juny

i'm still preop, but i thought i'd share my goal: pick up a pencil off the floor w/o that move...you know the one, the sitting splits or the wobble to the left so i can bend far enough to pick it up...yeah...that's my goal. I don't have a goal weight, I just want to pick up a pencil.

I've past the excited and positive outlook stage as well. I"m in the 'trying not to talk myself out of it' phase. I know this is what I want but there's a lot of fear and doubt creeping in and with the understanding that the next 3 months may just suck...it's no wonder this is no trip to disney for me.

My last weigh in on the supervised diet was 5lbs heavier than the month before. Now i'm 7lbs heavier than that....I know this and even though it upsets me I've been pigging out of the skinny cow caramels. I think I'm just completely stressed out over the upcoming surgery and food makes me feel better...and then worse because it's not really helping w/ the whole losing weight thing....

I totally understand, my preop liquid diet starts in a couple weeks and instead of staying on the diet I told myself I was, I've basically been having dessert every other night or so. I'm feeling very out of control at the moment. If there was cake here, I'd be eating it as well. I'm right there w/ you, good luck!

I didn't think of myself as a food funeral kind of person, but lately I've been eating a lot. I'm trying to keep it under control but the closer i get to the liquid diet stage, I'm feeling less in control of what i'm eating...anyone else have this issue?

My doctors recommend taking someone to the preop meeting where they discuss everything and sign all the releases. I won't be bringing anyone. My nut said if my mom wasn't going to be supportive the last thing she'd do is bring her to the last meeting before the surgery because they talk about the diet, operation, and risks. All she'll hear are the risks and that's not going to be helpful to me in the 2 weeks between the preop and the actual surgery date. I am very disappointed about that. I think I'm going to be the only person there in the preop class by myself. I'm so disappointed in her that she can't help me when I actually need her. On to Protein shakes, I found the walmart brand very gritty and tasted funny (price was great though, like $15). I liked muscle milk but was told there were too many carbs. On I went to muscle milk light which was better, but I ended up on Isopure (pricey of course $40-47) because it had more protein and not gritty. I don't really like the taste of vanilla so all my stuff was chocolate. I bought

I totally get it. I'm in the same boat, my mom tells me that i'm going to be sorry that I got this surgery. I don't know how major surgery to remove 85% of someone's stomach and being on a liquid/soft food diet for 2-3 months is taking the easy way out. I did the 6 month diet, and guess what...I'm gaining again because this is how it always is whenever I diet, I lose some weight, I stall, I wobble, and then I start creeping up again. In the 4 month wait for a surgery date after the diet I've gained 10-12lbs of the 35 I lost. This is why we need the surgery. I dont think you're prepared to give up and this surgery is not giving up. It's making the choice to get better. None of us are choosing this surgery because it's easy or going to solve every problem we have. It is something that may turn the tables from having no control to being in control of the food. I'm counting on that chance to help me get better and get past my own food/weight issues. We are going to be fine and when our families see how much better we are, I'm totally going to rub it in.....yeah...i really am and it's going to be fabulous!

Feb 5, time is moving really fast over here.

I'm under a year at my job, I started in April. I would be covered by fmla by then but i'd still have to use all my pto until my fmla kicks in, no point when I can just save my time off and then 6 weeks after I get back from work my pto resets. Yay me!

My doctor recommends 3-4 weeks off which isn't going to happen. I've got 2 weeks vacation time and I'm using all of it.

Did a 6month supervised diet. I have aetna pos (its an h m o). $45 copays. My deductible is $1000 and $2500 out of pocket maximum. I was told when I called aetna the total I'd be responsible for is $3500. was $1000 more than I expected but I didn't expect this to be free.....

I never heard of them having their surgery date cancelled. I thought they just made you drink the stuff that cleaned you out...

I totally get this feeling. I did the supervised diet with all kinds of excitement and determination. But after it ended and I still had 4 months to get a surgery date, my excitement is gone and it's been replaced by anxiousness and a whole lot of "what am i doing!" I'm doing this don't get me wrong but right now I'm just trying to make it to surgery day w/ my sanity intact.

I started my process back in May. I was absolutely ready to do this thing from June through the end of October.....It's not that I doubt myself on needing the surgery but it's just got me feeling like I need to be doing or buying something to get ready. I'm not having food funerals necessarily. I am having wine once a week instead of once a month because I know for a good while it's just not happening. I am doing things just not binging and I'm working out 4-5 days a week. Now I'm more anxious than anything. Do you feel ready?

There's a range of symptoms, in the book the doc's office gave me: it can include flu like symptoms including a fever and increased heart/respiratory rate. Only a doctor can diagnose a leak. Soreness may just be a result of them jabbing your midsection with a poker....no forum takes the place of a real diagnosis, if you're worried call your dr's office asap

when you click on the link that brings you to the group, look on the upper right side for a 'join group' button, I think it's black.

Just keep in mind a pound is 3500 calories. You can't possibly have eaten 10,500 calories to gain the weight on what you've been eating probably.

I've got an aetna ***. I'm worried about how much it's going to cost. the cost last year was 18k for the procedure. I have a 1500 deductible and I'm not sure how to ask how much it's going to cost. They haven't talked about pricing at all. I just don't want to get the surgery and figure out that they were out of network. I mean, I got the letter of approval but I'm not sure if that really means coverage. Feels a little ridiculous to be this close and not know these things. since when is h m o a dirty word?

I've gained 8lbs since my supervised diet and was told by the nut that the doctor didn't like it when people gained. Well...sorry about that....I lost 35lbs and gained 8....yeah...If this was easy I wouldn't need the surgery. I did better than I thought I would over the holidays. I'm trying to keep a lid on going wild but I'm not necessarily doing a big diet before the surgery either. I had the 6 month diet that ended in october and they couldn't schedule me until february....I can't help that there's 4 months there where I'm just drifting. I had a lot of enthusiasm a few months ago but that has gone and is replaced by a gnawing sense of trepidation. This is going to be hard and for a few months it's probably going to be downright unpleasant. But I'm ready to do this come february.

My date is Feb. 5, in Northwest Indiana. I started last May. I'm more anxious than anything. I wish I'd been able to get in over the holidays when I was still feeling like I was on the wagon w/ the diet and everything.

happy to help I'm actually quite happy most days, but like you some days....just suck. I get it

if you're using insurance to get your wls, be prepared to wait. Many insurance companies require a 3-6 month supervised diet before they submit a letter for approval. I started w/ a seminar in may, I'm due to get my surgery the first week of february. Be prepared to wait! edit- of course I say this now.....watch your company not have a diet requirement at all.

This is a post I could have written. I know right now things are hard for you. Sounds like your whole month sucked. I often feel quite alone and wonder how so many women on these boards ended up with husbands seeing as I currently can't even manage a boyfriend. I've built the walls between myself and others. Granted I've never been a social butterfly but there are times when I feel like I've got nothing compared to everyone else and their fabulously developed support systems. I'm working on it though and so are you. I suspect this next month you're going to get your second opinion and be happier for it. Sounds like you have a plan for your diet and exercise and I hope those go well for you. You're not alone here and I can guarantee you're on someone's mind. pm if you like, i've got quiet nights in spades usually.

I love this forum, this encouragement has been so welcome. I know you're all right, sometimes it's just hard to see it when your facing something that on your own seems so daunting. I'm getting the surgery, I can't imagine not going through w/ it. Whenever I waiver I come to the forums and there's always something here that's insightful or enlightening. I feel so much better.

Thanks for the encouragement, it's so welcome right now. It's just been hard. Part of me doesn't want this month to go by fast at all and the other wants this month over tomorrow so I can just get past the surgery hurdle. I think once it's done, it will be easier on everyone to deal w/ the reality of it instead of what might happen.