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Just jumpin in here to say congrats on your sugery! Each day does get better. It was my six month Bandaversary on Saturday!!! WAHOO. Six months! I applaud you for getting this done at such a young age! I wish I had the opportunity to do this sooner. Your coughing will go away, talk to a dr of course, your gas pain will go away...and showering is just fine!!! Get in there and let some warm water run down your back...helps so much! Good luck to you and let us know how you are!

OOOOHHH I am by no means thinking this is going anywhere~~~~~ whoa~~~~~ But it would be good to see how hes doing. Like I said, its been 15-16 years~~ It would be interesting to see how he grew up, or if he grew up....... We went to my senior ball in high school together....And he had long shaggy hair. I told him, if you wanna go with me you HAVE to cut your hair...and sure enough he did! He looked sooo handsome too when he did. It would be interesting to see if he kept it that way~ One time for my birthday he left a big white teddy bear at my house, and then he hid.....and the teddy bear was wearing the body spray that he use to wear..It was musk.....Then when I got the teddy bear, he came out of hiding and surprized me. Oh my God this is going back a life time ago!! Its nice to leave reality sometimes. Yea and then theres the memory of him cheating on me. WHOA not a nice night. I walked from one town to the neighboring town to kick his ass!! We (me and my girlfriend) walked probably 7-8 miles to get him~~ Then when he saw me he turned and walked the other direction!! He knew.....He was busted. I wouldn't have wanted to confront me either...I think Jack mentioned I had moxie in another post...BOY HES NOT KIDDING. I gotta double dose of Moxie~ OK sorry to babble, but like I said some times its nice to leave reality~

Thanks guys.....I really appreciate the support and kind words. Tomorrow is my birthday and my husband couldn't even come to my mothers house to be with me and my family. I asked him Do you wanna go, and he flat out said NO. I said I thought as much...Then he said, You thought right...and went out to do the laundry. I came home from my moms house and hes asleep...but tonight I really think I gotta sit down and have him confront whats going on. He drags me down and I am not liking it one bit. I would rather live alone with my boy~ I honestly think that we have both left the marriage all ready and one of us is just waiting for the green light. I dunno what form that green light is gonna come in...for me I think a full time job would do the trick. Right now all my husband is doing is making money. He doesn't even tell me how much he puts in the bank...which is as simple as leaving a deposit slip on the table. I now have to call the bank or go there physically and get the deposit amount~ This is not anywhere near working together!!! We dont even speak...... The sand is running out of the hour glass....I will letchas know what happens after tonights conversation! I have never been put in this position and it is rather scarey. I can't even put gas in my car without asking him for money~ Not a good position....I dont like it...Okay...thanks again guys~~

Hey you left out the details details details.....what does this dress look like??? i am anxious to go now...hehehe i rsvp'd today. rubbing elbows with the doc-tor~~~ im gonna have to behave myself.....

ATTENTION.....ATTENTION..... I GOT MY DRESS FOR THE PARTY TODAY~~~ SOOOO NO ONE SHOW UP IN THE SAME DRESS OR ELSE!! tee hee...... I am so excited for this party. The dress I got came from Fashion Bug....and its LONG and BLACK with a rhinestone broach in the middle of the dress. Its sleeveless....and has a wrap to go around the neck......to help hold up the girls I would assume. I gotta get a strappless bra to go with this little number...but for those who think they are gonna be sneeky petes and get the same dress...I alerted the store workers and told them to take it off the wracks till after the party. They weren't so understanding. GO FIGURE. The one sales clerk told me that she would post a sign but I dont believe her!!!!

Okay girl, your not alone!! My demon isnt chips and salsa, all thought as yummy as they are!!! My demon is cold ~n~ creamy chocolate pudding. And the STUPID thing is, I haven't been doing the fat free!! BAD BAD BAD!!!! Tomorrow I will not have a pudding...tomorrow I will not have a pudding. I have to keep it in the house for my boy...soooo this is going to be difficult! I should just buy the fat free for me....hummmm I think I can do that. OKAY MSBUTTERKUP...we are in this with a WHOLE bunch of people!!! Youve lost 40 pounds...I have lost 50....we need to quit it with the snacks~~~ I will be checking in on you!!!!! GOOD LUCK.............. OH EVIL SALTED CHIPS~~DAMN DEMON CHOCOLATE BEAN~~~~ I CURSE YOU BOTH!!!! HOCKTOOIE....(thats me spitting on them )

I got 50 points...... 41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

Nykee... I am into dreams and analyzing them. My Grandmother use to be sooo good at it. I had a dream once that made me PHYSICALLY SICK...because of the content of the dream. I called my gram in hysterics and she analyzed it for me and it ment NOTHING but positive stuff. I was sooo relieved. Since she has passed away I have been on my own to try and make sence of them. I rely a lot on a website. Go to www.dreammoods.com They give very good explaination/transition of the symbols in dreams! I only caught onto one in your dream that you mentioned above...about the water. Water is a symbol of emotions. Considering that the water was choppy, you felt scared, and water was actually in the boat.....I would conclude that at the time of this dream you were overwhelmed by your emotions. Maybe you were going thru a rough time and you were afraid of your emotions..afraid to let them go.....which would also sorta explain the purple rope a bit. Tied to your feelings. I have very vivid dreams. They are often in color and I can feel everything thats going on. If someone touches my face in my dream, I can feel it. If I am flying I can feel the wind in my hair.....its WILD....Makes for an interesting sleep if its an adult rated dream too! whoa!!!! The next dream I have I will post it! They are very interesting!!! Good thread!!!

~~~CONGRATULATIONS~~~ on your six month annaversary! Mine is going to be on Saturday! I am going to a huge party on Saturday too. Im sorry that your surgeons office isnt providing you with enough support. I would hate to find out what that is like. I LOVE my surgeon and the office staff! They are wonderful people! Everyone should have an experience like that. I am right behind you on the weight loss. I am down 50 some odd pounds. I am with you on being a rule bender...but usually when I break the rules, I suffer. I will tell ya about the pretzel rod that almost killed me some day! YIKES! No more damn pretzels~~ You are sooo fortunate to have the support of your family! You are making your husband proud weather you fit in that penwar set or not, but cha know what, you WILL DO IT!! Well, I certainly am proud of you Debby Do~~~ Keep up the amazing work! We will pull into the station of our goals together!!!! We can do this! You have done amazing thus far!! ~CONGRATS AGAIN~

Hey Kristen...Things are going~ I just ate stupid eggs and they got stuck~ What the hell! I am stressing right now so maybe my restriction is more. Yea gots to get a new dress to go rub elbows with the doctors :mad: I am looking forward to it! Theres going to be an orchastra there. I have NEVER been to a party where there is an orchastra!!! As far as support group...I haven't been in quite some time. I am thinking this Monday I gotta go. Monday the 7th is my birthday....so what better gift can I give myself than support and time to myself? Anyway, lemme know about car pooling. I will pm you with my cell phone number....We have some time to get it together. Party isnt till December..... Debby Do... I would LOVE to take you along............the invite only came in my name though.....Guess that means we can't bring a date or a husband. ~dammit~ hehehehe okay guys....talk to you soon~

Thanks Whipple...Thank you T....At least I know Im not losing my mind here! This isn't easy, but at this point I dont think its repairable. Im not sure if he wants to fix it either. There is NO communication and its so difficult to get it started. My husband has always been a very jealous person. Now that he sees me out there with people, friends, having fun...he is very irate! I have had my periods of being a social person....but then again, I went thru a very painful time of being a shut in~ Funny how we can go thru so many different phases in life. When I met my husband, 15 years ago, I was going thru one of my shut in phases. He fell in love with that person and got use to that person! I am sooo not that way now!!! And he has told me he doesn't like the person I am today. I am not going to let life pass by though. I had a friend who passed away at 32 years of age from cancer. He had four kids! And was on his second marriage. He would have done ANYTHING to hold onto life just one more day!!! Why should I be expected to give up life? In a few days I am going to be 33 years old....One year older than my friend when he passed....what can I say I have accomplished in that year? ALOT, now that I am not letting any one or anything hold me back..... A decision needs to be made. If this is it, then we need to figure out how to come away from this smoothly for our sons sake. I honestly dont see how it can be fixed though. One person can't fix it alone. Thanks you guys for talking me thru this....I really appreciate that you were able to share these things over a public board. I just gotta get the communications open...It doesn't help that I am dealing with a man who is batteling his own demons too.....But things cant stay like this.....thats for sure Talk to you later

Thank you Tony for sharing your experience with me. I just dont know what the hell is going on in my life when it comes to my husband. I know that we are growing apart....We are up to NO communication. We dont say hello, we dont say good bye...we dont say have a good day...none of that~ I am interested in friends, and family, and a life! I can not sit at home day in and day out...He is very happy doing nothing. I have aquaintences that dont even realize Im married cause I am always going out by myself. My husband works a lot of hours like you...60-70 a week. I dont work. I am currently looking for employment. I have been afforeded the opportunity to be a stay at home mom and I absolutely appreciate that...but when I want to go somewhere with my friends, I dont want to be put down for it. I have been accused of having affairs which i havne't done. I have been accused of abandoning our son because I will have my mother watch our son so I can go out...Our son has Down syndrome. I quit a very good paying job to take care of our son. I got down on the floor and go dirty with him, to teach him to crawl and walk. I have sweated with him, I have cried with him. I have held him down at the doctors for shots and blood draws. I have held together all the therapist and doctor visits and since he is doing soooo much better and is healthy and accomplishing things on his own...I figured it was just healthy for the BOTH of us to spend some time apart. My husband feels that I am giving up the time that he is not allowed to have...he is jealous of the time that I get to spend with our son and doesn't understand how I can just leave him with my mother. But its for BOTH mine and my sons sanity that I do leave him for a while. He doesn't need me on his ass all day every day. Well that is how it all started. Now we have been fighting for years...there have been scattered good days in there dont get me wrong...but with this not talking AT ALL...its driving me nuts....Its almost like whats the point? We dont even sleep in the same bed....by MY choice...Why would I share a bed with someone who can't even talk to me? I have noticed since my banding...I am getting self asteem back. I am becoming more and more confident....but at the same time scared to all get out! I have NEVER been on my own, let along alone with a child to take care of. I got married when I was 23...I went from living with my parents to being a married woman...Its all just sooo scarey sometimes. And I hate the idea of weekend visitation~~ Ugh that just makes my stomach turn~ I cant imagin being with out my boy on the weekend!!! Welp, thats pretty much where I am in a nut shell.... A very big NUT shell. :mad:

OOOOHHHH PS: I think that since the invitation said Black Tie Optional, I think that means Semi Formal for women. I dont think we would be expected to wear a gown or anything like that.....

Hi there Kristen..I got my invite today too. I saw that Black Tie Optional on there. I am seriously thinking about going~ How often do you get to rub elbows with doctors and stuff????? I think it will be very cool! I dont mind getting dressed for the event~I love any reason to SHOP...ehehehe If you wanna go, do you wanna car pool? The place is up in Monticello. I love a good party. I have never been to one with an Orchestra!! OH LA LA FANCY SCHMANCY~~~ Lemme know what cha think!!!!

Thank you all!!! Aaamom....that digital camera is sounding more and more appealing! I can't wait. Im gonna use it to tract my progress, photograph my son and to go ghost hunting....yeaaaaaaaaa bay bee..... :mad:

Hey guys...I stink at posting pictures...Its hard for me to get full body pictures...but as God as my witness I will be getting a digital camera soon~~~ I did a side by side comparison to post here (hopefully) of just after my surgery and a recent one....Soooo take a lookie...... There is a HUGE difference~~~

Stinky Wafflebrains reporting for duty~ yummy did someone say waffles????

Ewl this is ugly~ Holy Moly..... What are the chances of you just going to his office and sitting there till you see him??? Since he isn't returning your calls.....and the receptionist can't answer you....hummm too bad your all the way in Aussie...I would go with ya!!!! Maybe send a certified letter?? That way its in writing and they have to sign for the letter, proving they got it???

Francesca... Im sorry to hear your losing your band. That sucks! Maybe in the future you could be rebanded? Maybe you wont need to be in the future~ Good luck to you!!

AWE WHIPPLE....Thats so sweet...your right, I did join in January...Im sorry but if its not right infront of me every day, I tend to not retain things so good~ But your here now and your an awesomely strong person!! And you ride a BIKE what could be cooler than that!!! Looking forward to many more great conversations with you!!!!

Thanks for the compliments guys!!! I feel soooo much better and feel sooo much more sexy~~ (Thats why I did this right? ) And Jorjet, look at you going to Aruba~~ Have an awesome time!!!

OH MY GOD WHO ARE YOU!!!! YOU ARE TOO FUNNY!! I dont think you and I bumped into each other here before - I certainly would have remembered you!! I have only lost half of what you have and I am getting that "bowl full of jello" feeling. I feel squishy...

TOOO FUNNY~ Who ever created spandex should have a lobodomy!! Well, actually I have to admit, it does come in handy in girdles, and stockings...Spandex is quite useful UNDER regular clothes...holds it all together....

Wow....this was very very powerful~ Thank you for sharing it. I can relate to so many parts of this. But as I read it, I dont see the "murderer" that you mentioned. I see and hear about a HERO...Someone saving themselves! Every super hero has some sort of tool belt....Batman had that tool belt, WonderWoman had the bullet deflecting bracelettes...You and I have the BAND.... Congratulations on your sucesses!!

I have never used any fat blockers....but did you ever eat them chips by Frito Lay I believe....they have Olean in them? Some sort of fancy schmancy oil that your body doesn't absorb...so guess where it goes??? Out the other end......and your poopin all the time....Soo i would assume that the fat blockers would cause pretty much the same responce....NO THANK YOU~~~ phew~~~