stephwb

I have not been able to update do to health and accessibility.
thank you for all the well wishes. It was confirmed today that I do indeed have a leak. it is small and the want it to heal on it's own so I will remain in the hospital 4-6 weeks and live on IV Fluid and nutrition. I will not be allowed to take anything by mouth in that time. I can live with out food if i could just have some sips of Water or even an ice chip. I was feeling guilty about having the surgery and putting my family through this, i felt selfish as it was for wanting to have the surgery but my beloved husband said " Why would you ever feel selfish for making yourself better. Even though it doesn't seem like you are making yourself better at the time, you have to realize that it takes 4-6 weeks to recover from most surgerys anyways and you would need us to do all that we are doing now. the only difference we get some extra help from the nurses instead of re couping at home but we can bring anything from home you want(minus my bed which is what i complain about the most) " Looking it at it from that view makes alot of sense , but I have such an amazing family that has already dived in got it all planned out . I am going to stop feeling guilty that I had an elective surgery and look at it as I had a life saving surgery and it will take me 4-6 weeks to heal :wub: