sheilarae

My 17 year old son died 17 years ago June when he fell a sleep driving. He and his best friend died instantly as the car faulted over a creek and landed upside down on the opposite bank. I'm 2 months out of surgery and this is the first year I haven't Gained weight! The pain never goes away...it's like a headache you can't get rid of. I was angry at God at first and don't believe Rays death was part of any plan. My God doesn't work that way. Free will and physics were the problem. Rays guardian angle was there. God was with me as I grieved. He was in my friends and even strangers who grieved with me. He was in the teenagers who came to the visitation and funeral. Find something to do that will honor your son. I support Amanda the Panda which is a support group for families that have lost a child. I also donated bird houses and a deer feeder to the Nature Center because Ray loved animals. It will get better. I wish you peace.

I'm not losing very fast either. Lost 15 before surgery and 7 in the 2 months after. I'm only eating about 600 cal a day. Drink lots of water and walk 1mile every other day. I will walk more as my arthritis and fibro will allow.

Ill try that thanks. The only solids I eat so far are scrambled eggs and deli turkey. Tried hamburger and it came right up.