RP713

It is the DAY BEFORE my surgery and I was woken up this morning with a call stating I did not get my pre-op testing fully done. So as instructed I rushed in to the hospital and got my chest x-ray needed (which was clear!) and it was immediately sent to my surgeon. I never go this particular paper attached in my pre-op packet they sent (their fault), and they wait until TODAY to confront me with this when I was in their office last week. So that's taken care of. Fine. Next thing my primary doc who has been pushing for me to get this for over a year REFUSES to give me clearance to my surgeon's office, becuase he WRONGLY marked my appointment with him the previous week as a follow up, and not a pre-op clearance. He also marked down that I had bronchitis? Which is complete bullshit becuase he never listened to my chest nor asked me anything about how I was feeling, just went over pre-op bloodwork for the surgery. So not only did they put down the wrong reason for me being there, but put down a bullshit diagnosis!, which is obviously false due to the x-ray. The receptionist refuses to let me talk with him and will not tell me why only to come to the appointment on Monday. She doesn't care that I have a life changing surgery tomorrow and I haven't ate anything for 2 damn weeks. The only thing I can think of is the x-ray which I tell them to look up becuase it was immediately faxed to them as well. They refuse becuase the doc is "busy". I have been trying to get this surgery for 5 years. I haven't ate solids in 2 weeks, in fact today I haven't ate anything becuase I've been so upset. Why bother? I don't want shitty food to gain weight again. I spent all my money on Protein Drinks and Soups for post surgery and I can't afford to get more. I have nothing, and now a an error on my doctor's side that is caught the day before surgery makes it so my surgery is void. I give up trying. I have severe depressive and anxiety disorder and it took me so much to get here. I have no other plans. I have no money. I'd have to do this hell ass liquid diet again. I would be lying if I said that ending it all hadn't been on my mind a few times today.
I guess this will be my last post here unless a miracle happens, becuase I'm done with this heartbreak. I've worked so hard and obviously if after 5 years of working to try to get this surgery it gets ruined like this, it wasn't meant to be.

Hi all. Surgery Tues 9/26 so 4 days out. Still trouble getting 64 Fluid in. 45-50 yes. Started Protein Shakes today and had diarreah. Don't know if is related. More pain in incision area today and more weak than yestrday. Not able to do full half hour walk but I did get few little walks in. Tire easily. Am going to Irish festival tomorrow to watch and enjoy. Will of course bring my Water, Protein and walk often. All in all think I'm doing well and looking forward. All of your posts have been so helpful. Thanks for sharing them and good luck everyone as we tread and skip through this exciting journey.

I'm actually feeling pretty good. I believe I am ready to go to the next stage so I'm going to test it tomorrow. Drinking good and am able to get in two 8ounce Protein Shakes plus broth and Water and other liquids. The diet can get confusing at times. I notified many of us have different ways of doing it. Just following my paperwork :-) how about you?