augustkiwi

hi everyone! IM SO NERVOUS....im 26 y/o texas girl...364 lbs (weighed by primary care doc at beginning of month) at first i used to be ashamed to admit my weight but hell...im here for a reason and that's to be the biggest loser i can be doc put me on a 1600 calorie diet..and i lost 10 lbs already...um..my bmi is 57 uuuuuugh.. semi short story: which i posted on my profile but ill tell here too, had the nutritionist call me 2 weeks ago to schedule my first appt with her for today 10/20 @ 5pm for my first class..its super hard for me to schedule days off work so i put in the request to get of early and make up my time this Saturday. they (BaylorWorx) called me yesterday to confirm my appt for today..i called back..no answer left message to say 'yes im coming' get there today (after leaving work early) for them to tell me im too early..ok no biggie..i like being early anyway..so then 30 minutes later they call me back and say 'whats your name' i tell them...they say 'i dont show that you are scheduled' i said um yes i am..they said 'are you sure' i said yes, i have the msg on my phone..so i play the voicemail so they can hear my confirmation (so glad i save msgs) they call the coordinator on her cell and she says i have no classes today...come to find out, they claim the assistant who called me to confirm didnt put me in the system so the nutritionist lady went home...so they have to call me tomorrow to reschedule..they apologized and said my real '1st class/appt' will be free of charge..o whatever!!! that right there made me bust out in tears once i made it to my car..i dont know why...i was just so frustrated..i called my mom and boyfriend just crying my heart out..im somewhat over it...i realized that i made such an effort to organize everything i even have a book i labeled WLS journey documenting who i speak to, their number, time i called outcome of call, appt date, and time and they throw a monkey wrench in my plans...guess i really do need therapy..whew..i really needed to get that off my chest...pray for me guys...im only in the 1st month of this 6 month journey and im already breaking down...but im a strong girl..i got this!! ... im not sure if this question(s) has been asked and replied to and if so could you point me in the right direction? ok ready..here goes ... i have a psych eval next Thursday and i'm kind of nervous to see what she will ask or expect me to say...i'm not crazy and I've fully made up my mind that WLS is something i want to do..so if that's all she wants to know i guess im good to go lol but i wanted to see what you all have experienced...the good, bad, and ugly (yikes) sleep study appt next Tuesday which is more of a consultation i think...eh..so i guess they will see if i have sleep apnea..all i know is..i snore..BAD... thanks for reading..

so its been about 1 week exactly since my 1st appt/consultation with Dr. Graham (who will also be my surgeon here in Waxahachie Tx ) and i have been doing fairly well on my 1600 calorie diet...super hard the first few days but im really getting the hang of it. bought some shakes and healthy choice for lunch and big ol case of water. i have actually been drinking nothing but water for 2+months now and i feel good about that. yay me!! got an appt set for next thursday 10/20 for my 1st nutrition/dietician class 10/25 my sleep apnea consultation (i dont think i have sleep apnea...i just snore..BAD lol) 10/27 my pysch evaluation.... so everything is starting to line up.....pray that my job doesnt try to lay me off like they have been doing recently so that i can keep my wonderful insurance and continue this amazing journey!!!! wish i knew other ppl that are on this same path as me but im sure ill meet folks along the way --thanks 4 reading

i started my journey on 10/6/2011 the day i was scheduled for my consultation with my bariatric doctor Dr. Andre Graham ...actually my primary care physician referred me to him because i of course am overweight with a BMI of 57, recently diagnosed with diabetes. high blood pressure, leg swelling, PCOS..just to name a few...i never considered weight loss surgery because i thought it was something i could do on my own with diet and exercise..for one i was active since the day i was born through out high school and then when college time came i of course put on the freshmen 15+++ i really dont know what happened honestly! so i have been battling obesity for 9 years..which is not alot according to some but it was enough for me... i was married, then divorced (happily btw lol) no kids...moved away from my hometown and moved to Dallas where things just spiraled out of control...fast forward my current boyfriend had a major scare and ended up in the hospital due to medical conditions related to his heart and weight and at that moment a light bulb clicked over me and i was like...this could be me...made a doctors appt and low and be hold found out things i didnt know i had...losing weight is a roller coaster..up down up down and uuuuuup..never able to lose more than 6-10 pounds at a time! so super frustrating. left dr grahams office with a smile on my face knowing that the end of my struggles is right around the corner. i know its going to be hard work before during and after but this is something i HAVE to do for myself..and i will do it! my insurance is really good so i know it wont be that financially binding for me thank GOD.. look forward to seeing my own progress my family is very supportive and my mom is already ready to come take care of me after surgery lol