I'm 29 years old and am scheduled to have surgery on October 31st. I'm both nervous and excited, like most I'm sure. My surgery will be done by Dr. Allain at Woman's Hospital in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. My current weight is 350 pounds at 5'6.
I will have to do a two week pre-op diet. The thing I am most nervous about the diet is that I will be traveling for four days of the diet. My husband is worried that traveling for work while doing this diet will be too stressful, but I'm choosing to look at it as a challenge. If I can't do this for 2 weeks, how am I going to manage this change for the rest of my life. So I'm going to give it all I've got!
I'm getting to the point where I can't help but think of all the things I'd like to eat before. I've been reading here for a few weeks now and it seems to be a fairly normal thought process. I'm trying my best to keep a firm grip on reality and address my food issues now rather than later. It's a long hard and painful look inside. I've been over weight since I was a small child and have a hard time imaging myself being any other way. The thought of being healthy brings me tears of happiness.
My husband and I hope this will increase our chances of having a baby as well and increase the chances of the pregnancy being a good one. I know whatever God has in store will be meant to be.
I've debated again and again if I should tell people about my decision to have WLS. Everyone I have told has been extremely supportive. So many people I have known have kept it a secret until after they started losing weight. Part of me can't help but feel embarrassed because its what feels natural and another parts wants to educate those around me and allow them to see my journey and be proud of this decision. Share with them my story and how hard it can be and what drives a person to the point of this drastic decision. For those here who have shared there journey, thank you! It's factual, inspiring and real! Behind every word is a person, thinking, feeling, experiencing or looking for a change.
These are just a few of the things that are whirling around in my mind as October 31st approaches. I'm not looking for judgement or to be judged, so please be kind. Any thoughts are welcome. I've seen some really great support on this site, and look forward to receiving the same. For me, this was the hardest choice I have ever made. I pray still that it is the right choice for me and my family.
