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WOW. Bless your husband who I can imagin had his whole world turn on its head thinking he may loose you. This experience can only bring a deeper apprciation for the two of you.

Just got off the phone with my mom.....there is nothing like talking to my mommy, its amazing. I'm 43 years old and mom is still sunshine in a bottle to me. She was soothing and said some of the same things ya'll said too. She made me promise to take a walk tomorrow for 10 minutes at least and that I would feel the sunshine on my face and enjoy the Florida weather and that I'd end up walking longer and not even notice. What idiot would jump in front of a bus on purpose? That's what I feel like when I'm binge eating. I've got to stop the madness now what you guys posted and my mom just gave me that encouragement.
I pledge to walk tomorrow as promised to my mom. Eat only Proteins and drink my Water, so help me my Lord and Savior. I must get through tomorrow.....24 hours is all,right?..Yes, just focus on 24 hours...one hour at a time...... I feel like I'm a crack addict or something.
I'll post my progress tomorrow just to keep me honest. Thank you ya'll.

Just got off the phone with my mom.....there is nothing like talking to my mommy, its amazing. I'm 43 years old and mom is still sunshine in a bottle to me. She was soothing and said some of the same things ya'll said too. She made me promise to take a walk tomorrow for 10 minutes at least and that I would feel the sunshine on my face and enjoy the Florida weather and that I'd end up walking longer and not even notice. What idiot would jump in front of a bus on purpose? That's what I feel like when I'm binge eating. I've got to stop the madness now what you guys posted and my mom just gave me that encouragement.
I pledge to walk tomorrow as promised to my mom. Eat only Proteins and drink my Water, so help me my Lord and Savior. I must get through tomorrow.....24 hours is all,right?..Yes, just focus on 24 hours...one hour at a time...... I feel like I'm a crack addict or something.
I'll post my progress tomorrow just to keep me honest. Thank you ya'll.

Just got off the phone with my mom.....there is nothing like talking to my mommy, its amazing. I'm 43 years old and mom is still sunshine in a bottle to me. She was soothing and said some of the same things ya'll said too. She made me promise to take a walk tomorrow for 10 minutes at least and that I would feel the sunshine on my face and enjoy the Florida weather and that I'd end up walking longer and not even notice. What idiot would jump in front of a bus on purpose? That's what I feel like when I'm binge eating. I've got to stop the madness now what you guys posted and my mom just gave me that encouragement.
I pledge to walk tomorrow as promised to my mom. Eat only Proteins and drink my Water, so help me my Lord and Savior. I must get through tomorrow.....24 hours is all,right?..Yes, just focus on 24 hours...one hour at a time...... I feel like I'm a crack addict or something.
I'll post my progress tomorrow just to keep me honest. Thank you ya'll.

Just got off the phone with my mom.....there is nothing like talking to my mommy, its amazing. I'm 43 years old and mom is still sunshine in a bottle to me. She was soothing and said some of the same things ya'll said too. She made me promise to take a walk tomorrow for 10 minutes at least and that I would feel the sunshine on my face and enjoy the Florida weather and that I'd end up walking longer and not even notice. What idiot would jump in front of a bus on purpose? That's what I feel like when I'm binge eating. I've got to stop the madness now what you guys posted and my mom just gave me that encouragement.
I pledge to walk tomorrow as promised to my mom. Eat only Proteins and drink my Water, so help me my Lord and Savior. I must get through tomorrow.....24 hours is all,right?..Yes, just focus on 24 hours...one hour at a time...... I feel like I'm a crack addict or something.
I'll post my progress tomorrow just to keep me honest. Thank you ya'll.

Just got off the phone with my mom.....there is nothing like talking to my mommy, its amazing. I'm 43 years old and mom is still sunshine in a bottle to me. She was soothing and said some of the same things ya'll said too. She made me promise to take a walk tomorrow for 10 minutes at least and that I would feel the sunshine on my face and enjoy the Florida weather and that I'd end up walking longer and not even notice. What idiot would jump in front of a bus on purpose? That's what I feel like when I'm binge eating. I've got to stop the madness now what you guys posted and my mom just gave me that encouragement.
I pledge to walk tomorrow as promised to my mom. Eat only Proteins and drink my Water, so help me my Lord and Savior. I must get through tomorrow.....24 hours is all,right?..Yes, just focus on 24 hours...one hour at a time...... I feel like I'm a crack addict or something.
I'll post my progress tomorrow just to keep me honest. Thank you ya'll.

WOW. Bless your husband who I can imagin had his whole world turn on its head thinking he may loose you. This experience can only bring a deeper apprciation for the two of you.

Hi Christina,
Wow this is really a heavy load you are carrying. I know what food used to do for me before my sleeve and wonder if your husband is turning to food for comfort like I did and here is a question for you, was food something that both of you did together? The eating badly kind and if yes now that your relationship with food is different is he turning to food even more. They say to sleevers that we go through a morning of sorts with food right before and new into the sleeve. I know I'm just stabbing in the dark here but maybe your husband is mourning too, he lost his partner in crime so to speak. I don't know you and I don't know your husband but I'm trying to look at your situation through a different lens for consideration.
When I was first sleeved my husband after time started to eat better because he saw how good I was doing and since I was the cook he had to eat what I ate.
Maybe you could consider going to counseling, if he doesn't want to go then you go. It will give you a professional sounding board to help sort out your feelings and help gain perspective. Praying also helps Christina. I know that in this day and age there are many that make like of this but I believe in Jesus and know that He has been there for me through my darkest of times and has pulled me through. When my husband and I have our issues about different things I pray. I pray not to change him but to help me understand, to change something in me if its to be patient etc. Somehow it works, and somehow we find ourselves in the middle, both of us feeling victorious.
Does your husband have any health problems linked to his obesity? If he does his doctor could really turn up the heat on him to get healthy.
I hope for you Christina and I will include you and your husband in my prayers.

Hi Christina,
Wow this is really a heavy load you are carrying. I know what food used to do for me before my sleeve and wonder if your husband is turning to food for comfort like I did and here is a question for you, was food something that both of you did together? The eating badly kind and if yes now that your relationship with food is different is he turning to food even more. They say to sleevers that we go through a morning of sorts with food right before and new into the sleeve. I know I'm just stabbing in the dark here but maybe your husband is mourning too, he lost his partner in crime so to speak. I don't know you and I don't know your husband but I'm trying to look at your situation through a different lens for consideration.
When I was first sleeved my husband after time started to eat better because he saw how good I was doing and since I was the cook he had to eat what I ate.
Maybe you could consider going to counseling, if he doesn't want to go then you go. It will give you a professional sounding board to help sort out your feelings and help gain perspective. Praying also helps Christina. I know that in this day and age there are many that make like of this but I believe in Jesus and know that He has been there for me through my darkest of times and has pulled me through. When my husband and I have our issues about different things I pray. I pray not to change him but to help me understand, to change something in me if its to be patient etc. Somehow it works, and somehow we find ourselves in the middle, both of us feeling victorious.
Does your husband have any health problems linked to his obesity? If he does his doctor could really turn up the heat on him to get healthy.
I hope for you Christina and I will include you and your husband in my prayers.

Awh, that's really cool Bonnie. My husband and I must be the Spanish version of you guys, lol. I know exactly what you mean about the weight and the nooky. Have fun tonight kiddos!

Wow Alex, You are a walking talking inspiration! I really needed to see your video today. Thank you for sharing yourself with the world.

Getting the sleeve works but like any gastric surgery its a tool and not a magic bullet. There are ways to cheat your sleeve and the RYN for that matter with slider foods. I've known folks who have gotten both types of WLS and gained weight back. For the RYN you have to be over 100 lbs over. Like you before the sleeve I would eat for the sake of eating and had nothing to do with being hungry. I never really was because I always ate. About 4 weeks ago I started doing that again and I gained 7 pounds. I stared to log my food intake again and that helped me a lot.
Here is what I've found; we eat for other reasons than hunger and "head hunger" is the term you see around the site best describes the feeling of wanting to eat even when you're not hungry. After surgery I didn't have the same relationship with food that I had before and I was on high for a long time. I stared going through personal stressors and guess what reared it's ugly head.....the feeling of wanting to eat, waking up and thinking what am I going to eat today....etc. Working through the mental junk is harder than any of the physical. Getting a new smaller tummy or the RYN is only one step in the weight loss journey. To bad the doctor can't take out the old tapes in your brain that tell you its okay to have that cupcake, or nothing is going to happen if you take a bite of this or that because you're in control....It always starts with just a bite and then next thing you know you've reached the bottom of the ice cream carton or there is only one slice left in the pizza box.
I'm getting long winded I know. I really understand what you are going through because I've been there. I just really want to stress to you that any WLS that you choose is not the cure all. It gives you the leverage to fight the weight but you'll need to be mentally strong too to be truly successful.

Dear Writergirl,
You sound like you are in freak-out mode and I know exactly what that feels like. It seems like an alarm went off in your head and had the WTF moment. You know yourself better than anyone else and the tricks your mind plays to justify bad behaviors. You know the answer to your question sweetheart or you wouldn't have had the WTF moment. Its great that you are in tune to yourself and picking up road hazards on your new journey.

Your tummy is 11 days old and still healing. I'd stay away from carbs that have no nutritional value. Focus on getting your Protein in through Protein shakes. Have you tried almond milk? I use it with a GNC Protein powder and really enjoy it. Just remember that although you got a new tummy the old tapes in your head are still there and ready to sabotage you if you let it.
Best of luck Writergirl, stay strong and keep reaching out for support. We've all been there at one time or another.

Dear Writergirl,
You sound like you are in freak-out mode and I know exactly what that feels like. It seems like an alarm went off in your head and had the WTF moment. You know yourself better than anyone else and the tricks your mind plays to justify bad behaviors. You know the answer to your question sweetheart or you wouldn't have had the WTF moment. Its great that you are in tune to yourself and picking up road hazards on your new journey.

Your tummy is 11 days old and still healing. I'd stay away from carbs that have no nutritional value. Focus on getting your Protein in through Protein shakes. Have you tried almond milk? I use it with a GNC Protein powder and really enjoy it. Just remember that although you got a new tummy the old tapes in your head are still there and ready to sabotage you if you let it.
Best of luck Writergirl, stay strong and keep reaching out for support. We've all been there at one time or another.

Thank you LilMissDiva for your encouragment and the time it took you to respond to my cry for help. It was so wholehearted. I haven't gotten on any support sites for about 6 months and stopped logging my food intake around the same time. I used fitnesspal when I did log.
Your encouragment has helped me get in the right frame of mind and I'm going to take my first step tomorrow by logging in my food intake. I agree that I need to do some kind of low carb diet to break my carb addition and give me the reset I need.
I still want to drop 20-30 pounds, any idea what my calorie intake should be? I don't excersise but I'm going to start doing something even if means just walking around the block with my 5 year old. I live in Florida so the weather is always good.
Thank you again for your help.