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Anca Thank you for the compliments~ It is hard to try and balance every thing sometimes...but I gotta do it~ Your a Sagittarius...You have that ablity to cut people off~ Among many other talents!! You would make an awesome lawyer!! You hold strong to your opinions and beliefs. You wont be swayed! My sister is a Sag and my son is a Sag. You were actually banded on my sons Birthday!!

anca~ Thank you for your insight. I do appreciate it. My parents had a very rocky relationship and my mother kept me from my father....shoot, Im 33 and she still tries. She did what she thought was best though. Looking back on it all, I dont know what she accomplished by not letting us see each other. My father had a lot of issues that were part of her decision to stop us from seeing each other. But he could have come to the house and seen me, we could have spent days together. I have an AWESOME relationship with my father now and I really think it sucks that we were held away from one another for years!!! I spent a lot of time hating him for things that were force fed into my head.......hating him for things I couldn't have changed then and certainly can't change now......I dont want our son to grow up thinking I kept them two apart. I know it hurts a child when they dont see their parent for what ever reason. You sound like the rare case where your comfortable without your dad in your life. I wasn't comfortable with it. I cried for him day in and day out. My son occassionally asks for his father. I call him on the phone and let the two of them talk...and today when his father came for him, my son couldn't get his hat and coat on quick enough~ So, I know he misses his daddy. I do believe taking it one day at a time is going to really help us all out right now. Talk to you soon~

Hey guys..I made it thru the night and came to a rational decision..I let our son go with his father for the weekend. I am going to pop in and pay a surprize visit sometime today just for my own peace of mind. I had a long talk with my husband last night and I believe he is committed to recovery. I have a lot of trust issues as it is, and I dont want that to be my sons problem. Soo....I am living for today and today only. I am making decisions for today and today only. Today my husband is sober, he is on his meds, he is doing what he needs to do. Tomorrow, well, we dont know what tomorrow will bring, but I will make the right decisions tomorrow when it gets here. This approach is going to keep me sane~ I will pop in, I will call...I will make sure things are okay over there. Shoot, its not beyond me to just go and stand outside and listen to whats going on. I know I know, borders stalking.....gotta catch me first I do journal everything, every day. It helps me get things out and keep tract of what goes on. I have considered Alanon...but I dont have time for one more meeting~ Wonder if they have an online support group? Hum, something to look into.....I do have a therapist, she is wonderful and she is available when ever I need her, all I have to do is call...and my family...and my friends.... Thanks ever so much everyone for the support and time and suggestions. I do appreciate it. Like I said in one of my above postings, sorry if my tone is off~~~ I am not trying to be mean or snippy...just all the thoughts coming out at once....Sometimes tones and attitude gets misread on the computer~~~I dont want to offend anyone~~~ TTYL Letcha know how the late night stalking errrr visit goes....muahahahahah

Hey SuperDaddy... Our son sees me and gets my full support (physical, emotional, mental) every day all day. I have been a stay at home mom for years. Our son is disabled and I walked out of a full time job with great pay and benefits to support all of our sons needs. The financial end fell on my husband. Our son has a ton of family (we live with my mom now) and he has a great group of friends at school. As far as councel with Pastors and churches....we dont belong to a church and I dont see us joining one any time soon. Just not our thing. Dont get me wrong, we have our religion, but its practised at home. I know he is fighting addiction just like us with the band...but unlike us, he doesn't need alcohol to survive....we need food to live~ Did you ever try giving a recovering alcoholic just a sip of vodka? Can get pretty ugly~ I think what I am going to do for now is make it perfectly clear that I need to trust him again. The night that all this crap came down, I totally lost trust in him....that says alot considering we were together for 15 years~ I think I am going to allow our son to go during the day and then just have my husband bring him home at night.....that too will enforce the continuity of Anthonys "new home"..I am going to call my husband now to try and talk to him about these issues and see where this gets us. Communication was never our strong points. Obviously~ Im sorry if my tone seems a little off, I surely dont mean it to be.....Im not trying to be mean or sarcastic.....just thoughts that are coming out...I asked for input and I truely truely appreciate it~~~~ Thanks again for listening~ Oh, forgot to mention...My primary support in all this is my father. My father does have the ablity to see both sides of the issue. I am a Daddys girl and he doesn't want to see anything bad happen to me or to his Grandson....but he does tell it to me straight~ I have a very special relationship with my father and he doesn't hesitate to tell me Oh no girl Your wrong when I am wrong....Dads are very special and I know what its like to be without one. My father spent alot of time away from the family when I was growing up...like in other states...not at work....my parents were seperated more than they were married...so I do not want our son to have to experience the same feelings I did......

Betty....The situation that came up a few weeks ago didn't involve our son at all. My son was at home with my mother and what occured happened at my husbands place. The relationship that I have with our son is very different than the one he has with his father. My husband is a lot more strick I guess you can say with our son than I am...I was not the "disaplinarian" Our son was never hit and I know that my husband wouldn't physically hurt him......but I think that our son just knows that when hes home with me he can pretty much do what ever he wants to do, within limits of course....but when hes with his father, its different. I know if I asked our son if he wanted to go with his father over night he would say no. I am sooo for giving children choices. I wouldnt want to force him into something he didn't want to do. Sooo I think this is what I may do. I need to have a LONG TALK with my husband about trust and how I am feeling regarding the incident a few weeks ago... Tell him where I am with everything....and then tell him he can have our son, but he needs to bring him back to me for bed time. I think thats fair...for now....Then once we go to court, then maybe have something in there about visitation. This isn't an easy situation. My husband has been doing everything right since he was released from the hospital........meds/therapy/support.....I dunno...scarey and confusing and heart breaking all at the same time! Oh what fun. I could visit the Wizard of Oz all by myself and get all the things that were requested all by myself~ Courage, A new heart from it being broken, and a brain cause the old one is fried out...Oh and a Home, my own home one that i dont share with my mom~(even thou I am grateful for being able to come home with her) GEEZ Life is screwy when you make Wizard of Oz references....ehehehe thanks for listening~

Penni.....I have had a few conversations with you and I only know a smidgents of your life...but based on what I do know YOUR ONE TUFF COOKIE!! Sooo kick them demons in the ding ding girl~~ You can do it!!! It is fustrating as all get out ~ but you learned soooo much with your band. Put that knowledge to good use....and you proved you can do it by only having a few bites of the cheesecake...rather than the whole thing....Scream, kick vent.....do what cha need to do...But dont beat yourself up for the hard times...... You can do this!! You are important enough!!!

Hey Robyn.. My May-Dayze sista~~ Whats going on woman? I am so sorry that we lost touch...we were talking every day there for a while. I got wrapped up in my whirlwind of a life.......But Im getting back to normal now. Okay....you realized where your "problems" are when it comes to not loosing any weight. Dont beat your self up for the set back. We all have em, we all do it. ~~~~Get theee to a support group~~~~~ You got that kick ass attitude...NOW USE IT GURL!!! I will be checking in on you~

Does anyone know where to get liquid protein drops? I heard them being discussed at the last support meeting with Mauri in Goshen, but I didnt really pay attention to it. I think I need all the additional protein I can get. I am not really counting grams or keeping tract in anyway but I feel like its not enough. Thanks all! Hey I wont be at the next support meeting....I will be in Florida seeing my dad with my son and Hubbie.....SOOO EXCITED.....So, anyway, these drops can be added to jello, pudding, coffee...anything...Any info on this, I would greatly appreciate it...Oh and I hadda NSV today...I guess thats what its called...cute check out guy at the store was flirtin with me!! eeehhaa......He was very cute too! Okay...thanks in advance for any info.

Tracy....Sorry to hear your in a rut. When I get in a rut I change just one thing....Like just recently I just found liquid protein at GNC. I am taking that twice a day with some water, and I am upping my water in take. I dont really diet too much, but I do stick to the protein and veggies rule. I eat very little carbs. My thing is "am I eatting too much".....I eat till I feel full then I stop. But sometimes it seems like a lot~~ I get scared over the possiblity of streaching the pouch...then I get scared of erosion. One thing that I have stopped doing is weighing in at home. I only weigh in at the surgeons office once a month when I go in for a check up...What ever it is it is. I do my very very best and I have been consistantly seeing a weight loss...even during the most stressful times of my life....Sooo I must be doing something right~ Good luck to you~ Happy New Year everyone!

Hey there. Im on myspace too. I had a membership a long time ago, but ran into a real wack job there!!! Be very very careful out there. This person sent me an invitation to be a friend and when I rsvped he threatened to kill me and yadda yadda yadda, send his boys out to get me~ What ever. In the grand scheme of life, what are the chances of finding me? I wasn't too worried about it. I just deleted my account. I just resigned, but I dont know the link to my profile. Im listed under porclndol there too.

Hey there Mauri~ Thats exactly where I got them, GNC....I am very happy with them! Never heard of the Bariatric Lifestyle Company...Do they have a website? Maybe if I google them I can find out about them. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sharon....This is what I think....I worked for BlueCross BlueShield for several years....things have changed since I have been around, but your not doing this "just" because your obese...right? You more than likey have some underlying medical condtions that need to be focused on such as high blood pressure, or diabeties, or sleep apnia... Am I right? Have your doctor mention all those things in your initial letter for predetermination.....then fight with your levels of appeal....The exclusion said Weight reduction programs or treatment for obesity including any surgery for morbid obesity or for removal of excess fat or skin following weight loss, regardless of Medical Necessity, or service at a health spa or similar facility With LapBand surgery other conditions may be benefitted.....

May you find comfort knowing that you gave her dignity not to live as an abused animal any more, and the dignity to pass in comfort...we should all be given that opportunity in our life time~

I just found and absolutely love a GNC product....Pro Performance Liquid Protein. I got a 16 ounce bottle for 14.99 on sale, and it has 18g of protein per serving. Its pretty thick like a cough syrup, but I throw mine in some Berry Flavored Propel and it dilutes it and makes it easier to swallow. I am sooo sick of protein shakes. I need to take in more water anyways, so this is the perfect item for me!! I mentioned it in this link too http://lapbandtalk.com/showthread.php?t=7996&highlight=liquid+protein There are other people on the board who have tried it...and they have some suggestions for its use, like to be put in ice tea...... GOOD LUCK!!

I am bumping this thread for newbies, and to add....I FOUND AND GOT THE LIQUID PROTEIN at GNC!!! I am soo happy with it too! I find it much easier to take then the protein shakes. And at 18g of protein per serving NOT TOO SHABBY! I throw it in some Propel Berry Flavored water, and it goes down good! Much easier than a protein shake!!!! I got it for 14.00 and some odd cents..it was on sale....typically sold for 17.99 for 16 oz. Three tablespoons is one serving. The consistancy is pretty thick, almost like a cough medicen....ICK...BUT once its in the water, its ok. I heard someone say that they put it in tea too, like ice tea...I would imagin that would be pretty good!!! Okay...hope that helps for anyone who doesn't like the protein shakes..... GOOD DAY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

Alice Bot didn't know if it was banded when I talked to "her"....very very very freeky~~~I LIKED IT .. She asked me how old I was and I told her and she was like OK LETS TALK ABOUT ME! ahaha what the hell?

I dont make resolutions. I dont want to make any more promises to myself that I can't keep. Rather than call it a Resolution...I call it more of a Suggestion... My New Years Suggestions~~ And this year my suggestions are to become more organized. I am like a whirl wind of confusion most of the time. And to concentrate more on the things that make me happy or that will make me happier. I like to travel, so I think this year I am going to try and go to a few different places...and maybe some old places and see some friends. My son makes me happy so I would like to spend a lot more quality time with him....trips would be a perfect opportunity...And the Haunted House......I can concentrate more on making another awesome costume and contributing more to the haunted house.... Thats it...Nothing huge. Just really looking forward to a more simpler time thats all.....

I have been getting stuck alot, and Pbing and sliming and my band just hurts. I talked to my surgeon and he said he wouldn't take fluid out, but I need to baby it for now...to get thru this tough spot. Today is really bothering me. I hear so much about erosion that it scares the bejesus out of me!!! I have told my surgeon about my concernes, but apparently he doesn't share them, so I guess I should stop worrying about it. I guess the extra worrying isn't making it any easier. I may have a job...not making the money I want, but its close to home, closer to my sons school, the company is very flexable when it comes to family needs and time off....sooo i can't lose there. They are supose to be calling me by friday with information on when I can start. I totally forgot to tell them about a surgery that my son is having on January 5th....he needs new tubes in his ears......I am sure that it wont be a problem. I worked for this company YEARS ago....left for a better position....and now I have come full circle!! Funny where life brings ya sometimes.

Hello fellow May-dazers.... December has been hard on me, but only because my nerves. Its been a very stressful time and my band hates stress~~ I haven't been able to really eat too much.....I do alot of protein shakes still. I spoke to my surgeon and he doesn't want to take any of my fill out because he is afraid that will allow me to stress eat more. With the fill in, I will be more careful. Its been tuff. I am in a size 20 jeans though!!! I haven't seen that size in a very very very long time!!! Sooo I am happy with my weight loss to date. I have lost about 60 pounds so far. We are about five months away from our one year bandaversaries~ I have about 40 more pounds to go to hit my goal. Its gonna be a close one. I know I have to up the exercise......Cause it certainly isn't anything Im eatting at this point~ Okay guys...GOOD LUCK TO US IN MEETING OUR GOALS~~ Talk to you soon~

I just wanted to take a second to wish all my friends a very Happy Holiday. This year has brought around sooo many changes for me personally.....some for the better- some yet to be determined;-) .........What ever is going on in your life right now I wish you all peace and happiness. Thats one thing that we all deserve! Enjoy your families.....enjoy yourself and your new found health, or at least the promise of new found health if your not yet banded. Happy Holidays Everyone.... Your friend

Argh! Me hearty~ Lookie there!!! I done missed your one year bandaversary argh~~ I was way busy shiverin me timbers and wasn't able to get on this electric box ye call a computer argh~~ Hey that pirate talk is fun~~ You have accomplished soo much for your self during this year it is unreal~ More so, you have helped so many more people with your inspiring words! Your one of the first people that welcomed me to this board and I appreciate your kindness and support. Your remarkable Jack!!

Hey guys. I am thinking about calling my surgeon tomorrow and requesting a slight unfill...I had yet another BP tonight. I was stuck for a while, slimed slimed slimed and then burped up a wad. Nasty but...Relief~~ I ate chicken and I dont know if I didn't chew good enough, I thought I did. It wasn't a huge piece, maybe three ounces. I wasn't eatting fast, or at least I didn't think I was....I think that this last fill that I had, which brought me to 2.25 cc's has been the toughest fill to get use to. I have had it a while now, two months....and the stuck feeling has been more so than usual. My nerves have been bothering me a lot lately too....so in the interest of trying to keep a healthy band, I think Im going to request a slight unfil. My nerves are bothering me and I really dont feel like eatting much....so I dont think there is any danger in my over eatting once I get a slight unfill. And I have been more "aware" of the band. I dont know if this is going to sound nuts, I dont know if anyone else experiences this...I dont know if Im just hyper-aware of it because I really think Im too tight....but I can be laying down or sitting in a chair and I "feel" my band. Does anyone else feel their band. It doesn't have anything to do with eatting or drinking or restricition....but I know its there. Does that make sence? Its not a pain, or discomfort, its just that I know something is there. I dunno..hard to explain. I am very aware of my body. I know if I am growing a hair out of the middle of my back....maybe thats it? I dunno....I just got over my (ahem) monthly visitor...maybe that has something to do with it? Maybe because of all the reports of erosion I am just paranoid? Okay guys....thanks for being here~~~ I will talk to you later....

I saw my surgeon today and we have come to the conclusion that my sudden case of the "stucks" is primarely because of my stress levels...Yes...Just when you think that your life is normal enough to jump back in....a heeping steaming pile goes floating by. Without getting into tooooo much detail I had a situation arise the other night that was HORRIABLE....Cops were called....cops had guns out....I was up against a wall waiting to be identified.....then I had a MAJOR meltdown on a sidewalk. The issue is ongoing and will be ongoing for a while.....Im not in any legal trouble, but its still an issue that Im going to be involved in for a long time. Soooo because of the stress of my marital situation and now this...the restriction levels are going WAY up. My surgeon and I are going to baby the hell out of my band rather than take fluids out...He thinks by taking out the fluid I will start to feel more hungry and start to stress eat a lot more, gainning back the weight. I lost 2.5 pounds since my last visit...which was awesome. I made it thru Thanksgiving without gainning. Sooo I know what I must do and that is baby this thing till the stress level comes down. I have not had any acid reflux so that is a major bonus....and I am still loosing weight. I got the impression that my dr wasn't worried about erosion...soooo if hes cool with it....Im cool with it. I totally trust him. I was completely honest with him....and he just wants me to do shakes when the stress levels are up...some salads and fish. He said fish goes thru easier than chicken...sooo Now I am dying for fish, and I dont know how to cook...so I gotta find a resturant with good fish dinners. Thanks for listening~ Talk to you soon~

Okay guys....IM BORED~ And this sucks. I hate to be bored. My boy is asleep....my mom is watching TV...Im on this computer....WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO~~~ Its too cold outside to do anything......My cleanning is all done. My sons birthday party is all planned. I actually have free time and I dont know what to do with it. My body is in shock and its retaliating with BOREDUM....I could read, but Im too restless. I have my Christmas cards all ready done and sent out........I could wrap presents but then I run the risk of my son catching me......8 years ago today I was admitted into the hospital to have my son, and he was born THREE days later. I cant tell you how much pitosin I was given...GALLONS it seemed. But I had my little boy on 12/19/97....at 6:15am.........He is my Christmas Mirical thats for sure. He was sooo little when he came home, he was a month premature, I was going to bring him home in a stocking..ehehehehehe He was born early on purpose, because I was having such a complicated pregnancy. DUMDEEDUUUU I am so bored....I am so bored......why am I bothering you all with this?? Well thanks for listening...maybe I will listen to some music...STAINED....that show by the way WAS SOOOO FREEKIN COOL!!! Hey, the bar is right down the street~~ with in walking distance, so I could technically go have me a calorie infused drink and walk it off.....eeeeyaaaa no...That could be bad....this bored and drinking..... wouldn't mix well...I would have to wear the happy boots and a trench coat~ ehehehe HAY THATS NOT A BAD IDEA.......ok going to do something...maybe take a HOT SHOWER....or lay here and count arm hairs or something equally stupid. LATER GUYS

Ewe I would be very occupied if I counted freckles...I am loaded!!! And I dont know how that happens cause I avoid the sun at all costs~~ Not a sun worshipper at all! I never heard of the moon causing freckles....muahahahah CREATURE OF THE NIGHT muahahaha Well the bordum did pass last night. I fell asleep! Today is a new day and I have a bunch of things to do. My sons birthday party is tomorrow and Im baking the cake.. And when his father comes to get him, I am going shopping............I need new pants. All of my pants are literally falling off my butt! God forbid I have to reach in my pocket for something....FLOOP there they went~ Ass out!!! ehehehehe Thanks for listening to my ramblings..... I will talk to you soon my banded bordum sisteres~ ehehe Pedicure...ewl, I hate feet! I had to do pedicures when I was in school getting my nail license...I had to do two to graduate from the course...I set up my sister to be one, at least I sorta know where her feet have been and shes clean! Then the second one was some strange woman off the streets.....EEEEEEWWWEEE I can gag just thinking about it! I really hate feet.