mix. I am going to try them out and see how it work and may buy some to have on hand. So its 10 days and counting and I cant wait.

Well it seems that I am 18 days before I make my life change and take the journey. But I want to know if any is dealing with people asking questions concerning you and food? I will explain what I mean. I am a big watcher of Food Network and a show that comes on called Chicago's Best. I love just to see the different types of food and how it is made. Please tell me why my husband asked me if I am have surgery due to me have food issues, why do I continue to watch food shows when it's not good for me. Then he said if you have an issue with alcohol you don't keep looking at ads for liquor. I told him just because I watch it on tv does not make food jump into my mouth. This surgery does not make me stop eating, I have to leave to work with food in my limitations I have. I can still eat, which is crazy that he thinks like I have to stop eating all foods for the rest of my life. It really makes me wonder if he was really listening when we went to the different classes about what is about to happen to me and how the rest of my life is going to be. It took me back to when I was doing weight watchers, I never told anyone because I did not want any saying what I should or should not eat and this is what this feels like now he is going to be dogging my heels about everything I put to my mouth asking "are you suppose to eat that". I was upset for a minute but then I had to remember that he has to be educated just like I have been and by doing lots of research I have learned so much. I just need to vent and see if any else is hearing these kinds of statement.

It seems that most of us have some of the same dreams. I have a few things that I dream about and cant wait to see the dreams come alive. 1. Cross my legs and feel sexy doing it. 2. Where high heel shoes 3. Go to Great America and ride the rides 4. Go shopping in stores that do not carry a 2x or 3x in it. 5. Enjoy sex again 6. Dance without my knees hurting 7. Feel comfortable in a airplane seat 8. Feel comfortable sitting in chairs with arms. 9. Wear shorts and short dresses 10. Last but not least to like clothes shopping again. :D

First let me say I loved your story and the experience you had was really a sad thing. I can see why you would cry, it feels like you will never be able to eat like you use to and really you wont but at least the last meal where you could eat without a care should be something that will make you smile about it. You ended with something that was just a visual eye sore and did not sound like it was going to be good. But just think at some point you will be able to have chinese again just not to the degree as you use to do it. Look at what the end result will be, A NEW YOU!!!