ponyuptexas

You will not give it up you will only have to find a way to do it differently. At first you will not be able to drink that much because of the swelling but soon after your surgery you will be able to drink your gallon. The hardest part for me was to stop drinking with my meals.

so let me start off by saying that i know what i've done is terrible so please don't kick me while i'm already down. i feel terrible, both physically and mentally. i have eaten horribly the last two days. i am 2 months out and my ride has been up and down constantly. i keep thinking "is this what my life will be like until i die". and if so what have i done?!?! i had lots of trouble with getting in food and liquids for a while. and then, literally, overnight it was better. i could eat and not feel like i had swallowed a rock. liquids are another story. can't stand the taste of Water (anyone else have this problem and if so does it go away???) and can't stomach anything artificial (crystal light...) I was getting anywhere from 70-85grams Protein which is plenty according to my nut. then i started with acid symptoms. my doc put me on 2xday protonix about a week ago. for the last 2 weeks i have had waves of nausea that has kept me from eating next to nothing. then yesterday i didn't have the nausea and i made the worst food choices- the worst being a donut. i ate the whole thing. not at one time of course but i still ate the whole darn thing. then today i ate 2 reeses Peanut Butter hearts and a few hershey kisses. oh and a few Jello jigglers i made for my kids. full sugar versions! i'm not drinking my Protein shakes in the morning like i have been. mostly because i am so nauseous when i wake up. i know that really gets me off on the wrong foot each day. seems like that big burst of Protein in the morning just sets the tone for the whole day. the good in all of this came at about 6pm. i had to go to kohl's to grab something for my kid and i decided to look in the "big girls" section for a shirt. nothing fit in the plus size. i could hardly believe it! i actually HAVE to shop in the regular ladies sized now- bought 2 shirts: 1 was an xl and one was a Lg. so apparently i fell off the wagon with my eating and most of all my attitude about what goes in my mouth. my day will start with a shake tomorrow and good choices for the rest of the day! because nothing tastes as good as buying new clothes in normal sizes feels. i actually had choices to make as far as what to buy when before i was just getting what fit without hugging too many fat rolls. i know i am human and will make mistakes in the future but i have to remember what my goal is and the extremes i've gone to with this surgery to make that happen. i just hope i didn't hurt my belly with my 2 days of bad choices!
tomorrow is a new day!

Tomorrow I start my pre op diet with surgery on the 28th. I am going to take pre op measurements and try not to jump on the scale everyday. Guess we just have to remember that we didn't gain this overnight and we certainly won't loose it over night. I'll have to remind myself to go back and read this when I'm not loosing like I want. Lol

Are you getting all your Protein? Your body is adapting, keep in mind that this is a process, if you loose "only" an average 2 pounds a week that will still be 104 pounds in a year!! Keep chigging away at it you will get there.
Be kind to yourself!

Oh yes the feeling of satisfaction that comes with chugging a big glass of cold Water, or iced tea. I miss that more than anything. I try to fool myself by getting a big mouth full and swallowing a little at a time, but it still not the same, I am SO excited to think there maybe hope!
Thanks for sharing your journey.
Laurie

Oh yes the feeling of satisfaction that comes with chugging a big glass of cold Water, or iced tea. I miss that more than anything. I try to fool myself by getting a big mouth full and swallowing a little at a time, but it still not the same, I am SO excited to think there maybe hope!
Thanks for sharing your journey.
Laurie