carol1951

I am still alive! And trust me, that is saying something. I was Banded March 2007, I was going to go for the RNY but changed my mind. I am so grateful that I did. April 6, 2009 I was diagnosed with Non Small Cell Lung Cancer Stage 3 A. Being able to be unfilled and able to take the meds that I needed, not to mention being able to eat what I could is what kept me alive. Granted, I put on 50 lbs during chemo and radiation. Some from food choices, but most was from going totally inactive. My oncologist tells me that it is going to be a long haul to get back to normal. I have not given up and I keep trying every day. One day I will be back to my old active self. I have started to get filled again and I have lost about 15 of the 50 that I put on. Since I am missing most of my lung, walking is about the only exercise I can do, so it is a good thing I love it so much. Hoping this spring/summer will see me back to at least 75-80% normal. I do believe in my heart and soul that if I would have gotten the RNY, I would not be here today. I was given less than a 15% chance of making it and this April will be my 2 year anniversary for kicking cancers ass!! So all is good in my world. Think when I get off here, I am going to make an appointment for a fill.

My favorite quote is - Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow."

So have courage and never give up!!

Brightest of blessings,

So glad to hear from you.. I miss our blog that we had for so long. Sounds as if your doing good. Take care.

Carol

Hey anyone out there. I haven't heard from anyone in months. I'm still here. NOt doing so good right now.

Hope everyone is good and having a good new year.

Take care.

Carol

I have no idea what I'm most thankful for, there is so many to choose from. I am glad we have our lapband friends. Thanks for being here for me.

Carol

Just checking in. I didn't lose much this week only lost .4 lbs. I knew it wouldn't be good as I hadn't been all that good. Still making to the Y 4-5 times a week. So now I have only 19.6 lbs to go before Christmas or Jan 1st.

Glad to hear your doing ok Gwen. Hanging in there is just want we have to do. I wish it wasn't this way,but this is reality and must learn to live this way. Thanks for being here.

Wish we heard from more people that use to be here. Would love to know how they are doing.

Carol

Sounds good. I need some kind of challenge to keep me going,esp. this time of year. I love to bake for the holidays and its really hard. So I will be counting on you to keep me going.

Good luck with excerise buddy. I hope that helps you. I just make myself go most mornings. I only miss when I'm babysitting for the grandkids or doctor appointments. I have missed very few days since May. I go five days a week and walk in river walk at the Y. I hope its doing me some good. I figure if I'm not sitting around or sleeping late, it must help with some calorie burn. I do hour to hour and half eat morning. Hope I can keep this up.

Sticking with my weight watchers although I haven't been that good this past couple of weeks. Still losing will see how I do tomorrow.

Take care buddy.

Carol

I am seeing results, I'm down 41 lbs since the end of May. I want to lose faster but thats still not bad. I hope to lose another 10 or 15 by the end of the year. I would like to be close to my goal by my next birthday in May.

Glad to hear that you have found someone to work out with, it helps make the time go faster. I have lost a couple of my walker and I do miss them. Its hard to keep the pace when it comes to exercising. I'm commited to doing this, so I have to do going alone most of the time. I understand the junk food route its really east to do. Why in the world do you suppose junk food goes down so easy.

Have a good week and keep up the hard work.

Carol

Barb,

Hope you get to feeling better soon. Right now is not the time to worry about weight.

I understand the sleeping pill thing. I hate that drugged over feeling the next day. Hope the other stuff helps. I know alot of people that work nights take it to help them sleep.

Keep us posted.

Carol

Thanks Gwen for starting the October blog. I'm still hanging in there. Doctor was really please with the weight loss I've had in the last 4 months. Of course, it has only taken 3 years to get to this point. Yes exercise is very important. One of my walking friends to me that her doctor said what we are doing won't help us lose weight. He doesn't think we are getting our heart rate up enough. I figure calories in and calories out. It was really discourging to hear that from a doctor. Of course I have seen her at the Y in a week now. Sometime we hear what we want and not what we need.

Hang in there we will be here together.

Carol

Glad to hear you are doing so good. You will bouce right back.

I think one of the things we have to do is realize that most normal weight people do mess around with 10lbs, up and down. My sister is one of those people. Shes always telling me she needs to get back on her diet,because she has gained 5lbs. That maybe one of thing we have to adjust to also.

I have a doctors appointment this week will be interested in seeing how all the blood work come out. I would love to get off some of my meds.

Again Janine, glad your doing so good. Hang in there, we all are still here.

Carol

Janine,

Sorry to hear about your problem. Hope all goes well tomorrow. I square sometimes its just one thing after another. We will be here for you.

Keep us posted and I will say a prayer for you tonight.

Carol

I fight that attitude everyday of my life. Guess I just want to feel sorry for myself. Why can't this be easy for me? You can do this, its not easy. Look at how far you have come in the last 3 years. Then remember where you would be without the band.

I'm still doing weight watchers and I'm still not losing as fast as I want to. I been losing around a 1 pound a week. Its a lot of work for just one pound. I have been walking everyday durning the week. I take Sat and Sun off, but I still get tired of it. Sometimes I think I'm getting burned out. This has to become a way of life. I fight that also. I want what I want when I want it. I don't like being told you can't have something.

Oh well. Everyone have a great day. Hang in there, I still need you.

Carol

I had my first taste of pop in over 3 years in July. I didn't care for it. It burned my mouth and just plain didn't taste good. I was a heavy diet coke drinker, but gave it up when I had surgery. I don't miss it, never would I have believed that I would say that.

I know exactly what your talking about. Don't beat yourself up, if you can't do right now thats ok. Take a break and start over in a few days. We all have to deal with stress in our own ways. You will get back on track sooner if you don't feel so guilty.

I'm with Gwen right now. Think I'm to tight. I'm trouble with indigestion. Some days it fine, but right now I have had indigestion for serveral days in a row. Need to call the doctor, but afraid the will take out to much. I have actually lost weight this time for the first time in serveral years. Can't figure out why it doesn't bother me all the time and just part of the time. I really thought it would get better as time went on and I lost some weight. I have lost about 15 to 20 lbs since this fill in May, so really thought it lossen up some. Guess I will have to give up and call them in the next few days.

Gwen glad to have you back. I know how hard it is to stay on track, but this is a life style change and it can be really hard. We will have our up and downs, but we have to stick with it. It will happen, I have to believe that.

Carol

So proud of you. Keep it up and it will come off, maybe not as fast as we would like. Every ounce adds up, one pound a week and thats 52 lbs in a year.

Congrats on that. You must be walking on air. See if hang in there it will happen.

Glad your weekend wasn't a total lost. I did go to the movies to see Grownups, it was cute. Eating at Chili's was a major piece of work, but did ok. Their stuff is so full of fat, I looked up on their web site for calories and fat and Fiber. Glad I eat very small portions of it.

My blood sugar was better this morning. I drank more Water yesterday and didn't eat anything after 7 pm. No I don't have problems with my gums bleeding, thank God.

I still doing good tomorrow is weight watcher day so will see how good I have been this past week.

Carol

Emotions play a big part in my love of food, so don't beat yourself up. Sorry for the disspointment of not getting to go camping, maybe you can find a place to go swimming anyway.

On the other hand my blood sugar was high this morning, but I was up serveral times in the night to go to the bathroom, so I figure the blood sugar is high because I'm probably dehydrated. I'm drinking a glass of Water now, before Breakfast.

Have a good day and weekend.

Congrats on the new grandchildrens. Grandchildren are Gods gift to parent for surviving the own children. I love all 10 of my grandkids.

Good for you, Barb. I won't be easy, as we all know, but you can do this.

Thanks Barb, I so pumped right now, about losing weight. I made a promise to myself to lose most of my weight before my 60th birthday. I am on the way, but it will be a long jounrey this year. I really need this group for all the support.

Ok so went to weight watchers today and lost another 3.2 lbs. I'm doing good concerning I was out of town last weekend. It's so exciting, this is the frist time in 3 years that I feel as if I have restriction. Restriction, diet and excerise is really working right now. Hope I can continue doing this.

Sounds as if we all have the same problems. I just wish the mind was easy to control and we didn't make the same mistakes over and over again. I need the accountablity that comes with weight watchers, wish I didn't, but I do.

Rosi, glad to see you back with us. We need each other so that we know someone with the same problems are outthere and we are not alone.

Have a great day everyone.

Its so hard to quite, when we are out of control. That said I don't understand why at times we can do all the right things and then turn around do all the wrong things. Its so hard. I have had that trouble the whole time. I know most of it is a head game, but why do we have to do that stuff.

That said, I did pretty good yesterday. There was just to much going on to eat. Tomorrow is weight in day at weight watchers and the doctors office. I think I'm really to tight, but this is the very first time that I'm not really hungry. I'm having issues with indigestion, so will maybe have a couple cc's removed.

Oh well, so much for my stuff. Hope everyone had a good 4th of July.

Carol

Jeni, Glad to see you back. There is no judgement here, we are all in the same boat. I believe this is life the way its always going to be, working hard to lose and stay at what ever weight we decide is right. So don't beat yourself up, just get on the right path again.

Carol

Barb congrad on getting the port out. You will feel great once your back in control of your diet.

Karen hope you can relax and enjoy your grandkids this summer. I remember all to well try to take care of my mother-in-law. Its so hard and stressful. Don't forget to take time for yourself, its really important.

Carol