DeLarla

Sorry but I had to take a break in the crazy day to go see Brokeback Mountain. First time in 10 years I had popcorn with no butter (ate 1/2 a medium bag though.) Hubby's whining that I haven't spent time with him, but I really want to get my flabby arms to the gym so I gotta drug him n' sneak out. Can't someone just crop my face into the dress?

Frettin' n' stewin' is what Chris calls it. I do it all the time, but it's useless. I have to get a lung cat scan this week so I have similar ants in the pants, but that's why I rode the bull. Gotta keep living. Go shopping, enjoy life, put on your belly dancing outfit and live, live, live!

Geeze, you all know how shy I am! I need a shower first, fair? I've been cleaning, and then walked the dogs and hiked. I need to get to the gym, too.

Dee, I LOVE LOVE LOVE your face! Finally, someone smiling at us when she posts! If that size 18 is still at David's Bridal next week, I'm buying it just for sport. Heck, if I can get in an 18, I'll dress formal to work!

By the way, don't even THINK about going backwards woman! You are my biggest inspiration and I just gagged down a chicken leg and ounce of cheese at 8:00 a.m. because of you. I'm not a morning eater, but it's the only way to make the weight come off. Slowly, but it's working.

My doc recommended Hydroxy Cut to ward off hunger. Yesterday morning I took 3 according to directions and was "heart attack nervous" all day and night. Sheesh, I'm supposed to take that 3 times a day? No way. Let me know how this new one works, k? Last thing DeLarla needs is speed, right?

I tried again but it says "invalid destination address." I've tried 5 times with different addresses. Technology, eesh.

I tried sending the pic to my e-mail but it failed! Vines, I won't have to wear evil heels with this dress since it's so long! Now I gotta zip my piehole shut till then so I don't look like a sausage. Now, where does an Amazon get a onezie strapless girdle?

A girl took a pic of me in the size 18 on my cell phone, but I can't figure out how to transfer it to my puter. But I do have proof on my phone! I'm amazed.

Thank you, everyone! I can't believe my luck yesterday! I mapped out all the stores but was so busy that I didn't get to my first stop till 4:30 p.m. Lemme tell ya, David's Bridal in Vegas at closing the month before Valentine's Day was a hoot! I started in Alterations having the green velvet dress analyzed. They could have fixed it for $75.00. Then I tried on a few dresses of the rack. I'm writing from Heaven after ZIPPING UP A SIZE 18! I couldn't breathe in it, but who cares! I actually had a CHOICE of dresses, which is unheard of. I selected this pretty 2 piece that was on sale for $99.00 from $150.00. They didn't have pens at the register, so I went to my truck and brought 2 huge fistfuls of my leopard & hippy Slumber pens, which they went nuts over and reduce the dress to only $53.00... fifty three! It's an elegant plum 2 piece (floor length.) It's size 20 so the skirt is a little big. My arms will be completely exposed, which I've never done for a formal event. I could never have done it without you all. I thought I'd be shopping for a week, so Penni, thanks for being first to recommend David's Bridal. The girls were awesome, and I was done dress shopping in 30 minutes.

OMG, I'm wetting my pants here... Alex, could we please have talking avatars? Cluck cluck cluck cluck. I'm just having my very own party in my head today! Could you imagine, talking avatars!:clap2:

One month ago I was in the hospital for band removal. I'm one of the lucky/unlucky ones that's still restricted. I had a terrible hiatal hernia that hurt like a muthah prior to banding. It was apparently corrected with the band and stopped hurting. Now I feel that pinching/ouch often that scares me to overeat. But fright doesn't always hold me back, because I've had a couple bad binges that kept me awake all night in pain. I now have Barrets Esophagits, which means potentially cancerous stomach cells somehow eroded my esophagus (something like that) making it hard to swallow. A few nights ago I ate Cookies and peanuts right before bed and had a very frightening night of not being able to breath; choking, wondering if I'dl ive. Bad habits don't fade easily. In my condition, I simply can't eat before bed or I won't sleep. Two of my incisions hurt like I've been beaten up (port & small one between & below boobs.) Dr. Billy didn't need the small one, but he cut out the bad scar (kiliod) for me in hopes of a flat scar. I can't wear bras because they rub that scar, which is probably why the 1st one turned to a kiloid. I've managed to lose a few pounds since band removal, which is a miracle considering I gained 10 pounds towards the end of my banded life. I try to stay at 1200 calories, but I go over every night with large portions. Staying away from night eating might kill me one day. It's what I do. Last night I drank a Diet Coke to keep from eating, but then I need a Xanax to sleep. I just felt the need to journal all this.

So I'm the only one that lifts the lid to check for a head? Odd. But to be afraid of cows, odder. I adore cows. I can do without decapitated heads though. Better to voice your fear so it never really happens. Being afraid of animals biting your feet is a valid fear in my book considering my cat used to attack our feet in dead sleep. Freaky, indeed.

Tracey, you can post here any time. Just when I thought my removal was bad, then yours sounded so much worse. Who did the removal? Was it the same person who did your band? How long were you banded? I never had problems with the burning of acid reflux, but I had some problems swallowing. I had a bad PB before I was banded. One time I was really full, eating dry pretzels while driving (that's what 300 pounders do.) Suddenly my chest was heaving and everything got stuck. Overeating can cause so many problems. I have to wonder if my bulimic phase of vomiting weakened my esophagus. I guess I'm lucky that I've been spared the heartburn. I can eat hotter food than my Mexican friends with no burn, but I have swallowing problems and can't breathe if I lay down after eating. I can feel food sitting in my esophagus.

Wondering if someone is hiding in the closet or under the bed. Ax murderers. Where are the rest of the weirdos today? I know I'm not alone.

MY QUEEN! Where ya been, Donali?

Dawn, don't allow hubby to decide what YOU will ride. Start trying them all out now. Sit on all the different bikes at the Harley dealership, snag rides with anyone who'll take you on back. Would you let hubby pick out your shoes or handbag? Same with bikes, we each have different personalities and preferences. My husband wanted me on a Dyna, and I almost bought one like his. But I was hesitant and waited. Then I sat on the 2006 Street Glide last month and saw angels. I grew out of my Sportster in the first year. Great bike but too small for an Amazon like me. I ride hubby's Dyna sometimes, which is like riding a bad ass chopper. My new bike is like driving a Mercedes. They're all different - only your butt will know when you find the bike that's right for you.

@$%@%^!@#&*(*())__*&^%+#$# Does that say enough about how frustrated I am with head hunger?

Damn, I wish someone was here with a camera! I stopped wearing these jeans months ago because they were too tight. I grabbed them this morning out of "need to do laundry desperation" and not only do they fit, but I can pull them off without unzipping. How can I take a picture of me pulling off my own pants?

"Delarla, honey is pure sugar. So is Fructose, sucrose, corn syyrup and maple syrup." Paul, duh... did you NOT see the part where I'm intentionally staying in denial? Honey is evil, but I prefer putting bee poop in my pie hole instead of synthetically adjusted powder. And you know way too much about artificial sweetners for a guy. Damn boy, where'd ya get all dem smarts? I'm only talking about personal experience, and I'm very much addicted to diet cola. I'm not picky about brands, but the chemical addiction is very strong. Artificial sweeteners aren't the only chemicals in diet soda. Phenylketonurics are cautioned against the Phenylalanine. Maybe I'm a Phenylketonuric.

It used to be just a thread till I posted my new beauty there. My bike now qualifies it for an entire section, thank you. Boys, hmpf!

I had one too, but the pain stopped after I was banded. My Mexican surgeon's English could never translate whether he fixed it, or if the band placed over it pushed it back down. But I just posted on another thread that it's starting to hurt again (a little) after having my band removed. I asked my removal surgeon what he was going to do about the hernia, but in all the misery of band removal surgery, I forgot to ask him.

Honeybear I mean Jessiebear, I've intentionally stayed in denial about honey doing the same thing. I do not want to know! I enjoy a tablespoon in my green tea on occasion. Tons of people are addicted to Splenda and Equal. Heck, I'll even take the pink stuff. What does it tell you when it's so hard to quit a diet artificial sweetener? Crash n' burn, baby.

Yes, the nausea and the poopies will all go away!

I'm glad you agree but DeLarla wasn't right, it was Dr. Billy who gave me the "no artificial sweeteners" lecture. He explained how diet foods, non-fat, lowfat, sugar free (with the exception of low fat milk) are loaded with ingredients that trigger cravings. Artificial sweeteners are derived from sources that cause the same crash n' burn effect as carbs do. It's true based on my own experience. If I have a Diet Coke at lunch, I simply can't make it through a night without getting into crap. And I don't go looking for cheese or fruit, I need Cookies or chips. It's not a "want" either, it's a physical craving that I can't control. I'm sick of Dr. Billy being right, but he knows what he's talking about.