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TheCurvyJones

Gastric Sleeve Patients
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  1. TheCurvyJones
    Hi. Welcome to my quest.
     
    I turned 38 on March 25th at a whopping 273 lbs-- the heaviest I have ever been on my birthday. I dieted down to about 243 by June 1.... and then bounced between 243 and 238 ever since. As of this moment I am sure I am over 250.
     
    I have been fat since my teens, so a very long time. I have been as low as 218, but I haven't seen that number since the end of 2007. I haven't been under 200 lbs since I was in high school.
     
    On top of that, I am legally blind and I wear very thick glasses. I am awkward, shy, and painfully introverted. A fun night in is a bowl of popcorn and a good book or all my internet buddies. I know nothing about makeup and most days I don't give a crap what I look like. I don't date at all. Men aren't interested in me even if I wanted to date, so that makes it easy to just not care.
     
    I am scheduled for Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy on December 21, 2012. I've told myself that I have a bit over a year to get my act together and be 'fahn'-- not pretty, not 'okay if you're looking at her from far away', not 'well the fat one has a pretty face', not 'would be so pretty if she was thin'-- FAHN. It's a word that my friends and I use when we mean more than pretty, more than beautiful, more than hot, more than sexy.
     
    FAHN. By 40. I will be there.
     
    Since I have a bit of time before my surgery and I am ANXIOUS about it, I need a project to distract me. I am going through things I want to do to make changes and one of those things is my face. Well, the skin on it. I have facial hair, I have melasma (dark brown patch on my cheek), I have stubby eyelashes, I don't wear makeup and I don't really give a second thought to what my brows look like. Tangentially my hair is frequently just in a ponytail. I don't do anything to it and rarely have the desire to. So to distract myself I am working a bit on my appearance while I prep for life changing surgery.
     
    I have ordered a Clarisonic Mia and I'll be tracking it in Nov to see if things improve on my face. I am also looking to get a scrip for Vaniqua so that I can start stunting the growth of hair. Drinking more water to make sure my skin stays clear, once I get it there. And in general starting to care about myself and my appearance.
     
    My dad was recently in town and preached to me about loving myself. I'm trying, dad. Working on it.
     
    A few befores. May I never be this fat again. I'm the one in orange/ the one in the long dress w/blue sweater
     

  2. TheCurvyJones
    I got.......a lotta packages yesterday. An Unjury sample pack, Celebrate vitamin thingys you put in water (I HATE pills, they stink, the smell makes me vom) and some biotin. I shoved it all in a corner cause I had it all shipped to work. Didn't have the chance to look thru anything but I will take a look tonight.
     
    I contacted the loan people cause I hadn't got my final docs yet. She said they don't usually look at files before they are 45 days out from surgery so they would probably look at it next week. And I think my birth certificate is on the way finally so I can get my passport.
     
    Trying the vitamin water additive thingy today. They make water taste so... vitaminy.
     
    Last night I met a friend for dinner but I was still 'practicing' my liquid diet. I had a few bites of Caesar salad and some tomato soup. Other than that I have been liquid since Sunday. I am not too jazzed about eating lunch-- I have some broth here and an Atkins shake, but I might pick up some baked chicken for dinner. I don't want to 'not eat' for 45 days.
     
    Hope to chat with my boss today about surgery and then I will reserve my airfare while I have the cash.
  3. TheCurvyJones
    239.2
    It;s been forever since I saw a number that started in 23- that stayed for very long. I hit it very briefly in June but my weight bounced right back up as soon as I came off of the restrictive Whole 30 plan. It never went back down there.
    The lowest I've seen in recent years is about 235. Once I get past that point, it will be like breaking new ground. In 2007 I was able to get down to 218... once I see 217, I might do backflips.
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    Forgot to mention that my weigh in yesterday was 247.0, down from 251. Not too shabby. I did very well on the test days. Next week I'll probably do Sunday - Wednesday. Eating is so much less stressful when i don't really have to think about it. I think I may actually enjoy the 10 day liquid diet!
     
    Spoke with my lender yesterday and verified all the loan info. He said it will fund a couple of weeks before surgery, so around the first week in December! w00t!
     
    Till then I am just really trying not to buy a ton of stuff until I come back. Who knows what I will actually use/need/like and I don't want to waste money. Right now, just concentrating on getting to surgery.
     
    I told my boss yesterday (one of the two people ONLY) that I am going to tell about surgery) and he's excited.
     
    44 days!
  5. TheCurvyJones
    46 Days. Yes I have a countdown timer on my phone and my iPad. I need to know exactly how many days I have to procrastinate getting anything done in time for surgery.
     
    I can think of NOTHING else right now. Everything revolves around Dec 21st. I've given myself a couple of projects to keep me occupied so I am not sitting at home staring at 4 walls, willing time to move forward. Lots of boards to read and things I need to get and lists to make.
     
    I am practicing the liquid diet right now. I need to ease into these things so yesterday and today I am liquid. Next week I will do three days and the following four days etc. I start the liquid diet on Dec 101, I believe. Plenty of time to ramp down. I would actually like to hit the table in the 230's. I am not required to lose any weight but I would just feel more comfy on the plane if I dropped a little bit.
  6. TheCurvyJones
    I had a pretty good day, a little rough. I have had a cough/tickle in my throat since Friday from the tube being down my throat. I don't have surgery related pains but coughing HURTS as do these damn hiccups I have had since last Saturday. I have been go go go since I got home, trying to take advantage of feeling so good. Most people say they feel like ass and have no energy for at least a few weeks but I feel really good. Am not having many eating issues, just the constant being aware of how may grams of protein I have consumed and how many I have yet to get in. Seems like I will be doing okay but then I realize it has taken a half hour to get basically nowhere on a bottle of water.
     
    Today I had a few moments of OH MY GOD I AM TIRED and some light headedness so I planted my ass and sat all day. My mom says I am doing too much. I ain't done **** but walk and shop and (drink) eat and watch TV.
     
    I'm also learning that I have to get out of the habit of taking extra food because I'm afraid there won't be enough food wherever I am. I bought two bowls of chicken noodle soup to strain the noodles and veggies out of it. I just barely got down one serving of that. WHY IN HELL was I dragging around another bowl of soup, jello, some juice and some Crystal light? Like I can eat all of that??
    Anyhoo, I'm home now and have taken meds and me and Jelly are SKRAIT CHILLIN.
  7. TheCurvyJones
    40 days to surgery.... and I've been keeping myself busy so that time doesn't stand still.
     
    Keeping up with caring for my skin, trying to improve it. My Clarisonic Mia came in and i've used it twice. pretty cool. Using my Ambi and Garnier lightening creme on the dark spot on my face. Not seeing much yet but it's been just a week, so I have a ways to go before I see something.
     
    My parents are coming to visit next month... they said they were coming, I just wasn't sure when or IF they were coming for sure. They will spend Christmas Eve and Day with me and then go spend time with my Aunt and the rest of the family. They live south of town, about 45 minutes from me. I didn't even have a bed for the guest room so I had to scramble to order something. I also ordered a table and some chairs since I didn't have that either. I'll be putting that together this week and finishing up the bedroom.
     
    That will be RIGHT AFTER surgery! My mom had Bypass in 2001 so she gets that I don't plan on being the life of the party. At least I will get to see them. I have no idea what to get to have here at the house... I won't be able to eat any of it.
     
    Is it bad that I am kind of relieved? I don't really like holiday food. I stuff myself with the few options that I like and then hate myself for it. This year I won't be able to do that.
     
    Anyway, on with the preparation...I tried the Celebrate NS vitamin powder you mix in with a drink........ewwwwwww. no. No way I am doing that twice a day. As far as I can tell, Dr Alvarez only requires his patients to take a multivitamin. I got some Wellesse liquid multi and also one with vitamin c and D vitamin, and also some liquid protein. I figure I'll take all of that that I can get and if I can add it to something else, that would be great.
     
    I ordered a couple of genie bras, an electric kettle (for making unjury protein soup) and a cup warmer to keep it warm since it gets cold so fast. I also ordered a warming pad... is that what you call it? I can't remember. I got one, anyway. I want to also get a binder because I heard that it helps, especially when on the plane.
     
    I am liquid dieting Sunday through Wednesday this week. Actually I started yesterday but I went to brunch first. Dinner was soup and later on I had an Atkins shake and I've been drinking my water. Thursday is our company Thanksgiving dinner and I want to have some of that but I will probably get back on mostly liquids. I still want to hit the 230's by the time I get on the plane. I will be on full liquids by December 10th.
  8. TheCurvyJones
    Yes scales. I have two. One is to double check the other in case it's off. :ph34r:
     
    So, I have been stalking the post op forums and there is so much angst over ONLY having lost an awesome number of pounds in a very short time. I know myself and I am sure I could get very obsessed about the numbers, especially if they aren't going to drop like I want them to. My body does not like to subscribe to my goals. I'll get close to a goal by a certain point and then gain 3 lbs.
     
    I feel like what I want to focus on after surgery is being able to fit into clothes I can't wear right now. Feeling good, being healthy, being able to exercise without pain. I don't want to focus on the numbers because I know I will obsess.
     
    Maybe I will just take them downstairs...........
     
    27 days from today. WOW.

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