Well I was so excited to get a surgery date . I really wanted it this year , before Christmas and now I'm really scared and want to back out . I'm scared of the pain of the surgery , I was actually ok until I had my appointment with the anaesthetist today. I've had three yer to get myself mentally prepared for this . Some of his off hand comments have unsettled me . He asked about the state of my veins as " big girls like me " usually have notoriously trouble some veins .
He also told me the surgery would take 4 hours and that I would be on morphine for 24 hours . Is that normal ?