Hello Ms.
okay, ummm... I want to be very honest as you have been.. You are known for eating a lot and not caring if you're thin or not. You are unsure if you want to have surgery------> I think you might need to talk to your surgeon and reschedule your surgery date for another day. You need to think long and hard if this is what you want. Let me tell you there is not one person here that has regretted this amazing new lifestyle, but I agree with you, if this isn't what you want, PLEASE don't make the mistake of going thru with it. Here's what I deal with: protein shakes, 2-4oz of food! compared to the full entree, I used to eat. I still get embarrased when my bf and I go out to eat because he's still eating and I'm done eating haha, also; there are a lot of food restrictions your body will not tolerate. For example for me: boiled/steamed veggies, any meat, and; rice, pastas, breads! within months we'll be able to eat these foods, but I'm choosing to be vegan as for I just decided I didn't need to eat meat.
see what I mean, and a lot of us any like this!! So make sure you do it for you and not your parents!
best of luck!!!