SamG

So I was updating my weight on the website and when I went to view my profile I saw it. Yes, I saw it. I am officially down 61lbs. My first mini goal was to get to 250 and I achieved that; my current weight is 244. But to actually look at the number of pounds lost is blowing my mind. I could never fully understand what some people meant when they said they would look at themselves and still see the fat person they were. Now I get it. Sometimes I feel like I've lost most of the weight and then other times I look at myself in the mirror and still see the same overweight person.
 
I promised myself that I wouldn't get overly obsessed with weighing myself as I don't want to get discouraged. And so far I have been doing good. I weigh myself once a week and sometimes I go two weeks without weighing myself. As long as my clothes are fitting differently and I'm able to get into clothes I couldn't wear, I know that I'm doing something right.
 
I just can't believe I've lost 61lbs!!!!!!

So I was updating my weight on the website and when I went to view my profile I saw it. Yes, I saw it. I am officially down 61lbs. My first mini goal was to get to 250 and I achieved that; my current weight is 244. But to actually look at the number of pounds lost is blowing my mind. I could never fully understand what some people meant when they said they would look at themselves and still see the fat person they were. Now I get it. Sometimes I feel like I've lost most of the weight and then other times I look at myself in the mirror and still see the same overweight person.
 
I promised myself that I wouldn't get overly obsessed with weighing myself as I don't want to get discouraged. And so far I have been doing good. I weigh myself once a week and sometimes I go two weeks without weighing myself. As long as my clothes are fitting differently and I'm able to get into clothes I couldn't wear, I know that I'm doing something right.
 
I just can't believe I've lost 61lbs!!!!!!

So I was updating my weight on the website and when I went to view my profile I saw it. Yes, I saw it. I am officially down 61lbs. My first mini goal was to get to 250 and I achieved that; my current weight is 244. But to actually look at the number of pounds lost is blowing my mind. I could never fully understand what some people meant when they said they would look at themselves and still see the fat person they were. Now I get it. Sometimes I feel like I've lost most of the weight and then other times I look at myself in the mirror and still see the same overweight person.
 
I promised myself that I wouldn't get overly obsessed with weighing myself as I don't want to get discouraged. And so far I have been doing good. I weigh myself once a week and sometimes I go two weeks without weighing myself. As long as my clothes are fitting differently and I'm able to get into clothes I couldn't wear, I know that I'm doing something right.
 
I just can't believe I've lost 61lbs!!!!!!

So I was updating my weight on the website and when I went to view my profile I saw it. Yes, I saw it. I am officially down 61lbs. My first mini goal was to get to 250 and I achieved that; my current weight is 244. But to actually look at the number of pounds lost is blowing my mind. I could never fully understand what some people meant when they said they would look at themselves and still see the fat person they were. Now I get it. Sometimes I feel like I've lost most of the weight and then other times I look at myself in the mirror and still see the same overweight person.
 
I promised myself that I wouldn't get overly obsessed with weighing myself as I don't want to get discouraged. And so far I have been doing good. I weigh myself once a week and sometimes I go two weeks without weighing myself. As long as my clothes are fitting differently and I'm able to get into clothes I couldn't wear, I know that I'm doing something right.
 
I just can't believe I've lost 61lbs!!!!!!

So today I have my 4th appointment which is my second Bariatric class. I'm excited as this only leaves me with two more sessions before my paperwork is submitted to the board for approval. This process has gone quicker than I thought it would. Oh, and I've also decided to start attending an over eaters anonymous meeting. I never really thought of myself as an over-eater, however, I do eat when I'm bored so I guess that could be considered over-eating. I hope to get to the root of the problem and find some tools that I can use now and after surgery. I don't want to get the surgery and have the same issues that I started with. I have been doing a lot of life planning over the last couple of months and I'm just ready to get everything in order. Although I haven't gotten the surgery yet, just knowing that I'm going to get it has given me a second wind to get things going in the right direction. I'll write another blog to let you know how my class went. I'm not sure what she will cover, but I think it has something to do with the things you can and cannot eat after surgery.

So, I went to my third nutritionist appointment yesterday and I am down 8 lbs. I had been stressing out because I lost 5 and then gained 2 back, but nope...I'm down 8! My appointment went really well and she said that she would let me take my gastric bypass 2 class in April instead of May. That means I see her in May and June instead of May, June, July and my paperwork will be sent for approval during the July board meeting. I must say that time is definitely flying and I'm getting excited. I now have to get some blood work done for some type of bacteria to make sure I do not have it, an EKG, and my mental health evaluation.
 
I'm hoping for an August surgery date, fingers crossed!
 
Thanks to all that sent encouragement in my last blog. I got this!

So, I went to my third nutritionist appointment yesterday and I am down 8 lbs. I had been stressing out because I lost 5 and then gained 2 back, but nope...I'm down 8! My appointment went really well and she said that she would let me take my gastric bypass 2 class in April instead of May. That means I see her in May and June instead of May, June, July and my paperwork will be sent for approval during the July board meeting. I must say that time is definitely flying and I'm getting excited. I now have to get some blood work done for some type of bacteria to make sure I do not have it, an EKG, and my mental health evaluation.
 
I'm hoping for an August surgery date, fingers crossed!
 
Thanks to all that sent encouragement in my last blog. I got this!

To give you all a little background information. I started the process with Kaiser February 6, 2013. Kaiser requires that you do the following before your paperwork is submitted to the board for approval.
1. Complete GB1(1st month) and GB2 (4th month) Class
2. Complete a weight control class
3. See a nutritionist for 6 months
4. Get a mental health evaluation
5. Sleep Study
 
So as of today, I have done the GB1 class, sleep study and have seen my nutrionist twice, my thrid appointment is April 9th. I'm hoping to get my approval for surgery by the end of July and have my surgery the first week in September.
 
I have been planning to have this surgery since October of last year. I could have started the process sooner, I just had to switch my insurance over to Kaiser, which I did January 1st.
 
It seems like since I knew I was getting surgery, I had been eating almost everything in sight. Well not really, I've just been eating out almost everyday. I'm not sure if it was becuase I knew that I may nto be able to eat these things again, or if I was eating out of fear. I had a breakdown in February because I realized that everything about my life was about to change. Now, I've been skinny before and I know how my life was then and compared to now, there is a significant difference. I just don't know if I'm mentally ready to take that on right now. I tell myself that I don't have an addiction to food, but for me to go from 180lbs to 305lbs in 10 years says a lot. 305 lbs is my highest weight EVER. I've gotten close to 300 and got scared, seeing myself over 300 has taken a toll on me emotionally. Now I have to loose 15lbs before July 9th with my nutritionist and I'm feeling like I can't. When I know I can because I've done it before. I know it's all a mental game, but I'm loosing.
 
When I went to see my nutritionist on Feb 12th, she said I had lost 5 lbs. When I went back on March 13th, she told me I gained 2 lbs back. I couldn't understand it. So now I need to loose the 2 lbs that I gained before I go back on April 9th.
 
Wish me luck!