LipstickLady

How long ago was your surgery? Can you do scrambled eggs yet? I've not had surgery yet, but one of the food on my mushy food list is cereal like Cheerios and Special K. I was SO happy to see that.

That's HUGE! Good for you.

Good luck to you! You are clearly a very strong woman and I can't wait to hear about your successes. I am three week away as of today and I totally feel you as far as excitement! I never wish my days away, but I would happily put the next few weeks in fast forward.

I'm new to this forum as a posting member but have been reading for years. I've already been verbally attacked by one member for posting a bit of introspective thought regarding the beginning of my journey. Good thing my big girl panties are humongous. I refuse to bully or BE bullied.

FindingElise, you are wonderful. I will happily live in my "fantasy land" for the rest of my life if it means looking forward with eagerness, excitement and positivity towards what my future will bring me. Strike that. Positivity towards what the future *that I am building for myself* will bring.

Are you journaling with an app like My Fitness Pal? I am a bit obsessive compulsive so notating everything I eat and drink helps a lot. You can put it on your phone, iPad, computer... I added a ton of like minded friends so we can watch each other, too. It's much harder to eat when the world is watching for me. Also, we have decided to hold each other accountable and I can't do that if I am not holding myself accountable. If you are doing MFP, inbox me your user name. I am happy to give you a kick in the rear as long as you do the same in return.

Thank you very much. I can't tell you how much I appreciate your kind words and your understanding of my long ramble of thoughts as I approach the reality of what I am getting myself into. You're a peach!

There are a lot of things I don't know. I have no idea where you got the idea that I think I do. I am an expert on very few things, this surgery is not one of them but where I am mentally in this process is. I do know that I've been reading these forums for over a year. I do know that many of your posts are extremely negative and quite frankly, you seem to be rather unhappy. (I hope I am wrong about that!). I do know that your negativity towards me will not affect me in any way and I do know that I will not allow your bullying to stop me from posting, learning, celebrating, and venting nor will it stop me from being a member of this community. I wish you well.

I'm not too worried about that, quite honestly. The doctors found a lemon sized brain tumor in my noggin almost four years ago. It was then that I found out who my friends were, I figured out who made me more unhappy than happy and I eliminated anyone who caused me unwanted stress without looking back. It was also during that very scary time that I decided that I would NEVER EVER let someone else's opinion matter to me unless THEY mattered to me. I am SO MUCH HAPPIER now. I dare say that lemon was the best thing that every happened to me.

Thank you for your support! I really do look to this board for support and guidance and I love all the positivity that lives here!

Ok! I'll be certain to take your opinion into consideration.

Yup, you are right. But it's still bizarre to me to be singled out on, what to me, was such a positive post, only to have it twisted around to being told I need professional help by someone who knows nothing about me. It's all good. Other people's opinions about me stopped bothering me a long long time ago. THANK GOODNESS!

I did say that. I also stated that I am ready to take control and have done so. I've given up my NEED for food and realized that it's not the *important* thing in my day and I am happy with that decision. My past is my past, can't change that. I am looking forward to my future. I'm sorry that you can't understand that or that you are choosing not to.

I've been fat almost all my life and I've been aware of it. I've been on a diet all my life and I know what to do. I also know that I've not always made good choices even when dieting. In my original post, I stated that it finally clicked for me and that I am NOW doing the right thing instead of binging/indulging/mourning etc. I am past caring about what I am going to put in my mouth next and I feel awesome about that. It took me YEARS of mental preparation while even finally choosing to so this surgery and I am finally there. I'm really not sure where that begs for professional help.

Oh my gawd. NO!

Oh, I absolutely do now that you've brought it up! I love Subway. It's a party in my mouth when y'all add all the peppers.

You become an "ARTIST". DUH!!

Oh gosh. I am so passed worrying about whether or not people think I'm weird, I forget to care. I just assume they know I am.

Did you know that you could ask for your Subway "scooped"? What an awesome idea! You still get the feeling of having bread, the taste of the yummy flavor you choose and lose most of the junk. They split your sandwich, scoop out all the soft bready part and then fill it with your meats, cheese, and veggies. You can add SO MUCH MORE fixins this way. It's like a salad on a really thin roll. try it out!

Thank you. It's sort of bizarre to me to suggest to someone that they need to seek professional help and not explain your position on that. Perhaps I'm weird.

I totally understand that and I agre which is exactly why I am NOT having a food funeral and I am NOT mourning the loss of something that I can have later in very small moderation. If your interpretation is correct, I think my post was misunderstood by her. THANK YOU!!

I would love to know where/how I have the wrong perception of what I am about to do. Anyone?

I think that is a very reasonable idea! I can easily fit in a "treat" if I stick to my plan of Protein shakes, lean protein and veggies. I am under calories/fat/carbs now. I actually had frozen yogurt with my daughter yesterday and it was great. Instead of my usual mass of hot fudge, brownies, snickers, etc. on top, I had a half cup with blueberries and strawberries and it was delicious! I can live with that.

I am so happy for you!!! I am extremely excited and I know this is the right decision for me.

Thank you!! Are you doing well?