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whoooo hoooo! way to go!

The 1cc fill I got last week did the trick! I'm feeling hopeful and encouraged
What about you!?
oh and I'm going to share my goal for this month with you all so I can be held accountable. My goal is to get to 182 by the end of September. I just hope it cools down a bit more here in NC so I can run outside instead of on the dreaded treadmill. ugh.

Alright, I admit I am not know for being the most mild mannered person. I have a bit of a temper but have always taken steps to ensure my temper remains in control (breathe in, breathe out). I do not normally lose the plot. Then there was the incident today....
I went into the office today (been working from home for the last two weeks). Three of the women I work with stopped by my office together to tell me how great I was looking. Was enjoying the ego stroking immensely!!! I have been very open about the fact that I have had band surgery. No reason to hide it. While we were chatting another female colleague walked in.... lets give her a name to protect her privacy... Broomhilda.
Broomhilda ( the _itch that she is) listened to the gals feed my ego a bit and then decided to give her unsolicited two cents worth. And I quote "Amber I can see you lost some weight. You were so huge before. I mean it was time that you did something about it right? I just would have expected you to have lost more by now. I mean bigger people are supposed to lose weight faster right? What exactly are you eating? Are you getting out from behind your desk at all? You know diet only wont move those pounds. You have to exercise to. I don't understand why it took you so long to do something about it. I have been tempted to say something to you about your weight for awhile. I guess even a little weight loss is better than nothing right?"
The other 3 gals got quiet and waited..... The old self conscious me with the dented self esteem might have nodded and smiled and ignored her. Possibly taken her to the side later to tell her she hurt my feelers. The new me..... not so much. Watch out world the Amazon princess is in the house. If she felt it was okay to be rude to me in front of others why should I be the one to restrain myself?
My response:
"Broomhilda I appreciate your candour. Your right I am overweight and am taking steps to ensure that I healthier and happier. Since we are being honest here I just wanted to mention that no one has ever been so rude as to approach me in the way that you have and give such demeaning feedback. Did you have a horrible childhood? Was your dog run over on your way to work today? Honestly the only reason I am asking is that I am trying to come up with a reason as to why someone feels the need to make others feel bad in order to feel better about themselves. Did your parents teach you manners and you just chose to ignore them or were you raised by wolves? Yes I am fat and in time I will lose the weight while my friends support and encourage me. You on the other hand have allot to learn and I only hope that people choose not to be as honest with you about your faults as you are with them. Now get the hell out of my office I want to have a donut!!" (I of course did not have a donut was just pissed off) Needless to say she scurried out of my office. One of the three gals that were still there just looked at me and said good on you!!
What did I learn from this?
1. My anger management skills suck
2. I am no longer willing to allow others to demean me simply because I am fat
3. True friends will encourage and call you out when your getting off base - the secret is understanding true friends will do it out of a place of love whereas _itches are doing it for their own benefit
4. I have value and worth regardless of whether I am fat or thin. Allowing someone to take potshots in order to avoid conflict does not help the situation. It simply makes them feel that their comments are acceptable.
5. Maybe I am a bit of a _itch myself
I saw her in the car park as I was leaving. I did not run her over. All of you are my witnesses/alibi. If anyone asks I was writing this post. The red stains and bad blonde hair dye on my bumper are from a poor unfortunate cat........ Lets stick to the story people.
Thanks for letting me vent.

Happy to say I only have 32lbs to goal at a year!!

How's everyone this week?

I was banded June 26th and had 2ccs in the band from surgery. My surgeon has me on an interesting fill schedule. I get 0.5ccs every two weeks. I am now at about 3.5ccs in a 10cc band. Anyone else on a schedule like mine? My doc won't give me over 0.5ccs per fill....kind of weird?? I have plateaued and feel like at this rate I will never get to the green zone and start losing again

I actually ended up getting 1cc last Thursday and I finally feel the band! I was looking at other people's weight loss and how many cc's they were getting and I was feeling kind of bummed out last week. Thanks for all of the positive and encouraging responses!

I actually ended up getting 1cc last Thursday and I finally feel the band! I was looking at other people's weight loss and how many cc's they were getting and I was feeling kind of bummed out last week. Thanks for all of the positive and encouraging responses!

My doctor did the same, and it worked. I reached my goal in about 16 months and for the past three years I have maintained my weight. Be patient, rather you loose weight slow without complications than to get too much of a fill and have major issues

I run.. I don't have any sharp pain but that area is very sore on my long run days afterwards. .. my short runs 3.1-4.5 miles I dony normally notice it... dr said its just bc I use my ab muscle so much while I run

I swear by Wacoal bras. They can be more expensive, but if you find some on sale they are the best. They have the thicker cup to make the girls look more rounded and your nipple won't show through. I am a 38DDD (think I've shrunk, but not ready to buy new bras yet) and I can always find my size. I also second the Lane Bryant Bras. They carry the 'smaller' sizes like 36DD online.
I would also highly suggest you go to the bra department of a good department store like Macy's or Nordstroms. They have women who will measure you and determine the actual correct size for you, many of us are wearing the wrong size! Good Luck

I swear by Wacoal bras. They can be more expensive, but if you find some on sale they are the best. They have the thicker cup to make the girls look more rounded and your nipple won't show through. I am a 38DDD (think I've shrunk, but not ready to buy new bras yet) and I can always find my size. I also second the Lane Bryant Bras. They carry the 'smaller' sizes like 36DD online.
I would also highly suggest you go to the bra department of a good department store like Macy's or Nordstroms. They have women who will measure you and determine the actual correct size for you, many of us are wearing the wrong size! Good Luck

That's great! I am happy for you!
I don't believe I am there yet, but I am still not really sure what it should feel like. I don't notice much difference from before, except I do have to be careful with bite size and chewing more than before...I have heard that when you are there you will know it and I don't. lol

It's amazing when you feel the band start to do its job. I'm happy to hear you feel hopeful :-) When you are at that "sweet spot", it's wonderful! Less and less do I worry about getting out of control with food. My little "friend" keeps me in check, and it's a very secure feeling.

I got a 1cc fill (finally!) on Thursday and I can totally feel it. Things are looking up!

I got a 1cc fill (finally!) on Thursday and I can totally feel it. Things are looking up!

I am sorry you are feeling down. Sounds like Bandster Hell and the fact that you have lost and not gained at this stage is a great accomplishment! I am around 23 lbs lost myself and it has been mostly because of my efforts to count calories and exercise.
Are you also measuring yourself?
Carbs and head hunger are the worst for sure. I too, have had some difficult moments! If I even look at junk food, I seem to stall or gain.
Hang in there! I am here if you want to chat.

Making a note to myself to shave over the port area prior to going in for a fill. I swear the NP used a cotton ball and a square of duct tape afterwards. Port being sore was enough, but pulling the bandage off before a shower was the worst.

It's funny how the strangest foods are soooo satisfying when you haven't been able to eat them anymore.
I can completely understand!!! I couldn't wait for cottage cheese. Haha

I was so incredibly excited to eat cottage cheese. It was the best thing I had tasted in weeks and felt like a yummy treat! haha

I was so incredibly excited to eat cottage cheese. It was the best thing I had tasted in weeks and felt like a yummy treat! haha

I was so incredibly excited to eat cottage cheese. It was the best thing I had tasted in weeks and felt like a yummy treat! haha

I was so incredibly excited to eat cottage cheese. It was the best thing I had tasted in weeks and felt like a yummy treat! haha

I was so incredibly excited to eat cottage cheese. It was the best thing I had tasted in weeks and felt like a yummy treat! haha

I am sitting here eating a yogurt after three weeks (2 pre op and 1 post op) of Protein Shakes only. It feels pretty insane how much I am loving each bite of this yogurt. I don't think anyone would understand except for those on this site.