Lisa Curry

So I have been having my food funeral for a few days. to be honest, at first I was excited, I was gonna eat whatever and not feel guilty. Im not really feeling guilty, but I have been eating healthy for so long that I feel like crap. Im tried, unmotivated and just want to take a nap. Which, in my life does not work! I have 5 kids ranging from 6 to 17. I am taxiing tham daily and I need my energy! So it was fun for a few days but im over it ..lol I know that im not going to go back to salads and all the perfectly wonderful healthy things for the next 3 weeks but im definatly going to chill out a bit.. its amazing how what you put in your body effects how you feel on the outside..

So I only have five more days until my surgery if you don't count today or the day of surgery Yesterday I did all my pre-op testing at the hospital Lutheran Medical Center. I am sad to say the I have succumb to the "Last Meal Syndrome" I have gained 10lbs since my last MD visit 7 weeks ago. So instead of losing weight like every normal person does I have gained. (Story of my life). What is wrong with me? Why do I have this self sabotage mentality? My pre-op diet isn't even bad. Its not a liquid diet, just low fat and I still couldn't stick to it faithfully. Ugh, so disgusted with myself. I am going to start my own liquid diet tomorrow hoping to drop at least 5 lbs before surgery.
 
Maybe instead of the Gastric Sleeve I should get a lobotomy because I think that may help more...lol...
 
Please keep me in your prayers. Pray that I can keep my damn mouth shut for the next 5 days oh and that I don't die on the table.